Wednesday, September 7, 2005

   Well ... I survived
God ... why did I want to go back?

The first day is finally over and I'm so fucking glad.

First off, I'm not in the right choir class ... and that just pissed the fucking Hell out of me. I'm supposed to have Symphonic choir third period and Biology second period. Instead, I have La Voz choir ((the all-come shitty choir)) second period and Bio third! Same Bio teacher ... BUT Raven's in that class. Fucking-a. I'll talk to Ms. Cappello tomorrow and hope that she'll let me switch ... though knowing her, I won't hold my breath. So that just sucked.

The rest of my classes are okay ... but you can just feel the tension in the room. *shivers*

My sign language class is freaking weird. Louie's in that class too but she might switch out. The damn teacher wouldn't talk AT ALL the whole fucking period. She wrote like five sentences on the board and pointed at stuff. The rest of the time she spoke to us through sign. I was so freaking confused but I did learn a few words.

I already have a homework assignment that's due tomorrow ... but I don't know if I'm doing it right because she never talked. We have to bring in a "Who am I?" bag with three to five things. Shouldn't be too hard. *grabs a CD, comic or DVD, and imaginary plushie of Ed and puts them into a bag* All done. x.x

Dude, my AP World History class is just GAHH!!! @_@ We're going to read so fucking much. We're starting 8,000 B.C.E. all the way up to when Clinton was president. Today we have to read a chapter to talk about tomorrow. Next week we'll be on Egypt ... then the next week we'll be on Rome. Geez we go fast.

I have a little algebra homework too but I already finished that. That was the easiest of my homework; I like algebra.

So besides second and third period ... my classes are okay.

I have first lunch again; at least KK and Chacha have it with me. But I didn't sit with them; there wasn't any room. I went to the nook where I sat last year and listened to music while I tried to eat some chips ... I couldn't even finish one. I just sat there and watched all the people walk by. It was the first freaking day of school and everyone seemed to be paired up. Everyone had their friends with them and no one was alone. It made me feel horrible. I just wanted to crawl under a rock and die. Actually, I was mentally yelling at myself for not bring my blade. It felt like the end of Freshman year to me; like I was waiting for Billie and her group to terrorize me again. Thankfully none of them spoke a word to me. But in a way, that just made me feel worse. Like ... they didn't even want to bother. Also, in bio, the teacher ran out of planners right as she got to me so I had to get one at lunch. Though that was a small thing, it just added up to the feeling. I don't even sit near any of my friends that are in a few of my classes.

I don't know ... I just feel shitty. Why the Hell was I so happy about going back? Don't get me wrong, no one can tell me "I told you so". I like school and I like learning ... just not the people in it.
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