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• 1990-03-07
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• 2005-06-06
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• Uh ... just call me Lyss; hey, only two letters taken off

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• Was in Winter Guard and ... um, passed all the W.A.S.L. tests with flying colours? o.O I passed my first year of high school too ... does that count?
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• Oh God ... since 5th grade at least
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• Full Metal Alchemist
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• To make the Symphonic choir at school and to pass all my classes ^^;;; But for my life goal/dream, I want to become a singer or writer ... though I adore singing more
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• Singing, writing, colour guard, watching anime, reading manga, practically living on the internet or sleeping
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• Singing, writing, colour guard




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Saturday, December 3, 2005

   Unsurprising confession
The moment I woke up today ((technically yesterday)) I turned on the news to check the school reports. When it only said "limited transportation" I asked Mom if I had to go. She didn't really care so I went back to bed. Mom would probably have made me walk if I did get up. You have to remember that she's chicken-shit when it comes to driving in the snow/icy roads. So, that meant I couldn't go to the Black Light dance. It made me sad but it was my own fault.

I finally made Mom crack on what she was keeping from me about Dad. It doesn't surprise me one single bit ... only confirms once more what a sick pig he is. I can't believe I'm half him. Ugh, it makes me want to throw up. Ya'know ... I think that in the back of my mind, that was why I relapsed in 9th grade. Because I was so disgusted that I'm his child I just wanted to cut myself away ... just bleed till I was nothing. Now I want to do that again ... but I won't. As pathetic as my reason is ... I'm in winter guard now. And our costumes are sleeveless; which means I cannot wear my wrist band and my arm will show. I probably have a good month left till our first show ... maybe two months. But that's no excuse to keep cutting. I still can't believe I snapped during Thanksgiving break ... but what upsets me more is the fact that the only reason I can think of is that I was angry with Dad. What kind of idiot says that and thinks it's okay? I'm a moron.

...

*sighs*

...

Sam just texted me saying it was snowing. The world has returned to be wrapped in a blanket of pure white. Hope that doesn't mean I'm without a ride for practice.

Well, it's 12:30 so I need to get to bed. Practice starts at 8:30 so I have to get up early.

... I just wish the snow would lighten my mood a little.

Ja~
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