Sunday, December 11, 2005

   Update ((why does it say it's Sunday? o.O))
Sorry for not updating anything interesting lately. Life has been busy for me since winter guard started. When I'm not at practice, I'm catching up on homework, doing chores, or sleeping. Practices are fun but exhausting. We're behind since two practices were canceled because of snow and we have to be able to perform on January 14th as a preview. I'm guessing it'll be at half-time for a basketball game; that's how it was last year. But damn, I'm in one of the groups that has to spin on your knees in a circle and then all the flags ((me)) throw themselves on the floor. My knees and hips hurt so much. >.< The good thing of all of this though, is that hopefully I'll become a liiiiittle but more graceful since it's mostly a ballet dance routine this year. *sweatdrops* I can dream, can't I?

Mom and I will be FINALLY getting our pitiful excuse for a Christmas tree up tomorrow. Usually, we set up decorations and get our tree ((before the divorce so we'd go to a tree farm)) the day after Thanksgiving. But we've been so busy and/or tired.

Yesterday when I went to the mall with Alyssa ((omg, I typed 'Alissa'; I can't even spell my own God damn name)), we went into Borders and I got the first volume of FMA. It's so different from the anime. I remember that what happens in the manga happened in an episode I saw but it wasn't at the beginning of the series. I don't know what one is was though because that was when I first discovered it.

Wh00t! At guard, we used the song 'Because We Can Cancan' from Moulin Rouge for an across the floors ((warm-up)) and I just downloaded it. I freaking love this song. If you listen, I forgot how many but about four songs play at once. It's awesome.

Wow, I'm really pathetic. All that's on my mind right is when I go back to school on Monday. I'm so behind on homework so that doesn't make sense ... but Tom's there so ... yeah ... >.> I had really odd dreams and Tom was in both of them. On Wednesday night, after the choir concert, I dreamt I was still there and he was the only person I could recognize. On Thursday night I dreamt that people who weren't in guard was trying to learn the routine and Tom was one of them and I had to help him learn the spins. Around two in the morning, I kept waking up and thinking, 'I have to practice!' then I would look at the clock and think 'WTF?' o.O I think that happened because Megan ((the leader-person)) said to just run through the routine in your head when you aren't doing anything. It was so strange though. When I told Alyssa about the two dreams on Friday, she just said I was obsessed. *sweatdrops* I don't even know him that well. I've talked to him prabably a grand total of five times all year and he probably only knows my name ((if he does at all)) because Alyssa is in the same class and there's like ten pairs of name twins in sixth period. Mom says he's liked me for a while because he was supposedly trying to make eye contact at Open House at the beginning of school. I think that was because Dad came and brought his "non-girlfriend" and her son so it's like I brought in the whole damn neighborhood. Tom did talk to me on Thursday and complimented me/my choir which I thought was cool; Mom says that he didn't have to say anything to me so he likes me. *sweatdrops again* I wish I could believe he likes me, but I can't. What guy would be his right mind to like a girl like me? I'm not smart -especially in that class-, I'm not pretty, not graceful by any means -I trip over myself-, I don't know when to shut my mouth, and I can be the biggest bitch on the face of the Earth. *sighs* But I do want to get to know him better ... because I don't want to be setting myself up for a let down if he turns out to be an ass, you know?

Okay, now I'm just rambling about pointless shit.

Ja~
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