Friday, January 6, 2006

   Bad day
Stupid resetting thing. ¬_¬

Today was a really bad day for me. It started out as a bad morning, which kept turning worse. Mom said that some of the best days start out bad, but the day ended up horrible. At least practice was okay; though I thought I was going to be sick for the first half of it.

This morning I woke up a half hour late, but since Mom didn't work today it was fine. I got an awful nose bleed that scared the shit out of me. I NEVER get nose bleeds, but now I get them daily if not twice a day. They're usually small, but this one was likt, I take away the tissue, and I see blood running down my face. When Mom and I left, instead of dropping me off at the AM PM like usual, she waited so she could drop me off at school since I was late and it was raining. Second period was Hell. We had a sub and it was almost fifty girls that are mostly FRESHMAN. They wouldn't shut the fuck up. We actually tried to do something but they wouldn't stop talking! Whenever we stopped singing for a moment, they would instantly start yaking about usless shit and sit down. We talked about how we could fix the song ((like the mistakes we did)) and they got all defensive. I was so ready to scream. Third period, biology, I was sitting there snapping a rubber band to my wrist to calm myself down. My scars actually puffed up and it's still a little sore. x.x;;; But that's MUCH better than me losing it and cutting. I got a little irritated in that class but nothing major. As I left that class for lunch, I decided to go across the grass to get to the student store, The Cave, for pizza. It was raining still and the FIRST step, my feet slip in front of me and I fall on my ass. Of course I scream because it startled me. It was passing period so there were peopld EVERYWHERE to stop and stare. I got up, nicely wet, and took one step and once again fell. I screamed again and this time a few people asked if I was okay. I ran to the bathroom and basically cried my eyes out in a stall. I was so fucking humiliated. My pants were soaked so it was rather uncomfortable to sit. When I could finally stop sobbing, I went to sit next to Shadow like I always do but she didn't say one word to me all lunch. She just sat there playing her stupid DS. I ended up skipping fourth period so I could stay at lunch. I kept bursting into tears whenever someone asked me what was wrong. Andy told me to go to the nurse to sleep but I didn't want to miss more than one class so I just hung out in the cafeteria. The whole day, my stupid nose bleeds ((they're worrying Mom)), and the fact that Mom told me she could be having a heart attack but refuses to go to the hospital. All of that was why I kept crying I think; although I get upset really easily. At least Mom is starting to feel better. I got a lot of hugs today though. XD

After school I just felt sick. I was exhausted, frustrated, light-headed, nauseated, and had a horrible headache on my right temple. I took an hour nap and serious contemplated not going to practice. But in the end I went and started to feel better toward the second half.

I'm okay now; thankfully. But today just sucked ass. It was horrbily embarrassing crying in front of my friends and having to repeat myself over and over as to why I was being more of a bitch than I usually am.

*sighs* Oh well. I'm tired. It's only 9:45pm but I'm going to go to bed now. I need the extra sleep.

Ja~
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