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• Uh ... just call me Lyss; hey, only two letters taken off

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Monday, January 23, 2006

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I stayed after school today. Had to make up an unexcused absence and now I'm okay. Ended up just typing a long pointless entry in my lj. XD Seriously, the teachers don't pay attention to what you're doing. Play games on the computer for an hour and you've made up credit. *shrugs*

I did an entry last night but for some odd reason it didn't save. Basically, I've been feeling ... off. Especially yesterday. I was still down about the winter guard competition, and today Frank would NOT shut up asking me about it. I was so close to screaming at him because I did not want to talk about it.

But anyway, I've just been feeling like nothing mattered anymore. I knew I had chores to do. I knew Mom was going to be home in ten minutes and she would yell. I knew I had homework. I knew today was a school day. I didn't care. I just didn't want to do anything. I had only been up for about five hours at that time and yet I was ready to go to sleep again. I wasn't all that tired per se. But it felt like my body just wanted to shut down on me. I have no clue if that was because I needed to eat or I needed sleep or what.

God damnit. I just got off the phone with Dad. He makes me so fucking mad. I swore to myself I wasn't going to cry because of him anymore but too bad I suppose. I told him that if I work really hard I can pull my AP World History grade up to a D by the end of the semester and he said how that isn't passing in his book. Then we got into Sno-Esle. There's a class I want to take where I can make up a credit for math, english, and science if needed and up to a year's worth of college credit. He said how I better not be doing that instead of college and I told him no. I brought up the fact that he used my college fund and I doubted he'd be paying it back before 2008. It escalated from there to where he refused to say anything. I just told him he could of at least asked me or told me about it. I'm the one that asked him last year about it. Then I hung up on him and started crying. He pisses me off so fucking much!

God damnit.

I can't fucking stand him.

Sometimes I wish he would just die. I know I don't mean it but I still want it to happan occasionally. Does that mean I'm sick and cruel?

EDIT ::: Okay, nevermind. The entry from last night DID save ... it just took like hours to be posted. x.x;;; Odd. *sighs* Whatever.
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