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Birthday
• 1990-03-07
Gender
• Female
Location
• Washington
Member Since
• 2005-06-06
Occupation
• Student
Real Name
• Uh ... just call me Lyss; hey, only two letters taken off

Personal

Achievements
• Was in Winter Guard and ... um, passed all the W.A.S.L. tests with flying colours? o.O I passed my first year of high school too ... does that count?
Anime Fan Since
• Oh God ... since 5th grade at least
Favorite Anime
• Full Metal Alchemist
Goals
• To make the Symphonic choir at school and to pass all my classes ^^;;; But for my life goal/dream, I want to become a singer or writer ... though I adore singing more
Hobbies
• Singing, writing, colour guard, watching anime, reading manga, practically living on the internet or sleeping
Talents
• Singing, writing, colour guard

myOtaku.com: PointlessxJourney

Thursday, February 2, 2006

Mer
I don't know what to do anymore. If it wasn't the middle of the winter season, I'd quit winter guard. It's wiping me out.

Maybe that's the reason why I still feel like ... I just don't care anymore. That and just everything. I know I've put entries about it before ... but I thought the feeling would go away. Well, it hasn't. It's still here and as strong as ever. I just don't give a shit about anything anymore.

Last night, Mom and I were talking about how Dad isn't my dad anymore ... if that makes sense. How I missed the person who was my father, but it's been so God damn long, I can't remember. We talked about the times we did remember of being a real family and landed on the Disneyland trip when I was seven or eight. How he was an ass back then and during the Mulan parade, he was on his cell saying to someone ((we're pretty damn sure he was talking to Sue)) that you have to see the movie first to understand the parade. After that, Mom realized he must of have been having the affair back then. I knew that for a while, but for Mom just to get that and see her reaction ... I thought she was going to cry. Well, I did that for her; as usual. Oh yeah, and we were talking about how he could have said something along the lines of, "This isn't working out." but no, he has to be a fucking coward and have the fucking affair. He couldn't divorce Mom first and then go to his little whore. I heard Sue was nice from Sam, but if I ever meet her, oh someone will be getting the shit beaten out of them.

*sighs* So I wasn't in the best of moods today, right? At lunch, Brian basically confessed that he likes me. I have no fucking clue how to handle this. He's the third guy that's ever liked me but I knew how to handle the other two people; I dated one of them. Brian knows that I really like Tom, so I don't think I have to worry about him asking me out or anything. God, I feel like such a bitch saying that. I don't even understand why he likes me. There's nothing to like; though there's plenty to hate.

Ugh ... so now I'm worried that Courtney is going to talk to me at practice tonight saying I should go out with him. Apparently, there's cousins ... "somewhat" whatever the Hell that means. So she was trying to make him spill who he liked.

Okay, I have no clue what else to put in here. *sighs* I just hope that I perk up soon. I've been so exhaused ... mentally and physically. I just want to lie down, close my eyes, and never wake up.
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