Monday, August 14, 2006

   please no...
Please don't let Fruits Basket end! I only just started loving it, and I have so much more love to give it. But if it ends now, what could have been such a great, long experience will be cut short.
I already wrote in another post about how I got into it, about a month ago. If it ends within a year of my first 'discovering' it then I won't get to love it for as long as everyone else. I mean, I can love it my whole life, but it won't mean as much to me as it did to everyone else. And I WANT it to mean a lot to me. I want the chance to love it as much as everyone else does, as a part of their anime/manga life. But if it ends before I can give it all the love I have to give a manga then I'll feel like I missed out on it.
Fruits Basket became my favourite manga I'll ever read within about three pages (seriously!) I knew it instantly, said it out loud to my sister on the train (not that she cared)...and now it's over.
Okay, I KNOW I'm speaking like it's ALREADY over (or worse, DEAD!) and it'll probably years before England gets the last volume of Fruits Basket. But I'm the kind of person that dreads the end of something good long before it happens. Take Harry Potter. When Book Four came out I was already crying about how we only had three books left. And now with only the LAST book to go, it's never far from my thoughts.
You can see just how much I hate books ending (and also how crazy I am) because of the fact that sometimes I don't finish books. Sometimes, I don't want something to end SO badly that I physically don't read the ending. I've done that with several books. For example, I don't read the last page of a Harry Potter book until the enxt one comes out. And with Malory Towers (a children's series) I actually didn' read the entire LAST BOOK! I only got away witht hat because the books are so old. I'll have to read the last Harry Potter because everyone will tell me what happens if I don't. But with Malory Towers, I was so happy witht the ending of the penultimate book that I couldn't face leaving the characters forever, since I'd loved them so much in my childhood.
I will be SO sad when Fruits Basket ends. Sad isn't even the word. I will feel empty for some time, I'm sure.
Howevher, there is ONE difference between sadness over the end of Fruts Basket and the end of those other books. Those other books I couldn't finish, because I didn't want them to be over. Although I will FEEL the same way with Fruits Basket, I will definitely read the ending. I am so excited to find out who Tohru ends up with that I even WANT to read the last book! That is a strange feeling for me. It's like I was wishing someone dead just because I wanted to see how they would die!! It's terrible! But I JUST WANT TO KNOW!!
Will it be Yuki or Kyo? I admit, I've only read the first six volumes so I don't know how everything develops later one, and if it will be the kind of ending where she just 'ends up' with one of them. I don't know whow satisfying it will be after the events volumes 7-14, or whether it will be a disappointment for as neat and tidy an ending as that. I'm sure every Fruits Basket fan can relate to this, but every time I see one of the boys I think 'Oh, she just HAS to get with HIM!' and then I turn the page and see the other one and think 'No, it's got to be HIM!' I JUST DON'T KNOW!! SHE HAS TO BE WITH BOTH!!
By the way, I'm only pouring out my soul to a computer because if I said this to any of my family they would barely get past the first five words before their mind wandered. And I'm much happier talking about anime to a computer that CAN'T care, rather than to a human being who DOESN'T. I mean, Fruits Basket is, at the moment, my main obsession (obviously it WILL change, because nothing stays the same forever) and if I tried to talk to my family about how wonderful it is, and about how sad I'll be when it's over they would not only not care, they would laugh at me. Here, I can relate to Kisa Sohma, because my family patronise me ALL the time. If I say things that people don't understand they just laugh. They think anything they don't know about doesn't matter. Well, just because they don't know anything about anime/manga doesn't mean they should laugh at me when I talk lovingly about it. It really bothers me.I'm trying to be serious, and share my interests with them, and they laugh as if it's trivial.
THAT'S why I prefer to write down these thoughts about anime/manga to a computer.
Anyway, let me just end this RIDICULOUSLY LONG post with the fact that
I...LOVE...FRUITS BASKET!!!