Monday, November 20, 2006

   i went home after 10:30. i am so lucky to have a break from 10:30 to 12:30. omg. i thought i was going to sleep but i ended up gorging on spaghettios and watching some of million dollar baby and shark tale.

i hope thad comes and visits me tonight. =)

thanksgiving break blows. i planned on being back in town so i could go and hang out with people on saturday. BUT my parents want to stay until sunday! my only break from that class and i deserve a vacation time, time to be with people, but i can't. i have to lounge around my grandmother's house while my dad does nothing but sleep, my brother plays video games the whole time, and my mom goes out to bars and clubs with patty every night. ungh.if they do that, i demand a driveable vehicle that is not the size of a boat so i can have freedom while i'm there and money so i can amuse myself.

have you ever noticed that most of the holidays here are mainly excuses to eat, to gorge among other piggys? another excuse to put off that diet for next week? another excuse to not work out that day? ha. i find it funny....

halloween= shit ton of candy.

thanksgiving= turkey,potatoes, my uncles beer cheese dip, etc.

christmas= snacks, candy, huge meals, more candy.

easter= feast.

yup.


well i'm glad i took time out of my day to go home. i had left the burner on.



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Friday, November 17, 2006

   sometimes when i think about our time spent together, exploring each other, my toes curl and my belly jumps a little.

i wish he weren't mad at me though. i love him. and when he's mad, it makes me scared a little.


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AOL is fucking up my computer. that browser worked perfectly until now.

Now some of my posts are deleted because of it. great.

All i can remember is what i typed on wednesday...

i skipped and went to sarah's at 8 something.

i woke her up by throwing a pillow at her face and we watched over the hedge.

i took her to mcdonalds to get lunch and dropped her back off.

on my way towards thadd's i missed the exit and had to turn around and go back to my house to delete the "your child was not here today" message.

i made it to thad's, worked on some homework for the next day and then we went to rivergate to buy the cow some food and i saw a bunny that could fit in the palms of my hands and was so very cute. it bit me.

we went to Cici's and everyone stared. but it didn't matter. we got window seats and goofed the whole time.

now i am once again sitting in school. dreading the rest of the classes coming up. i hate school. i dread coming here every morning. i can't wait to go home.

turkey day is next week. no school. two days when i am not Prisoner.


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got to school. sped off and forgot my parking sticker to park. so i had to run and get a temporary one.

now i am once again Prisoner.


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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

hrmph.
mr.Tinnon talked me into staying longer at school. he does not see the need of me going home and trying to create some new resumes and looking up on that abc license thingy. i cannot work at opryland hotel because i have several facial piercings.

life is near-to shitty lately. well with the home situation now. i told my father i would only stay in the house long enough to get a job, get my first paycheck, get an apartment, and leave quickly. mr.T wants me to cooperate with my parents on staying with him. i see no point if me being in a college program has does not count in their eyes, and my grades (although they are the highest in my whole educational history) are not high enough.

on another note, i am so dominating everyone else in my classes. no, not because i'm some "suck up" like rae likes to tell himself probably over and over again while rocking back and forth crying in his bed at night. but only because i am actually doing my work this year.

i look like shit today. i'm going to go home, put on a facial mask, and watch over the hedge.





and susan...


becca and i are both retards behind the wheel.
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i'm going home soon.

uhh with how things are working, i need to go on and collect a job and get the money for an apartment.

i'm sick of "family."


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Monday, November 13, 2006

my posts fucked up. sorry.

if you commented my posts. please comment again! i'm sorry.
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sometimes when i miss him, i try to remember how it felt the last time he pressed his lips against mine. i play with my hands, wishing his were there filling the spaces. my stomach tingles and feels full of butterflies when i think about our alone time spent together.

it has almost been a year. a full year! how could i have brought myself to love someone so much? i am happy i do love him and cannot picture a day without him.

there are things here and there that need to be worked on between both of us, but otherwise, i am lucky to have him.

rae tries to tell me i shouldn't be so connected with someone at my age, but that's me. i grew up faster than most. and i found someone that truly makes me happy when i smile. i don't just fake things out on him like i have had to do so many times before to make things seem okay. i can walk around with no make up and bed hair all day and he still calls me beautiful!

i have always wanted someone who i could just have my lazy days with and be me around him.

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   if i could right now, i would so order take out.

susan....

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   i feel like one big germ today.

i don't have school until 9 every morning. i got up at 7:30, put on a big tshirt and sweats, went back to sleep until mom called me at 8:30. so i quickly fixed some hot chocolate and sped to school. there was a sub who didn't take roll. great.

we went to the titans game yesterday. it was actually pretty cool seeing them live because with a tv, their so easy to pass up. it was fucking freezing. we were high up in the air and when i got home later that night, i had wind burn across my face BAD.

mom was so angry that i got to go to the game, because i really don't like football. she threw five dollars at me for gas money this morning and yelled at me for no reason. so i take it maybe i should have just stayed home if she's going to be that way.

i'm going to get my computer apps. work done early so i can leave after 12:30 so i can go home and crash on the couch. hopefully my sickness doesn't get as bad as tim and alexis's.

Oh yeah. on saturday i went to the nashville metal show. "voodoo" did his usual of "i'm going to show off." he actually got on his knees and played to sarah, everyone thought it was funny because i stepped away and laughed my ass off at him. he's such a dickhead. and he even wrote a blog and called casey his "brother in metal." wtf? fuck him. i should have run him over.

anyways. stigmatic was awesome. tim got offa his box! thad kept getting his man sweat all over dondrah and i. lol. the set was cut short because alexis is sick. but over all they played a great show!
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