Tuesday, January 23, 2007

This morning I was completely out of it until I actually got around to moving further than just to the heater in my room. I do not remember what Thad described this mental disease as but it makes the person who has it think that they are sick all of the time.

I took what he was telling me as rude. It started because I haven't been in the best of shape since we have been going out. (I have been through this with another person and they were so sick I couldn't stand listening to him puke and groan anymore. I said nearly the same thing to him that Thad said to me but in all reality I knew he was sick and that it was from his smoking habits.)

I guess this issue just hits the spot because I have gone through hell twice in the past two months. My throat would swell. There was pressure all around my face. I would want to hack the stuff up from my throat but my throat was too sore to do so. There was more to it but I don't feel like trying to find pitty right now, I dislike pitty. Anyways.

The first time this happened, I refused to miss a day of school. I refused to go to the doctor. I thought it would pass with rest, hot tea, and warm clothes. It didn't. It took 3 weeks to get back to normal. A few weeks ago it happened again. I finally caved and skipped school to rest and go to the doctor. I was given antibiotics and 2 shots. They said they would test me for different things. As far as they have said, I do not have mono... and something else... they don't know what it is.

I abused my pills and still have some left because I forgot about them when I started getting better. Recently I have been sneezing and getting nose bleeds in the middle class.

It is not a mental disorder. I hate being sick. I hate missing school when I really need to be there.

I think this discussion began with me not feeling well this morning. My stomach hurt and I felt like I was going to vomit. It was that time of the month damnit. (All women will have it so don't believe that they don't. It's a known fact so don't go elementary on me with your little words, "eewwww" and "gross!")Men need a book on women. It needs to be in a series of books. There is no end to a woman's mind. And no, not everyone can explain an odd pain in your belly or a terrible ache in your back or even a horrible throat sickness with no name.


I wished this morning was not such a rush because I was late. I wish it went more smoothly.
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