Sunday, April 22, 2007

tears

well yes. was 'inspired' to write this post after reading pink candy1's. well. usually i only cry when im totally being emo and all. AT NIGHT. ALONE. WHEN NO ONE IS LOOKING. i may appear to be totally fine sometimes,but im not. i was never fine. like they said,a broken cup can no longer be make whole again,and neither a broken heart. no matter how much adhesive(love) u supply it with, scars still remain nonetheless within the depths of your heart.just like that story of how the boy pierced nails into the tree trunk when he was angry and when he removed them he realised that the scars have been formed like said in my last emo post. i didnt have a happy childhood. it was grey,such is the world.and there was my bedand toys and tv. well. its not like i didnt have any friends at all in my darker days. i DID. i became with this gal i shall name'k' and well. i guess it was only because she WAS one of those peeps to talk to me.(mainly because of my drawings or about homework). and then we became friends. the thing with k is,she didnt really like me,and felt that i was clinging onto her like glue(what am i supposed to do? i was 7 going 8 and she was my only friend!). anyways. she always hung out with her other friends and left me alone. and then when k goes into a fight or has been dumped by them,she comes back to ME,crying and saying 'sorry' . well. being a softie,i naturally forgave her then. but after a few days,they made up and i'm alone in the canteen eating my peanut butter sandwich again. [= im glad we arent friends anymore. seriously,from the bottom of my heart(although some peeps amoungst you knows who K is), WHO NEEDS A FRIEND LIKE THAT?! to be honestly speaking. primary 5~6 was my happiest. cus its then i became good chums with Nis and Nad and Viv. ^^~ haha. we were crazy and all. we are. who isnt? lol. we had fun~ ^^ and i shall repeat myself again,im happy we are back together as one,YAMI,not AMI or MI or YA. ^^. backtracks to the scars and all. ah. well. it never heals inside this gal. and i can only cry to let out all that pain and suffering and sadness through tears. NOT BLOOD! heck. well. whatever it is. my future guy must be able to tolerate all of my tears and won't mind the house a lil flooded ^ ~ good fact amoungst these sadness: well,what can i say? this kitty is very easily appeased. here's a list of randomness to cheer me up: +milk ^^= +apples...nah. not really. but i love apples. just like Ryuk ^^ +sleep (i normally recover and forget the pain through this super effective way though.) sleep is good~ zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *escaptism from reality* +simply put. apologize and u shall be forgiven(even though i might not show it on my face) hmm. well..as random as this can be. i chanced upon this question on like how to appease the angered females of the respective star signs. i forgot what mine was. lol. my personality is a mix of Saggitarius-ness+Cancer-iety. yep. thats where my emo influence comes from?! lol as for me. i wont be so mean as some weirdo girlfriends to request for something like going down on your knees and beg for forgiveness,nor a biiiig bouquet of roses,nor expensive jewellery. a simple 'im sorry. forgive me?' will be sufficient. ^^. or maybe even if i did request something strange like 'i dare you to say i love you in front of this big crowd until everyone can hear',once the other party starts to mutter anything,i swear i would shut his mouth up. its wayyyy embarassing!! even though some gals might think it romantic. as long as the guy loves me...it doesnt matter...*blush*....w..WHAT?! O o haa. randomnessity~ have a chemistry test tomorrow. the a maths test sucked. im superrr gonna flunk it somehow or another. well. lets hope that i pass eventually anyway. lol. have been working on that continuation of that YAMI neoprint i drew in my fanart. yep. with colouration from my newly bought set of shiiiiny pens!! i mean. wheeeeeeeeee they're shiiiiiny..they have smell....and most importantly...they're only $3.80!! much cheaper than a set of colour pens NOT shiny at all by i think it was Mitsubishi or pilot. they were like...$10 over bucks,over my budget. ah well. it might be a waste to be using such pens for normal school work though. ah. heck!! XD -[is happy cus of the shiny pens. is unhappy because the weather is hot~ *half dead as usual]- i recorded some more songs. ah. cant help it. i sound so soft i admit it yes i do. im not used to being in the spotlight. lol. so much for 'percussion shall go on stage for you are the rowdy and u love attention!!!' as quoted form one of those band teachers from the last band exchange at another school. lol.. i do NOT love attention...but that doesnt mean i like to be neglected ^ ~ yes i am contradicted yes i've always been yes that's LIFE. -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

fanarts

well. uploaded some more today! ^^~ meowww~ nuthin much. have been trying to record song smaples into the computer. anyone knows where can i host such stuff? lol. *is rather getting embarrassed* yes i sing very softly...but who knows that HE never heard me singing before..i mean...in a rather quiet surrounding....sigh. thats why i barely sing when i walk anymore...BUT HECK CARE I STILL DO!! bleahs. self-amusement i call it^^ cyax!~ note: THANKS FOR 4050 hits! *huggles again* -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

meowwwwwww~

nah. mr phegm is almost gone,but he messed up the place. bleah. and mr syrup and all-other-things-that-causes-phlegm seems to be turning their backs upon him,so yay~ neoprint: well. its gone. like to god knows where. = { oh well....on the bright side,i have that small-sized one with me =((((( and im glad to know me firends are talking yay! *no glomps noo!! argh!!!! **runs around in circles,panicking* nah. its not that me didnt talk to yuu-chan because me siding with nad or anything...it feels weirdie...lol life: NO BAND!!!! YAY!!!! but thats because the exams are round the corner in 7may. -___________-...the hell.... HIM: well. just when i have been happy about not seeing him...i just did today. once,but just a slight ACCIDENTAL glance at chapel,and another on the bus..and on the route home...-_______-...sigh.... just so you know. that reymond guy? he's officially a blockheaded goat! XD (goat because he's in the year of the goat..)..and blockheaded because he takes an awfully long time to grasp the words people say to him!!...and the thing is..he replied saying 'it doesnt take a million years'...which kinda says that he has recognised the fact that he's a blockhead! XDDDD Nee?~ ^ ~ worst enemies of a girl aged 14,who's typing this post: (other than HIM,homework,im-immunity to walls+pillars+floors) CARS well. what can i say? i aint awake in the day...and i can just switch off anytime.. i never looked where i was going...just focusing on my friend or the floor infront of me and following carefully...so i get rather surprised at the fact that there is suddenly someone appearing around the corner and stuff... and if i can get surprised at THAT...well...it is very much expected that i will get shocked at the sight of an incoming car... and the fact is,everyday is a battle with these horrid machines....and i almost got run down by one in the weekend..well..as much as i am used to almost tripping...and knocking my head against walls and stuff on the bus....yea... bt its a miracle that i could survive all these. maybe there's something more for me to do..other than to sleep...and eat...and go into 'switch off' mode...lol syf: well. today the dancers went. and me made a card for them. i drew a (supposingly) ballet dancer sitting down. and with a graceful/peaceful expression. that was really rare though. i never managed to draw that kinda expression. the really peaceful kind. too bad i didnt haf the time to scan it in. it was all too rushed my choir friends were like: 'hey! why didnt we get one?'(theirs is next tuesday)and my friend began to go 'hmm...we know who to go to when we want one...^ ~ *hint hint*' ...lol! but hey...on the brighter side of things...there's still plentyyy of time to do that now,nee? weather. have been going hot and cold. well. have been going warm. cant help it. its going to be soon may. >< . ugh~ this kitty abhors heat. needs cold winds to keep warm... O o lol and speaking of neoprints. well. since the exam schedule for may allows a break on the 17th may,me and my crazy friends are gonna go out. hmm. maybe we will get a neoprint and stuff. lets hope that they are not gonna spend all their time eating AGAIN...lol...twas boring... hmm...see yas *friendship hugs for your cares and concerns meowwww~* -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Wednesday, April 11, 2007

waaaah

the big day's results well. from a silver,we dropped to a bronze. but man,we werent the only ones dropping and receiving bad grades. hmm. maybe the judges are poisoned and cursed by the other bands from the previous days for..umm...being judges? XD the real sadness... well. today and yesterday was total slipshod day.and i dont know where to begin. the main thing: first(and irrelevant),i was up at the vending machine,and getting pissed off since i couldnt get my drink out.turns out to be that i have inserted the wrng amount of coins. its not my fault now,the drinks were usually 50cents,so i didnt see the drink being 70cents. and that drink was the only available one btw...T T second: returned down to band room. my junior returned me my library card. man. must have fallen out somewhere somehow...?? third and the most crucial part:a clarinet senior somehow gotten hold of my neoprint with Mitsuki,Aiko and Yukio. i dont know. it probably fell out the same time as that library card. we were at the conference hall when she told me about it. i tried several attempts to retrieve it. and failed. even the ever-so-notorious PUPPY look didnt work. ahhh~ after constant pestering,she still didnt return it to me. my stupid junior was like 'hey. remember to smile ar!'(to another senior) and i was having this black face. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO SMILE?!! i dont care if my senior is 'going to put it up on friendster for everyone to see',if i dared to post it on myO,do you think i give a freakin damn about having it on friendster?hell no! well. if i already posted that neoprint and have a copy of it in photobucket and in my folder,u might not think i would boter to fuss over this neoprint. well...NO! i dont know...seeing our friendship falling into bits and pieces really hurts me,even though im not directly involved in the whole process...i've always been such a loner i was happy that i've got myself such nice pals whom i can be myself with. whine and complain all i want~ haa...and there's no limit to what should be said and what not be said. freedom~~ (and yes im actually still a whiny kid who is also rather emo sometimes) i know how it feels like for your friends to leave you. thats what i'm seeing and feeling now. i've not been talking to Yukio ever since. although i still see her online,bt i think no matter what we talk about,it would eventually get to that matter and then we are just gonna be unhappy and all and she's just gonna hate me too...not like i cared about whether i am hated by people anymore..... well. that neoprint was one of the fragments of our happy memories,before yukio's B.F aka mitsuki's cousin came into the picture. we were the same ol same ol chums,playing para para together,taking neoprints together,crapping together.....but looks at us now!...... i want to treasure each and everyone of these little fragments of 'happyness',of the happy times of FRIENDSHIP that i've ever had in these pathetic and grey life of mine. i dont care. i'm gonna confront her,and i'm gonna tell it straight to her face that i dont care what she's gonna do and whether she has put it up on friendster. i just want the heck of my neoprint back.even if i have another exact copy of it i dont care. each and every of these are very precious to me. so the hell i want it back. and if these fails....u'll expect to find another gloomy and moody and emo and 'cursive' post. (by cursive i mean...curse-ive). simple as that. btw. life has been freaky. i actually got an 85/100 for my HCL test! like OMG! O o. someone tell me that was fake...cus even the person with the hightest score in my class has only 89/100. ....shoot me... edit: i've uploaded fanarties yesterdae. pls go see nyaaa~ -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Sunday, April 8, 2007

meow

thanks for your concerns~ sniff. well. to be honest,this is one of the longest periods of sickness i've been through..all i've left now is to get Mr Flu off my back and not forgetting Mr phlegm...ugh...pardon the spelling...if it wrongy...ah. hell. this sucked. mangas well. recently have been reading mangas,Naruto volumes 27-34,Alice19th and angelic layer. well. i just started reding my chinese novel today. and like i just remembered it is due like..in..NEXT SATURDAE!!! *dumdumdum!!!* *shifty eyes* well. with the given extra going-home-early-time after wednesday,this shouldnt post a huge problem to me. what's with wednesday,u ask? its THE big day~~ The SYF CENTRAL JUDGING DAY!!! (judgement day? lol) SYF is short for the Singapore Youth's Festival. For 2007, we will witness a record breaking of 150 secondary schools participating in the biennial Central Judging of Concert Bands which will be held at the Singapore Conference Hall from 9 - 12, 16 - 17 April 2007 and 17 junior colleges on 11 May 2007 info from the official webbie well.Our school has balloted the 11th April too,and we are the second band after lunch. ohhh~ im so nervoussssssss~ twemble on the bright side,having it on the 11th is good...cus that means WE GET TO SKIP PFT!!!!! (aka the ever-so-hated Physical Fitness Test) the first day of PFT's always the 2.4km run for the girls,so like WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE that's great~~~ XD and also that means that i tink i get the chance to avoid *ahem* on wednesday!!!!! for the whole day!!!!!!!...i THINK....-_____________- well. nothing much. it looks like ti is gonna rain....WHICH IS GOOD!!! XD lol. signing off... question: should i keep the marquee and put up 'the many faces of Kobato' kinda thing?? or should i do away with it for the sakes of lazyness~ -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Wednesday, April 4, 2007

sickness-bound

yea,accident bound too. ah~ im such a lousy person.... well. about the accidents...lets just put it simply as 'close-to-death experiences everyday' and also as 'bumping and tripping over stuff easily'. yes. its usually a x3 when i knock my head against the bus's window...ehh....so u'll probably hear me go 'ow' 'oww' 'OWWW' on the bus hm....rather frequently and whaddya know? im back with the flu again + sore throat. ugh. these stuff loves me too much. bleah! off to bed. serious runny nose. heck. -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Sunday, April 1, 2007

-still under constructions-

well. about the stuff in the marquee...i plan to put in pics of Kobato and her friends...like what i did before for Snow and Yuki-chan...^^...but then again...thats alot of people...@ x @ too many pics to put up... nya~ this lil kitty is feeling lethargic~~ oh! and the blank buttons are up for takes! ^^ meow~ i added Mitsuki's button up too~ meowww~~ edit:[ question of e day: have you encountered any weird or strange creatures in your bathroom/toilet? me: yea. i saw 2 BOOKWORMS in my toilet last night. i wonder how those iggle squiggles got in there... note: me uploaded fanarties today! pls go see it ]] [/edit] -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Monday, March 26, 2007

the big 4000

whoo~ like,i mea...wow..i didnt realise it myself...its already the big 4000!!! whoa!!! kobato: isnt this great,Ioryogi-san? (the puppy-dog plushie-like-fella) ioryogi: i guess u did quite well this time. *turns to u* Well,we are here to stay for a few months...for the Kobato theme! or should i say...'the great ioryogi i-love-you festival'!! (sarcasm)!! kobato: wow~ that's great,ioryogi-san!! you already have this much fans!! (kobato is very gullible) me: *ahem* anyway. like i have said earlier on,i shall be having a first-time ever Kobato theme. Kobato started out as a temporary project by CLAMP and are published in Sunday GX through December/2004 and August/2005, before the serialization moved to Newtype. description: Hanato Kobato is a cute girl who has a mission: fill up a mysterious bottle she carries with her in order to grant her wish. For that mission, she's counting with Ioryogi's help, a little blue dog who seems very cute but who has a terrible foul mouth and bad manners. Now, Kobato-chan has to heal the people whose hearts are wounded. The only problem is that she doesn't really know how to do it. The more people/hearts she heals, the more her bottle fills itself. She only needs to take care to not fall in love with the person she's healing. For what purpose Kobato needs to fill that bottle? Who send her for this mission? Will she succeed? note: info and kobato chapters from CLAMPnoLumiere ^^. feel free to download and spread the Dobato-ness!!!! p.s. the theme is still underways. please bear with the incompleteness.... ^^ *bows* Thank you for visiting ever so much~ @to lordsesshy: nah. i dont know of any people who would be smooching people in situations like this...but well...just that i dont remember...BEWARE OF OVERLY EXCITED FANGIRLS! XD or should i say...'overly hyper Otakus' as for the glomps...well...there are many peeps amoungst us who are very likely to do that -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Saturday, March 24, 2007

just made changes to the theme slightly. ^^. meow. gonna run now~ bye~~~~~~~~ -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

eh. a wee bit more of hols homework overdue...ANd then here comes the test. we have a bio practical exam on firdae which is like...uber important...and a wordpower test tomorrow. well. that should be peasy...since like hell i'm always getting good grades for that. BUT that is...provided i study nonetheless... What Kingdom Hearts Character are you (KH and KH2) Cloud. You brood and worry under your darker facade. Maybe things will work themselves out, maybe not. You trust the strength of your friends to keep them out of trouble. Sure, you'll help them when they need it, but only when they need it. You feel you've lost something in your life and you desperately want to find it. People tend to stay away from you because of that strange aura you're giving off. When you do make a friend, it's a bond you don't plan to betray. All your friends are precious to you. You may seem the loner, but you really don't like to be alone. You can stand by yourself in a room, but you always know your friends will be there. Dark and mysterious, you even bleed. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code rather true,i'll say...wow...but cloud doesnt look very attractive....said nuthin nope. i prefer the flufffyyyyyyyy clouds...get it? lols. cya peeps around prob later in the week. -disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~-

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