the big day's results
well. from a silver,we dropped to a bronze. but man,we werent the only ones dropping and receiving bad grades. hmm. maybe the judges are poisoned and cursed by the other bands from the previous days for..umm...being judges? XD
the real sadness...
well. today and yesterday was total slipshod day.and i dont know where to begin.
the main thing: first(and irrelevant),i was up at the vending machine,and getting pissed off since i couldnt get my drink out.turns out to be that i have inserted the wrng amount of coins. its not my fault now,the drinks were usually 50cents,so i didnt see the drink being 70cents. and that drink was the only available one btw...T T
second: returned down to band room. my junior returned me my library card. man. must have fallen out somewhere somehow...??
third and the most crucial part:a clarinet senior somehow gotten hold of my neoprint with Mitsuki,Aiko and Yukio. i dont know. it probably fell out the same time as that library card.
we were at the conference hall when she told me about it. i tried several attempts to retrieve it. and failed. even the ever-so-notorious PUPPY look didnt work. ahhh~ after constant pestering,she still didnt return it to me.
my stupid junior was like 'hey. remember to smile ar!'(to another senior) and i was having this black face. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO SMILE?!!
i dont care if my senior is 'going to put it up on friendster for everyone to see',if i dared to post it on myO,do you think i give a freakin damn about having it on friendster?hell no!
well. if i already posted that neoprint and have a copy of it in photobucket and in my folder,u might not think i would boter to fuss over this neoprint. well...NO!
i dont know...seeing our friendship falling into bits and pieces really hurts me,even though im not directly involved in the whole process...i've always been such a loner i was happy that i've got myself such nice pals whom i can be myself with. whine and complain all i want~ haa...and there's no limit to what should be said and what not be said. freedom~~ (and yes im actually still a whiny kid who is also rather emo sometimes) i know how it feels like for your friends to leave you. thats what i'm seeing and feeling now.
i've not been talking to Yukio ever since. although i still see her online,bt i think no matter what we talk about,it would eventually get to that matter and then we are just gonna be unhappy and all and she's just gonna hate me too...not like i cared about whether i am hated by people anymore.....
well. that neoprint was one of the fragments of our happy memories,before yukio's B.F aka mitsuki's cousin came into the picture. we were the same ol same ol chums,playing para para together,taking neoprints together,crapping together.....but looks at us now!......
i want to treasure each and everyone of these little fragments of 'happyness',of the happy times of FRIENDSHIP that i've ever had in these pathetic and grey life of mine. i dont care. i'm gonna confront her,and i'm gonna tell it straight to her face that i dont care what she's gonna do and whether she has put it up on friendster. i just want the heck of my neoprint back.even if i have another exact copy of it i dont care. each and every of these are very precious to me. so the hell i want it back. and if these fails....u'll expect to find another gloomy and moody and emo and 'cursive' post. (by cursive i mean...curse-ive). simple as that.
btw. life has been freaky. i actually got an 85/100 for my HCL test! like OMG! O o. someone tell me that was fake...cus even the person with the hightest score in my class has only 89/100. ....shoot me...
edit: i've uploaded fanarties yesterdae. pls go see nyaaa~
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
