well yes. was 'inspired' to write this post after reading pink candy1's.
well. usually i only cry when im totally being emo and all. AT NIGHT. ALONE. WHEN NO ONE IS LOOKING. i may appear to be totally fine sometimes,but im not. i was never fine. like they said,a broken cup can no longer be make whole again,and neither a broken heart. no matter how much adhesive(love) u supply it with, scars still remain nonetheless within the depths of your heart.just like that story of how the boy pierced nails into the tree trunk when he was angry and when he removed them he realised that the scars have been formed
like said in my last emo post. i didnt have a happy childhood. it was grey,such is the world.and there was my bedand toys and tv.
well. its not like i didnt have any friends at all in my darker days. i DID. i became with this gal i shall name'k' and well. i guess it was only because she WAS one of those peeps to talk to me.(mainly because of my drawings or about homework). and then we became friends.
the thing with k is,she didnt really like me,and felt that i was clinging onto her like glue(what am i supposed to do? i was 7 going 8 and she was my only friend!). anyways. she always hung out with her other friends and left me alone.
and then when k goes into a fight or has been dumped by them,she comes back to ME,crying and saying 'sorry' . well. being a softie,i naturally forgave her then. but after a few days,they made up and i'm alone in the canteen eating my peanut butter sandwich again.
[= im glad we arent friends anymore. seriously,from the bottom of my heart(although some peeps amoungst you knows who K is), WHO NEEDS A FRIEND LIKE THAT?!
to be honestly speaking. primary 5~6 was my happiest. cus its then i became good chums with Nis and Nad and Viv. ^^~ haha. we were crazy and all. we are. who isnt? lol. we had fun~ ^^ and i shall repeat myself again,im happy we are back together as one,YAMI,not AMI or MI or YA. ^^.
backtracks to the scars and all. ah. well. it never heals inside this gal. and i can only cry to let out all that pain and suffering and sadness through tears. NOT BLOOD! heck. well. whatever it is. my future guy must be able to tolerate all of my tears and won't mind the house a lil flooded ^ ~
good fact amoungst these sadness: well,what can i say? this kitty is very easily appeased. here's a list of randomness to cheer me up:
+milk ^^=
+apples...nah. not really. but i love apples. just like Ryuk ^^
+sleep (i normally recover and forget the pain through this super effective way though.) sleep is good~ zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz *escaptism from reality*
+simply put. apologize and u shall be forgiven(even though i might not show it on my face)
hmm. well..as random as this can be. i chanced upon this question on like how to appease the angered females of the respective star signs. i forgot what mine was. lol. my personality is a mix of Saggitarius-ness+Cancer-iety. yep. thats where my emo influence comes from?! lol
as for me. i wont be so mean as some weirdo girlfriends to request for something like going down on your knees and beg for forgiveness,nor a biiiig bouquet of roses,nor expensive jewellery. a simple 'im sorry. forgive me?' will be sufficient. ^^.
or maybe even if i did request something strange like 'i dare you to say i love you in front of this big crowd until everyone can hear',once the other party starts to mutter anything,i swear i would shut his mouth up. its wayyyy embarassing!! even though some gals might think it romantic. as long as the guy loves me...it doesnt matter...*blush*....w..WHAT?! O o
haa. randomnessity~ have a chemistry test tomorrow. the a maths test sucked. im superrr gonna flunk it somehow or another. well. lets hope that i pass eventually anyway. lol. have been working on that continuation of that YAMI neoprint i drew in my fanart. yep. with colouration from my newly bought set of shiiiiny pens!! i mean. wheeeeeeeeee
they're shiiiiiny..they have smell....and most importantly...they're only $3.80!! much cheaper than a set of colour pens NOT shiny at all by i think it was Mitsubishi or pilot. they were like...$10 over bucks,over my budget. ah well. it might be a waste to be using such pens for normal school work though. ah. heck!! XD
-[is happy cus of the shiny pens. is unhappy because the weather is hot~ *half dead as usual]-
i recorded some more songs. ah. cant help it. i sound so soft i admit it yes i do. im not used to being in the spotlight. lol. so much for 'percussion shall go on stage for you are the rowdy and u love attention!!!' as quoted form one of those band teachers from the last band exchange at another school. lol.. i do NOT love attention...but that doesnt mean i like to be neglected ^ ~ yes i am contradicted yes i've always been yes that's LIFE.
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
