well. my hols have been sucky. practises,practises,cip...ugh!! wah. all i wanted was my own free time to do my stuff like drawingg~ ^^ (people who know me/has been viewing my fanarts would know that i have teh habit of drawing anywhere. textbooks,workbooks,handouts...XD name it!) and sleeping~(havent been getting enough of that) and most importantly. to get chummy with my friends(meaning: i waanna go out with them~~~)
wah. we had failed attempts with my schoolmates since we were all from different CCAs and Oli had tuition - x - waah~ sad~ so the only time i went out with my firneds was the time i went to viv's house. and ONLY that time. wahh~ why is my life so miserable!!
random band stuff~
well. since we are having this tiers thing. my junior(as mentioned in the last post as the bass-drum-guy-with-a-tummy) is on the 3rd one(we have 4.im on the top one). the first day the stupid conductor-who-failed-to-guard-his-toilet-door-properly was saying 'eh william(the bass drum junior). u have to half-squat. then i can see her(refering to me)'
UGH! and that pesky idot replied 'thanks for making me feel tall' IDIOT! i would have swore if i was in pissed-off-and-not-a-nice-kitty mode,i would have either cursed at him loudly or thrown something at him or hit him with a mallet. GRRRRR!!!(never underestimate what this 'harmless kitty who doesnt look menacing' can do.i curse more than guys ever would. out loud or not. and when i really mean to hit someone in rage. i would even murder. feh! step on my toe,and feel my wrath!)
well. something i forgot what happened during band again and he was going 'ha im taller than u' kinda thing. GRRR i went saying 'grr *dang ass* i can still grow!' and he went going 'play more basketball or something'
....
well. its not like i dont wanna play basketball or any sports...its just that...
there's no one to play it with me....
and yeeeaa~ its my fault for living so far away from my frineds~ *in a sarcastic tone* feh! *suddenly thought of HIM* eeeh!! nononomonono! >< noo~ baaka *hits self*
well. sad the truth would always be. but the hols are ending. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! *falls into an abyss of gloom and darknesss* waaahhhh. the thing is,my friends. i hvent done much homework. hell. the horoscopes are right. i would have to slog myself to death next week. cus of homework. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~ like my life hadnt been sad enough!!!
rain
hm. it had been showering these few days(rather. yesterday and today. today especially)as people who have known me for a longer time. u would have known that i liked the rain. i love the rain more than sunshine. (p.s. gomenn~ to those people who thought i was gonna talk about the korean popstar Rain)
rather. it gets people moody. me being in a very unhappy mood. ugh. well. not because of the weather. i am happier than it storms and thunder goes loud.
like i was saying. me in an unhappy mood. well. even after my fits of rage and unhappyness. the me would secrely break down and cry. cry due to the unhapyness. due to the sadness. i dunno why. the gloomy weather suits my feelings well. the rainy weather even better
-let the rain fall in place of my tears
let the thunders roar in place of my raging screams
let the clouds cover up the scars in my heart
let the raging waters devour the horrid people who hurt others-
hmm. of these lines. i use the first one the most. 'let the rain fall in place of my tears..for i am unable to cry anymore...' well. yea. i couldnt cry these past few days. the only 'tears' coming out are those from yawning.
it feels horrid. these pent up feelings
it feels horrid. this awful feeling of being washed away by the raging currents of life
it feels horrid. this feeling of restriction
it feels horrid. to be thinking of him still when i shouldnt be....
well yea. i mean. c'mon! it is very well known that students(teenagers) shouldnt be gettin into relationships and all. as in. love. 'teens are still immature about their feelings. it would only affect their studies' blahblahblahblahblah! but i mean like, really. i dont think we should. nya. i dont exactly know why. perhaps watching a certain some-gal falling in and outta 'looove' continuosly within 2 yrs is too mcuh for me. *hint hint*
well its like~ people have also been saying stuff like 'aww man~ he doesnt even notice you! forget it' well~ i dunno about noticing people. i mean. hey. i can remember certain people just from a few times on the bus. and the fact aside we bump into each other rather...well. considered rather much. sigh. since we would most likely still be seeing each other on the bus,during change of classes(change of periods. as in. lessons. yea. the P word doesnt sound too..right...*blush*)..thankfully not going home. unless he's gonna take the bus.(he was taking the MRT home and walking home from there.i took the bus and well. often see him at the traffic lights or well. walkin home..- -)
nyaa. i dunno. i was able to foget stuff after a while. forget about the day being his birthday.(forgetting even my site's birthday.gomenn~) but then again,shortly after. i remember it agian. i remembered about him. i thought of him again. >< wahh~baaka. ah. im such a dummyyyyy~~~~~~~
but recently. i've beent thinkin about the goat-guppy. lol. (to Sayura-san,eh~ how should we put it. its a little misunderstanding by LS turned nickname for this guy in my school. FRIENDS. and only that) >< maybe cus i wanna torture...? lol. or maybe its just because i think i could trust him. i feel like i could(perhaps because both he and my ma are goats and scorpios. different birthdates lol)...just like i did with Him. i dunno. its a comforting feeling. but then again~ maybe not mr guppy aka i-fall-asleep-in-front-of-the-computer ^^ lol~ afterall. 'bakas are bakas'(random quote which is very much agreeable)
maybe its because of the disrray feelings. maybe its because i dont feel secure.
-i'm like a flower quickly fading. here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean. a vapour in the wind-(from the song 'Who am I')
hm. occasionally. we can come across nice random quotes which appeals to us very mcuh in our feelings in christian songs during chapel. XD maybe it is good in a sense lol~~
sighhh homework sucks. life sucks. being a sec3(hm. what u might call grade9) sucks. ugh. >< how i wish it was back to the good ol days of childhood(childhood for me=4~7 yrs old)-- no wait. they werent the happiest days of my life. it sucked throughout.. -_- nyaaaaaaaaaaaa
p.s. life~
me were clearing up the manga folders as istructed by onii-sama- eh no. onii-baka ^^ bleah. he says that we are having too little RAM for stuff. so ah well okie then. me has cleared up Angelic layer and MAR folders. hmm. Ouran is a difficult one. so many nice piccies kyaa~~ ^^
hmm. +Anima cleared too. what else..hm. eremntar gerad. another difficult one. Ren is so pretty ^^~ lol. tsubasa. jinki. jigoku shoujo. fairycube left. hmmmmmm~ >< well. now i just need to clear the pics that are unnecessary for me. usually i would hae already done away with credits and such. lol
ooh no. long post alerts eep chao~ happy fathers day! happy being guineapig,pops! XDDDD
p.s. my last cake attempt was going well. until the fact that the cake tuirned out like pie cus i didnt use cake flour or self-raising flour. it tasted niciiee~
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
