good kitty: me went around to sites
sad kitty1: me has officially developed a pair of rather horrid PANDA EYES. >< in otherwords. dark eye rings. finallly time has caught up with me. soo yea after many years of sleeping late and this year even later,i officially became a real zombie with those eye rings.
sadder kitty2: im hungry~ *phenomenon occurs @ almost 24 hours a day so actually it was no surprise
saddest kitty3:i lost my ezlink card. or hmm.lets just put it as,bus card,since these foreign myOs might not understand any of EZLINK XD
well. it might have simply meant 'go get a new one'. but no. i cant
ya see,for these O level exams,since there is like,a higher level of security and stuff. theres an entry proof telling you of the exam dates and times. along with that entry proof we were required to present personal identification. since i am too young to make an IC(identification card TT)(singapore's law: 15yrs of age to go make an IC),and i dont have a passport(cus i havent gotten one),all i had was the ezlink card to verify that i are me. (it has my face,name,sch?? on it)
and the worst thing is: the next paper is on MONDAY and we have to report early for it.
well. i am damn sure it was somewhere around the band room. i last saw it there. i chucked the thing juust inside my pocket and not the wallet where it was usually found. >< and i am positive i didnt touch my pocket any more after i got out of the band room. >< until the bus. *digs* it wasnt there. i dug everything out. nothing.
after i got off the bus,i had another frantic search for it. i was flustered. scared. worried. OMFG i went. i cried. but it didnt appear
so i ended up crying my way home. and i literally brawled at my mum. uwaaaaaaaah~ ><
well. maybe God wanted to give me a good reason to release all of my pent up stress and all..but man. this joke is too big to be played. its no childs play. if i dont have the ezlink card i cant enter the exam venue i cant take the paper i am gonna flunk it!
well. this is like a friggin shit day. wtfh! . .. . .. .. . . . . ..
i dont know. i cried so much i was surprised at how much i cried.even more than i usually would for my emo-ness. it mattered to me like my life(which btw i dont really treasure) and this is a matter of life and death. like omfg what the hell am i supposed to do about this!*sobs*
well. on the way home. it was totally good that i dont see him not at all. so yea. he didnt have to see me crying home and give me the 'what a weirdo' stare or anything. like it mattered much to me! .> x <..
i wish i would find it tomorrow. or else. im as good as shit.
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randoms
my sis was locked out of the house for 30mins before i woke up and she called the house once again for me to opent he door. lol. she was counting millipedes meanwhile. how...fascinating..TT
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at the crossroads of life
i stood and cry
i dont know where to go and i dont know why
my hearts in flounder,fluster,
and it began to fall apart
it mattered way too much to me i've lost it broke my heart
in my blurry vision i saw you there
smiling at me ,right by my side
i grasped your hand it disappeared
like a misty illusion out of my sight
my heart was stabbed it bled and bled
and blood flew like a river
why were u not there by my side
i realised,it was wrong to be the giver
i gave you my life,my hopes of a better future
i showered you love,stay by my side
you upped and left all too sudden
and left me alone there heartbroken,without sight
the light of my life disappeared
and in the darkness i floundered
yet deeper deeper im drawn within
and in the darkness malicious grins
scoffing at me, 'go away'
i cant live another day
of this insanity it drives me mad
and alone out here cold and sad
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
