hmmn yea. some replies to comments first~
=why.im glad that akane-chan thinks that it is cool ^^= meow~ *sweet meow
=hm. an 85yr old widow? O o lol no! i wouldnt wanna life that long--i mean,i wouldnt wanna be a widow
=and well~ u dont get a refund. cus there werent any faults with the item. besides~ its the school bookshop. dammit. speaking of which,my padlock is taking forever to arrive. grr. dumb MATHS teacher who is unfortunately in charge for the lockers. no padlock,no locker opened fer ya. dammit TT
=yay for kittens' popularity!! ^^= meow~ all hail kittens~ -i mean,meow~~
speakin of dogs,my sis's dog plush she received as a birthday gift,oh man,what a poor soul it is. instead of being showered with love,or placed in a nice spot comfy,or at least,frequent cleaning and picking out of the thread which werent suppposed to be on its body,poor puppy-chan is being squashed,kneeled upon,crushed,left lying around in unsightly positions etc etc. oooh man. poor pupy >< (and me having a cat-theme shoudnt be defending a dog but-) aww it was such an adorable puppy! and floppy and cute but...at the very least,hugs instead of *squash*,and cleaning instead of letting it collect dust. that is how it should be. poor thing.
life
hmmn. well me has been feeling rather strange. especially after viv's remarks about me sounding like guppy's girlfriend or something. that has really troubled me. and also,me printing his BB stuff for him cus he couldnt do it,and him saying 'i will keep this a secret.dun tell the others,cus,tongues will wag' .i began to question our relationship. but then again. well. having 'suffered' with the 'meXguppy' pairing for a few years. grr. we oughta be careful. but me is me. somehow. hes the only guy i feel comfortable around(other than pops and bro). bah. maybe's because...urr..same horoscope as my mum?? well. i dont really know. but friends. thats all there is to it. good friends who compete with each other in exam scores. who snide each other(actually,its only me with the name-calling eg 'ojii-san') ugh. shivermetimbers
but anyway. i really hate the feeling he's giving that its a hush-hush thing. i mean. we are just friends. all there is to it. yea..maybe with the exception for....EX-CLASSMATES XDDDD. thats all there is. lol.but well. i dunno. *was actually amazed at the fact that he has a brain to think that this shouldnt be told to the others cus the dumb rumour would start again XDD)
the other HIM
well. nothin much. but im still dunno what to do. im still feeling panicky around him. again. >//< i dunno. i feel uncomfortable around him again. the same feeling of *blush* i had in sec1. darn it! bah. i dunno. this is taking forever. i need an answer to this. i need a clear direction to what i am supposed to do. i need to get him outta my mind but i cant. im getting deeper into the mist. i cant see what to do.
why was he the one i saw,the one i wanted to wait for,the one i ran after,the one i hoped would turn back and wait for me,the one light which shone in the darkness,and yet the one who caused me so much pain...? i dunno. i really dont. good thing that my friends who knew about this has forgotten(most of them btw),and no one's asking me about this anymore. but..i dunno. i really dont. it aint easy to forget someone who has created a rather great impact on your life as easy as a blink of an eye,as quick as that. well. i wish i could. i wish i really could >< but i cant
anyway. as for my manga. its probably about this too. this unclear relationship. the answer i really want. my inner heart's turbulations and trials. the real world of within my heart. the REAL me. given the circumstances,this is probably gonna take until next year for me to complete a chapter or 3 chapters. slow production. too little time ><
sigh. and bus drivers really need to relaern driving altogether. well,i was going home fromm school, and since i am only gonna be aboard the bus for a few stops it as okay to be standing. and then this guy came on the bus.which was okay. when i was reaching my stop,the car jerked forwad. i clinged onto the pole/railing/grabbing thingy,and he came clashing towards me. past me btw. given those bimbos,they'll go WHOOOO~~ but for me. bah. he hit my head. messing my hair is one thing(since it is forever in a mess so i dont really bother), but the impact on my head has caused a slight concussion so i was still giddy after that. damn the jerk(jerk as in the sudden lurch forward and also to curse)
and then. i was going 'okay fine. given me in a pissed mood. i wouldha sworn loud at the guy who knocked against my head. but im in a calmer mood so i didnt' and then. i was at the traffic junction waiting for the lights. the lights for the oncoming cars turned red(which means STOP) and 2 freaking buses when ZOOM past the red lights(which is an offense and against the law). GRR! like several other people were going WTH too. ugh. those gibberishnibbers..grr like who knows they might have taken a few idiots who were rushing to get to someplace.
p.s. thanks ls for the award^^ lol. i did it out of -having time to waste- XDD ah well~
and the dumb guppy replied saying he was a good monitor *cough choke puke* like yea in yer dreams! does having people from the class go bout and disturbing other classes is being a good monitor. and one of his lame jokes--'im a good monitor-a good computer monitor!- TT lame~
well yea. tooodles~
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
