ah well. perhaps it is kinda wise to stay away from me when im in lilmisscranky mood. grrr~ ah well. hmpf. dunno. maybe's bcus my friend ha been approaching the limit. i dunno. for me its "u forced me to my limits,i dont care if u are my friend,u shall be banished and treated like any other stranger on the street".
me? i admit i am one with extreme protection for my inner heart. 'u shouldnt set up barriers between you and others' whatever crud? FEH. its too late to be saying all of that now. with each day and each new scar,a new set of barrier set up and a more trying road to reach the inner me. well. to be perfectly honest,if u dont open myself up to others,they will never know what im thinknig...never
-unless that im,im being the whiny kitty cute and all that,it would mean that i am gonna ask for a favour or something- *stares at you with those kitty eyes with a -feed-me-sugar-and-mwilk- kinda look*
i dont trust people anymore,not after all that they had done. i despise tham. i am sick of their cruelty,their unfeeling hearts...
and even though i trusted them ,it always end with disappointment. but now subconsciously im beginning to open tose tight-shut doors ...to that guppy... bah. sometimes i hate being so fickle-minded. but he made me feel that it was okay to open my heart up...for i feel the same feeling on him too: we both have a secretive dark self no one usually know of.....
i dunno...i hate myself sometimes really. sigh. i dont see what i should do anymore..theres too many voices ringing in my head...images of people lingering around when i try to forget it all...lingering feelings when they sould have been gone ><...i wanna follow my heart out of the darkness...but i no longer know who or what to trust,what is real,and what is not;what is transitory,and whats for life,who the people around me really are,who i really am...
....but i DO know one thing,clear as the pretty summer blue skies: I LOVE FOOD AND IM HUNGRYYYYYY~~~~*gives ya the kitty eyes with tears and saying -feed-me-*
hmmn. yyea. and im getting the feeling of going toiley. hmpf. todays test was horrid. a horrid day today was. darnit. damned. sigh. theres another test tomorrow AND a band practise. sighhhh~ >< i need to sleep more. me almost fell asleep just now during maths lesson. was nodding off. bah~ soo anyway. theres physics to stdy for. oooh~ i hoope alls well ends well
and this kitty wants lots of sleep. oyasumii~ *hasnt eaten dinner yet lol. i am gonna do so now
1001 ways of making this kitty happy~
=feed her
=give her lots and lots of sleep
=AND sugar
=oooh~ shiiiny!!!! *stares at shiny objects with utmost fascination
=less homework~?? XDDDDDD
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
