another series of extreme unhappyness ><
feh. first. got up. got decent cocoa. mmmmnnn. but it had this one ant in there, so i was lucky that i was able to get it out.
and then the egg. it had some white white 'fibres' thingy so it was like. ewww. even the egg yolk. so i was beginnin to suspect the possibility of it being a chick before..somehow it aint there. solution: omg mr chick forgive me if i accidentally cook u
BUT that wasnt the end. finally got the oil and stuff done. took the plastic frying slice. +hot oil= melt. ewwwwy. took some time to get it out. and then i saw the original metal one TT wth
so yea. that took me time time! and it took me yet some more time to find plastic to place the sandwich(with the eggy) in.
so i ended up rushing to dress. walked outta house with hair untied. i wasted quite alot of time findin my boots and socks. damned shit. feh
so in the end. i was late for the CIP thing. and it was like FOREVER for us to reach there(there was this other girl who was also late ^^) ugh
walked under the hot sun. feet became tired(it aint comfy to be walkin in boots). hafta put up with peoples 'sry got no time n money' and gotta remain positive. and be polite n stuff. ugh~~~~
i dont see why if people can be readily donating to cans and yet not taking out a $4 to purchase a notebook to help the needy children. feh!!! and to think all those people were like 'people wanting our money alert' and they avoid us. feh!!!!!!! if i was without the cocoa drink for breakfast. i wouldha started to curse already
and then school. gotta rush back. feh. somehow or another. while waiting for the bus. Caffine(this friend aka HuiLun,aka Lun) started to say 'eh. how come u are always talking about Reymond(guppy)'
and the mob started going on and on about that and i was like >
-note: i cant be talknig on about my emo and philosophies and thoughts. right? besides. everything else is rather insignificant and not worth sharing. eg. quarrels. family shit. feh! besides...he's the only guy friend i have. that i AM actually keeping in contact and talking to. ...i dunno. and its only a guy (space) friend.and if i keep talkin about B they are probably gonna go whooooooooo~ all day and do stupid stuff -_-### -
so yea. back to school. havent changed. passed by the BB mob and they mumbled something but i didnt hear but Lun was asking the person to shut up. so yea. ruhed back. realised i havent changed. stuffed my sandwich into my mouth. grabbed clother .went toiley
grabbed ONLY the white sleeved shirt and the tie. damn. ran back a second time to put down my tee and to take the skirt to toiley to change. almost went out of the toiley without washin my hands and taking my school skirt which i WAS wearing
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so then was dismissed much earlier than i expected. ^^. so yea. i waved bye to my friend who was sittin in the canteen with the othe UG(uniformed group) people. apparently they were watching 'live transmission' thingy i guess(cus they have the duty for showing guests out.). LOL
was gloating over them not being able to go back home yet XDDDD.and walking to the bus stop. when-- the bird launched its nukes onto my finger and handphone. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!
iiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~
so it traumatized me. alot. i went cryin. alot. i went back. scrubbed my hands with the dettol shower gel once more. and i literally dumped the dirty handphone cover into the sink(i washed them both at the mrt station's toilet). still didnt feel it was clean
went to sleep. in hope to forget and numb myself of feelings like what i do everytime. was working. till my pops went 'oi birdpoop,come out' cus we WERE going out. so i got totally pissed off and i refused to go out or talked to him. i cried again. cus it was horrid to have the feeling of the bird poop on your finger again
was being freaked. on a side note. i dumped all my clothes i was wearing when the nuke attacked for washing. ewwwwwwwwww. wouldnt wanna wear or even see them. yukk
so eventually. i laid on the bed. until sis went out. and i had my dinner. and i went gaming. well. apparently. that was remedy for the icky feeling
it was raining. gotten emo again. changed display name to [私と傷つだけなら、来ないで! 悲しみはいらない..この冷たいの世界に、温もりを捜して~~]
*translation: if u are just gonna be hurting me,dont come near me! i dont need sadness(in my life)...in this cold(unfeeling) world,i search for warmth...*
bah. ack. kill me for being emo. looked at that rain ouside. felt like jumping down......
but i didnt. and i dont like heights
so now im watching Noein. kweeeeeeee so nice~ i like it
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
