haha...u would have never thought that THIS happens to me huh? well,it just did. i have never felt so darn wronged in my whole entrie friggin life for these 13 years and even if i had i've been bottling it up inside me. Now it has finally been released.
Band: I dropped a Cymbal;it was damaged and caused a slight difference in the sound,and that fatAss is scolding our whole section cuz of that
I dropped the gong/tam tam and it has a crack now
racing: i could have gotten first if it wasnt for those ****** rocks and lamposts. Why the hell would God wanna created something so friggin ***** in the first place?
homework; i have been owing my teachers homework ALOT and im guilty for it. and i've been trying hard to repay them.
life: i am such a ******* blockhead and my brains have gotten wayy rusty over these friggn holidays and now it isnt working at all
dad: like for the racing,if i just bumped into some frigginly stupid item he'll make a dumb comment and for those who know me i HATE to be interrupted when playing games,dancing,ummm,sleeping,doing buisness,drawing,HOMEWORK,...sheesh...and ESPECIALLY TALKING. i hate my dad for being such a sore loser. when i win him he'll try and make ME lose and if i do the same to him he'll complain and say that i shouldnt do that.
dancers: oh for goodness sakes! those dancers are snobby IDIOTS. this idiot girl who doesnt even know how to say "reflection " in chinese when asked a question with a one word answer(in chinese it is 2 words) was complaining: hey! u are squeezing me here! like wtf! everyone is squashed! i'm crammed in the corner,squashed limke mad! and there she is,standing with her friends,happily chit chattingg,having enough space to move her bloody limbs complaining that "its SQUEEZING here" "move forward a lil" F** that bloody idiot!!
DEPRESSION: unlike this someone i nkow,i do go do something stupid like using a penknife to inflict damage on myself. i want to,but no way....i was really on the verge of breaking down in the bathroom. i dun think that my friends really like me,neither do my parents and they see me as a responsibility,not a daughter,i think my teachers most likely HATE me,and so does everyone else. i dont know what to do anymore. then i thought of including this in my manga(i sidetrack aLOT),and then i wished that someone will take me...how i wished to be spirited away to another country or something u see in fantasies. i am sick and tired of living here. but i dont want to die as well. i am really at a loss of what to do now(other than going to bed) and im crumbling every single second now. at least...thats what i think. i really dunno what to do...i dont think u'll be able to help anyway. here's a pic by DarK lORd the great mua. hope u like it.
Ja nA
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
