++ Listening to Final Distance~ Utada Hikaru ++
yea...lets start todays post with last night after my "outing"..
++ well...yea...i kinda told my mum that i'll be going home with a friend...(meaning, HIM)..
++ our bus reached our school earlier than the others...and i really am scared of going alone...so i kinda waited for him..
++unfortunately, ichigo-chan came and i told her that bus 26 was coming..so she ran...and i followed...
++he didnt get on. me was all sad and lonely and scared all the way home...
++ me felt like waiting for him still. me needed toilet and walked home slowly...looking over my shoulder to look for that familiar shadow.
++while waiting for the traffic...he appeared..and he crossed...so did i..
++i felt so much like crying..but i wouldnt want to show my weakness..so i walked behind him..
++distance grew and me got even sadder and scared...i wanted to run...but my legs are too wobbly for that...i have no remaining energy..
++ i wanted to cry out...but i cant...people would probably think i'm mad.
well..thats for last night. tonight i watched this local movie and i was crying throughout. .. and i thought of him...too...i really miss him so much..i really want to cry my heart out...but i wont want mummy to worry or anything...looks like bath time is gonna be quite long tonight...its the only place where i can cry and no one would notice....looks like the bottle finally popped open...and these surpressed feelings are finally overflowing...haa...*sniff*
fanart++
oh. that gonna hafta wait i s'pose. hehe. its gonna be everything crammed in one day/s from now on....hehe...me r too lazyyy.....haa...*sniff*
i'll like to end this miserableness with this:
What angel represents you? (Breathtaking pics, and long results.)
Your the scared/lonely angel! Your a timid and lost angel, you don't know where you belong. You only have one friend in the world that you can trust with all your life, for you too have been betrayed. Despite being a lost angel you are sweet and you have a soft spot for little kids. Your favorite thing to do is draw and daydream, especially about that certain someone. Your qoute that represents you is: "I live to dream and dream to live." Favorite color: Black Your favorite flower: Roses Your favorite sweets: Pudding Your favorite number: 4 Your animal: A black cat. Your element: Dark
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yea...i guess that's really me... haa...think i should be fine right about now...tomorrow's gonna be better, ne? ^^'
-disappears into the darkness with a flicker of ghastly flame~- 
