Sunday, January 23, 2005

Friends
You know what really bugs me? When you meet someone and have a lot of fun with them and get to know them a little and then you see them later and they act like they've never seen you before in their life. That’s happened to me a lot. I hate it. That’s probably what would happen if I saw Sarah again… Sarah was my best friend. She used to go to my church so we saw each other at least once a week from the time we were two or three. But then she stopped going to church because our youth pastor, Adam, was pissing her off. So I haven’t seen her in like, two years. It’s really sad… I used to miss her so much that I’d start crying every time I thought of her. But now it kind of makes me mad. I mean, she was the only person I ever really talked to at church. There weren’t any other girls I liked there. So when she left it was really boring and I got tired of getting up for church every Sunday morning just to go somewhere there was no one to talk to and Adam and this other guy started bugging me so I left. There was no point in me going anymore… I never agreed with anything the pastor said. My mom and dad are mad at me to this day for leaving. But now they don’t go there anymore either. They go to the church in Williamston that’s two minutes away from our new house. I’ve been there and the people are ok, but the pastor reminds me so much of my old pastor that it scares me. And this one girl, Amanda, is always hugging me whenever I come and she acts like we’re really good friends. I like Amanda, but I don’t like her church.

In November I took Lindsey to the Pistons game thing with the church. I thought it would be me and Lindsey trying to avoid everyone the whole time so we could talk alone. But it turned out that we had so much fun with everyone! I met Chris and Red (that’s what he likes to be called) and of course Amanda was there too. And we all hung out the entire time we were there and on the bus ride home. I really miss Chris. He was nice and funny and he sat by me the whole time so I got to talk to him the most. I miss Red too… he was hilarious! He’s like, the funniest guy I’ve ever met and he was really sweet. They were both sweet. Chris wanted my number so I gave it to him but he hasn’t called or anything, not that I ever expected him to. But the only way I will ever see them again is if Melissa invites them to one of the church things and I go. But if I ever do see Chris again, he’ll probably act like we never knew each other. Even though he said stuff to me like, “You’re my new sister” and “She’s my buddy” and he acted like we were really good friends. It sucks that I may never see him or Red again. They were the best guys I ever met. :( *sighs* Life is not fair.

I don’t have many friends right now. The only friends I have are: Abby and Olivia, my volleyball team (except for Nikki), Lindsey, and my cousins Alyssa, Grant, Rachel, Hailey, Ryan, and sometimes my brother. But I don’t care. I’d rather have a few good friends than have a ton of crappy friends.

Wow. This is the longest post I think I’ve ever had.

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