Sunday, October 10, 2004

.. geeze..
I left my wallet in my trenchcoat last night at work. Maybe it's stupid, but I do these things. Because I'm me.

Anyway, after the shift, I realise that fourty dollars is missing from it. It won't hurt me or anything. It's only fourty dollars, and like.. I was just gonna buy some groceries..

But it still bugs me. I'd never steal someone's things. And then I get the response of 'you shouldn't leave money in your coat pocket'. Well, why the fuck not?

People shouldn't rip other people off. Period.

Ah.. last night was a bad bad shift. I got put outside of foods.

I work foods. Thats all. Soup Isle. Thats IT. I don't know anything else.

Anyway.. the reason.. is because out of our crew of 28.. 14 people showed up. Fourteen.

I can't believe it. Maybe there was a party that I just wasn't invited to? Dunno. Either way.. my back hurts from lifting paint cans. I knew I did it wrong. Yikes.

.. I'm thinking about going to art school. Just an idea.

I wonder if it's worthwhile.

-Rayne
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Monday, October 4, 2004

Chapter one- Done~!
I'm massively impressed with myself. I actually finished an entire chapter of my comic without missing even one update.

Woot.

It's a goal of mine. I hope I can keep this up. You'll hear some whining from me otherwise.

I'm good at whining.

I'm so happy with the way the comic's going; it's cause Eric's a good writer and what not; I've had visions of a comic for a really long time now.

-Rayne
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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Randomness
Life has been completely strange for me lately. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it does throw me off.

Have you ever had friends that have dated forever? You know, the sorta plutonic couple you expect to be together forever?

It's a strange feeling when those couples break up. I've been questioning the paths and ideals I've taken on lately, and it's confusing me. I feel like my life is stable. I feel that nothing I do or think right now is too irresponsible, that everything will be fine, and I'll be safe with Luke, with our life plans.

But marriage fails too. I know that firsthand. And Luke and I will be married in a few years. It frightens me. My family (my close family) has fallen to pieces over the last few months in ways I cannot even begin to describe:

My brother and I have refused contact with each other. I find myself verbally abusing him more often than I can imagine. I never really did that before; he hit me before. Once he threw me down a flight of stairs. Up until now, I've let such things pass. But time has made me bitter on these facts, and now I've begun to hate him.

My mother has vanished. I have recieved no contact from her whatsoever in the last month. I don't know where she lives, or what she's doing. I'm concerned that she doesn't really want to get ahold of me. She gets spurts of the like.

My father has voiced an urge to visit me in March. This is not something I relish as a grand 21st birthday present. I really don't like my father.

Now, if my close family can shatter around me this easily... who's to say that the rest can't fall? There have been so many times people have just left me alone. I have a hard time trusting anyone, and when I do, I can't sever myself from them, no matter the cost.

... I'll leave that for now. I don't mean to update only when my mind turns to angsty-preteen mode, but it builds up after a while.

I bought the first .hack game for my PS2. It seems my system has finally died. Or something. I suspect it needs a new disk reader, but I'm afraid to bring it into the Sony store. The last time I brought something there they treated me like an idiot and tried to sell me something I full well knew I didn't need.

Now, in this case, I am an idiot. I have no idea what the system needs. But damnit, I wanna play that game!

Also, I pirated No One Lives Forever 2. God damn. I feel bad for not buying it. It's fantastic. The AI is incredible.

Thats all for now, I guess. If anyone's read my newest comic, I used markers in this one.. does it look alright? I'm not the best judge of my own work.

That would be it for now. :)

-Rayne
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Thursday, September 23, 2004

Quick update out the door..
I'm tired. I don't wanna go to work. Wah.

Ah well.

The Sims 2? Kicks ass. I'm in love with it. Unfortunately, it's robbing me of my sleeping time. I might have to limit my time with it. But damn, this is addictive.

Yesterday's comic was rushed, because for some reason, I thought I had one drawn before later in the afternoon Tuesday night. There was much panic, and if anyone reads this, I apologise. I didn't mean to do the last minute crap. It's totally not cool, and I know it.

I didn't wanna have to upload some unrelated thing, and be all like 'duhurr, no comic' when nobody really reads mine anyway.

I shouldn't say that; we're doing really well, and I've almost hit 200 on bcx by now. It'd be nice to go over that, but personally, I don't really mind if I don't. God, I'm happy.

I'm gonna try (try!) to cg a picture of Valentine by Friday. If it doesn't work out, it'll be pencil crayon. Drawing guns is hard. Yep.

I don't normally post song lyrics, but since I used them as a part of an rpg, I figured I'd post the entire song here. I really like it, and it's stuck in my head:


"Nothing But A Child" (Counting Crows)

Nothing but a Child Glass upon me walking on the ocean
Sun upon me walking on a wave
You can slide like the lord above.. You're a beam of teaming motion
But for everyone you do,
There's always one or two like me you can't save
Sail on Maria, burn her to the ground
Slide your hand between her tears until she comes
Wake up her mother, tell her You're sorry now
All gods children walk before they run
Everything is beautiful in dreamland
Everything is much, much better when we're gone
Think I'm going to write myself a letter
Something you can keep with you forever
Because everybody gets to be perfect when they're gone
Nothing but a child baby
Nothing but a child baby
Nothing but a child baby...
In You're arms, I am

Nite. I'm done at Orange Julius now. I'll probably be online more soon. :)

-Rayne
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Friday, September 17, 2004

Answering stuff.
Since I gotta go to work again, here's the responses to some of the comments I got:

BubblesMegee: Shoes...that's interesting.

-Gotta wear em or your feet could get crushed by pallets and other heavy things.

-_- So, you got a job at Wal*Mart? Uh, I am guessing that's a good thing. I am not a big fan of that place,

-Wal*Mart's nuts during the day. I work at night. Basically, I clean up after everyone and make sure all the stock goes out.

but I heard that they have pep talks every morning before work...is that true? If so...*laughs*...sounds amusing.

Maybe, but I start at night.

We have a meeting at night before the shift starts, but it basically consists of 'Chris, you're in Stationary, Luke, dairy, etc'. During the day they do this bizarro 'Wal*Mart cheer' which I thankfully have completely avoided.


no one:

Well... I still think Wally world is the wrong place to go for work, but it is work... so good luck.

-Full time with benefits. To do brainless stocking. I'm happy with it. I'm getting friggen 9.55 per hour to do general labor. Kinda nice.

Also... if there is a certain theme you would like for a button... let me know and I'll make you one. I'm making a button menu on the sidebar like Demonboy and I'm adding certain friends to it. But, I don't want to choose for them, so I'll let you decide what you'd like.

- ? You're free to use any images I use in my comics. I don't really use many images on my site though. Thanks anyways. ^_^
Later...

Shijin13

So sorry to have missed yer site lately...

I will try and vote for you if i have the time...

-I'm whiny. :) Just kinda jealous of all the webby kids who I started out with in this comic section who are all like 'woot, just topped 100' and I'm like 'yay.. I'm at.. 202.. woo.'

sorry bout the shoes......have fun
pieces

- ^_^ Again, I'm whiny.

Eep, gotta run. Oh yeah. I got the Sims 2! AHAHAH! Yes!

-Rayne
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Thursday, September 16, 2004

~wiggles fingers~
I'm alivve!

I don't know how or why. 0.o. But I'm living through this.

Today I went home early. Like at one, early. Diane felt bad for me. Apparantly I'm not too friendly when I'm sleep deprived. Go figure.

So I have tomorrow off from OJ too. I'll need to sleep. But my preorder of the Sims 2 is in!

Ahh! What do I do?! I got a new game. I need to play it....

I also need to return my workboots. My feet are size six, not seven. I don't know when it occured to me that one size too big with something that had metal toes would be cool, but I guess it happened.

Damn.

Working at night isn't as hard as I thought it would be. When I worked nights at the Rainbow (Truck Stop in Nairn Center. Yes, that's what it's called. It's not a condom shop.) I always got tired because there was nothing to do. I'm enjoying Wal*Mart so far. I know the effect will wear off once I realise my life is being wasted in the world's largest retail chain, but until then, I'll dissuade myself elsewise.

On that note, vote for me on BCX! Pweeaase!

I've been spending every waking moment I have drawing my comic. So vote for me or I'll die.

Ah. I gotta go to work. Bye.

-Rayne
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Saturday, September 11, 2004

Wooorrkk
Okay. I got the job at Wal*mart.

WOooooooooyahhh...

(Sorry. Good or bad, it's *still* Wal*Mart. Thats the best I can do.)

Anyway. I needed to give my two weeks notice at Orange Julius today.. unfortunately, I start at Wal*Mart tonight.

To give a general understanding of why I won't be online as much as now in the next few days, here is my new schedule:

Today (Sat): Wal*mart: 11pm-8am
Sunday: Orange Julius:10am-5:30pm
-draw next Friday's comic
Monday: off (thank fucking God.)
-Update Azale
Tuesday: Orange Julius: 11am-5:30pm
Wal*mart: 11pm-8am
Wednesday: Orange Julius 8:30am- 4:30pm
Wal*Mart: 11pm-8am
-somehow update Azale
-somehow pick up Sims 2 Preorder
Thursday: OJ- 11am-5:30pm
Wal*Mart: 11pm-8am
Friday: OJ- 11am- 4:30pm
Wal*Mart- 11pm-8am
AZALE
Repeat once.

I know it seems stupid that I include Azale in there, but it's something I kinda feel has to be done. If a few comics are late, please understand.

So that goes on for two weeks. I'll have a nice paycheck, in any case. I forgot to put sleep in there, but I don't do much of that now anyway.

Just so people know where I am. :3

-Rayne
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For anyone who follows my comic...
I tried to upload an html file that I did myself on the site. Then Autokeen (the keenspace client that automatically updates these changes) wouldn't work properly.

If it doesn't work, it will later. Sorry about the trouble.

I'm really fucking tired. Sorry.

-Rayne
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Thursday, September 9, 2004

Dahh..
So I find out tonight if I got the job at Wal*Mart.

I hope I get it... it'd be.. nice.

I'm a bit nervous about becoming someone who works at night and sleeps during the day. But it's for Luke. We'll see, anyway.

Next Monday's comic will actually be a drawing of Terumi and Ori. I was going to attempt to cg it, but then I accidentally deleted the black and white one. And I certainly wasn't bright enough to leave my lineart as is.

...I coloured it in pencil crayon. meep!

Oh, Eric, I drew a picture of Lydia, I thought you might be interested in it:


Right 'ere

I hope I did that right. Fucking html.

Not much else. I'm hungry.

See ya.

-Rayne


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Dahh..
So I find out tonight if I got the job at Wal*Mart.

I hope I get it... it'd be.. nice.

I'm a bit nervous about becoming someone who works at night and sleeps during the day. But it's for Luke. We'll see, anyway.

Next Monday's comic will actually be a drawing of Terumi and Ori. I was going to attempt to cg it, but then I accidentally deleted the black and white one. And I certainly wasn't bright enough to leave my lineart as is.

...I coloured it in pencil crayon. meep!

Oh, Eric, I drew a picture of Lydia, I thought you might be interested in it:

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