Friday, May 14, 2004

I've gone pleasantly insane! Jolly good!
Lets all go to the snack bar,
lets all go to the snack bar,
lets all go to the snack bar,
And get ourselves a treat.

(Yep. And thats the only update you get from me today! Thank you Jesus!)
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Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Sweet..
Yesterday was something strange..

Okay. First, I got this worker's review when I got to work. Which I thought would be hella bad, since I have actually been written up before for no reason...

But it was actually good.. cause I got a raise of 25 cents an hour.. so now I make 8.25 an hour, which is good. Very very good.

Then, Diane (the boss.) told me that they needed someone to work downtown on Sundays and holidays.

Since I have a big mouth, I offered Chelsea's fine fine services before I called her. I said good things about her. Which is easy to do, since she's my best friend.

Okay, in the end, I did tell Chels. And now.. Chels has an interview on Friday at three.. and as long as Chels doesn't swear at Diane or make fun of her babies, it looks like she'll be working there with me. Like, guaranteed. Diane said she wanted to go over some stuff with her on Friday, so she could work with me on Sunday.

So I get to train Chels. The job insn't hard, so..

This is sweet! I get to work with my best friend!
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Sunday, May 9, 2004

To work again
I work again today. Kinda wish I could just stay home and rot, to be honest. I can't call in sick for no reason, anyway.

Ehn.. I'm totally apathetic again.

I tried really hard to wake up early today, but I couldn't do it. You know when you set the clock for six, and then hit the snooze button until eight? I did that today. I don't work until ten.. so I leave at nine.. but I need to give myself leeway or else I can't get up.

-_- Yep. Pretty sad.

I stayed up last night really late again, too. I wanted to draw so bad, but I just couldn't. I still haven't come out of this rut; I don't even have patience for that painting I started.

It also seems that even though I only have five people on my friends list, most of these people haven't added me back. I can't stand the random mumblings of stuff like 'I m kewl haxor' so I haven't been answering most of my gb entries.

Yeah, anyway, I could't think of anything really to do last night.. cause I couldn't sleep. And I think I missed Red on messanger again. So I read Hamlet from front to back and crashed at three.

Which is why Lain is quoting Macbeth on my front page now.

Have you ever noticed that most of Shakespeare's plays follow a set pattern? You know, the hero is the main character; he's an upstanding individual from a rich family.

His girlfriend is almost always a retard who finds a way to commit suicide. At the end of the story, the main character is totally bonkers, and his girlfriend, as well as everyone else around him, is dead.

I don't think thats bad or anything; I love Shakespeare. I really do. I've read everything he's ever written. I just wondered if maybe that was a bit odd. Or if anyone else noticed it.

Well. I need to go to work soon. So I guess I'll get some toast.

//.r.a.y.n.e.//
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Today's expierament... failed
Well. Gaming today was a bit cruddy. I was the only one who was on time, as usual. Except for David, but he's the DM, so he needs to be there.

So like, ten minutes after Chels and Michelle showed up, Michelle made this comment on how it was really stupid that I couldn't add something like 17 and five.. for a roll that I've forgotten. So we got into a huge fight.. because she knows I'm dyslexic with numbers, but she doesn't really think about that before she tells me how dumb I am all the time.

It sucks. All through school, I got straight As except in Math. I got honors when I was Ontario, and I recieved a government grant to go to Queens University. My first year, including textbooks was free. I'm not stupid.

I couldn't go, because after that year, I would've had to pay for the others.. but I did get in.. which is something I'm proud of.

Gar. The fight ended, but Michelle and I was bitchy with each other for the rest of the game. This didn't stop me from playing, but she moped for most of it.

I don't usually fight with my friends. x.x But when I do I'm a bit harsh. I'm sure this will blow over soon.

Luke was really apathetic all day too. I don't know why. I stayed offline in hopes to cheer him up, but I'm a bit flaky. I found it odd that the sun was shining outside all day but everyone could be so sad anyway.

I was really cheerful. I still am. ^~^ I know it's retarded. Everyone's depressed, but Rayne's all giddy. But I am.

Sorta.

Mother's day is tomorrow. I hope everyone who can has a lot of fun with their mom. I miss mine hella bad. She'll be up on the 25th, I think. ~checks~ Yep. So I can't be sad, because I'll see her soon. ^0^

I know I bitch about my parents alot, but I do care about my mom. ^_^

Sorry I was afk all day. I have this thing where I want to make everyone happy that usually prevents me from necessarily doing as I want.

Random things:

- Reading Panda's lj has reminded me of Excel Saga again. ;_; I wanna see it again. ~whine~

- I'm really fricken excited over the storyline in digital invasion. I know its weird, but I am. I think about it all the time lately.

- That painting is.. probably gonna take a hella long time.

- I am out of milk. >.<

Welp. Bai.

//.r.a.y.n.e.//
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Saturday, May 8, 2004

Yay! I get a day off! Holy fa-shizzle!
I'm so glad tomorrow's Saturday. Just BESM. Just gaming, and nothing else. Me and my dice on a happy cheery day of not being me.

Ah. C'est la vie. ^_^

We have to wear these dorky light green shirts at work now, they're weird. Today I put up garland around the Julius stand. We have a new drink. It's called 'Fruitasia.' Woopie.

I had a good day, despite the fact that yesterday, Jolene busted my diskman. I was sad, but I didn't strangle her. I didn't even swear. I was really good. I just stared at my cd player on the floor and laughed like an insane person. Because I was in shock, and horrified, and very sad.

I will kill her as she sleeps.

....

KEKEKEKE!

I just finished watching Tokyo Underground. It's fuckin awesome.

Oh. I also redid my colours and stuff here on the site.

..and I've started a painting of Faith. It's red and black. I'm using newspapers to make a border, and doing it in oils. I'll take a picture when I'm done.

I sold a sketch for ten bucks today! Woot!

//.r.a.y.n.e.//
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Thursday, May 6, 2004

~yawn~
Apologies for last night's entry. It was totally redundant. Usually thats the crap I post in my livejournal for family and friends who won't quit asking me what I'm up to.

Anywho.

I don't know if I've mentioned this already, but I've been put in charge of the Orange Julius for this week. So.. until Friday, when my boss Diane comes back. (Actually, the rich kids seem to have run together with the poor ones when it comes to jerks. I must've been tired last night when I wrote, or something. Sorry about that.)

Anyway.. I've been left in charge. I don't like responsibility, and I'm not good with stress. Stress makes Rayne scary. Stress makes me snap at rude customers. I'll be glad when she's back. I miss just working with Steven on the days I'm supposed to. I hate Jolene.

I kinda had a lot to do yesterday, and by the time Luke went to work and I got online, I was a bit odd.

(I still can't access Surreal under my name and password. I might have to move the site. I certainly hope not. )

So I've worked every single morning this week, and will continue to until Sat, when I have gaming and don't work. Terri's cancelled it on her end, and BESM might not fly, but I still don't work Sat, damnit. Dag-nabittit.

I'm not a wonderful morning person since I don't have the tact for sleeping entirely down yet. See. I like to stay up late. And I have a really fuckin hard time going to bed early. One am is early.

Waking at six makes that late, though. Weird. Yesterday I had a really hard time getting out of bed, and I waited for Luke to get home, so I was late leaving and had to run for the bus. THEN I realised the buses were on strike, so I ran to work. When I got to work, I promptly had an asthma attack, since I forgot to take my puffer the night before, and soonafter, I threw up the breakfast I didn't eat in our mop bucket. Throwing up is bad enough, but throwing up into a mop bucket is worse. And worse than that is cleaning it up yourself.

I have extremely bad asthma that almost killed me last year. I'm not supposed to run, but I was worried I'd be late. ^~^;;

Anyway.. shift was kinda slow after that. I discovered that the closing person didn't do anything the night before.. so I was a bit cranky until I got to squeeze oranges. I like doing that.

In other news.. my Dad's going back to Afghanistan again. Apparantly he's going to be a ground troop this time, instead of staying on the ship. This worries me, since last time he went to Afghanistan we got a letter in the mail stating that he may have been one of the Canadian soldiers caught in the US 'friendly fire' and it was possible that he was dead. I don't really like my dad, but I don't want him dead either. So I'm scared about that one...

I need to go to work again. Man. After this, I'm never getting a full time job. I haven't painted or drawn all week.

//.r.a.y.n.e.//
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Take a line.

Then curve it in an erratic position. Pull it out, and strike it on a paper with a black gel pen. Curve it until it makes a face, and colour it. Highlight the important features, and erase what's not there.

Scratch out the points that look too perfect, and create obscurity; take what's real, and distort it.

And there, you have your soul. Imperfect, but true. A bit scratched, but always bold. Sometimes embarassing, but still a part of you.

And that's my poetic rambling for today.

I have a comic idea. I think it will be on the web, but I'm not sure. I don't think I'll divulge it until I actually know.

It won't be serious, persay, which means my usual dark lines as heavy as possibly stature towards comics would need to go.. but thats okay, since I'm too scared to scan that stuff online anyway.

I should draw before I sleep.

I had an excellent day today. I served my fair share of upper class idiots who can't understand the systems of reality at work, but when I got home, Luke was happy. Zofia came over. We were cheerful. So I, in turn, am the same.

And now, my rant about the upper class (again.):

It happens every day. The private school kids and their families/ the people who work as either doctors or lawyers, or teachers/ the people who just have.. too much money.. come in to the store, order things, won't respond when I say hello, and treat me like crap because I, the lower class,am there to be at their whim, to give them what they want, so they, in turn, can be imbiciles who would drop thirty bucks on dinner on something as retarded as hot dogs.

Who's the moron? I'm serious.

These people:

a) Don't seem to realise that the lower/middle class cultures support the upper class via grocery stores, other food stores, restauraunts, etc. In other words, if we weren't here, they'd all starve. They wouldn't have their goddamned triple lattes.

b) are also incapable of understanding that we are actually people behind the desk, and not fricken robots who are just there to do what they please.

c) Spend way too much money on stupid crap like their fucking meat sticks ('hot dogs') and juice.

I hate meat. I hate the whole concept. It's soo stupid. It hurts my head. -_-

I'm not cross, I just wanted to rant on that.

Our buses are on strike here in Victoria. This poses a problem, since most of the people in the mall take the bus to work, and many haven't been able to come in, since there is no way for them to get a way in.

Of course, the schools were on strike for a few days too, but I understand this has let up. The hospitals are trying to get better health care or something again. I guess the cuts are hitting people again. Government sure is stupid.

Ah. I'm in high spirits though. I drew a lampost. Of course, it's just a lampost in charcoal, so I won't scan the thing. Why even bother, when I could just take a picture of it?

Oh. I have that picture today:

http://images3.deviantart.com/i/2004/126/7/5/Moving_Day.jpg

I realise that I look stoned. I'm sorry. Also, I have no makeup on, and I'm tired.

Luke's reflection is in the window. ^^; Basically, I'm wearing a bunch of crap I didn't want to throw in a box.

.. eh.. thats it, I think.

Nite.

//.r.a.y.n.e.//


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Wednesday, May 5, 2004

I feel horribly lonely and morose right now, but I'm not tired.

I wish I could sleep. I have no motivation to paint, but all I want to do is write. Nobody wants to write right now. Everyone wants to sleep.

Sleep/Writing

I'd pick writing. Or painting. If I was inspired even remotely.

Eve's online, but she's been ignoring me. She posted once to tell me she was leaving.

It wasn't really kind, either.

Also, I can't figure out Luke's camera. Gods I hate digital cameras.

I'm so bitter and angry right now.

-_- Stupid everything.
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Friday, April 30, 2004

..okay. Relaxing now.
Okay. We have a mover.

Also, through lots of pleading and good acting, I've convinced my landlord to let me move in at 10 am tomorrow, instead of 1. And we have a carpet cleaner for 10:30.

And, there's a strike at the high school! Sweet deal! It's like the world molded to accomidate me.

So now I can kidnap my best friend, because she won't need to go to school.

It also means I have more people for box carrying.

Heh heh. Suckers.

I feel much better now. I'll be offline for the next three days. On the third, my internet connection will be re-established, and I'll be back.

;_;

Oh well. I guess it's good for me to get off the damned computer once in a while anyway.

I'm unhooking this thing before I go to bed, so..

See ya.

//.r.a.y.n.e.//
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Thursday, April 29, 2004

Okay!

There is nobody to help us move. We need to be out of here by 12 tomorrow (noon), but we're not allowed into the new place until one in the afternoon.

So.. I called in to work. They gave me the day off. But.. now I gotta work Sat. Which means I just missed gaming.

Well.. whatever.

Anyway; we gotta move all our stuff by hand; boxes are okay, I guess. I figure a shopping cart and we can push it over there. None of my friends have cars, or this would be significantly easier.. but I guess thats just the way it is.

But I don't know about furniture. How are we supposed to move the computer, the kitchen table, our bed or the couch?

-_- Seriously. This is the last time I count on people who promise to help. I was counting on Zofia with the truck. So I didn't ask anyone else..

ooooo.

~dies~
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