Thursday, December 30, 2004

I'm a bad influence? What?
(I'm avoiding using my friend's name in case she doesn't appreciate me writing all this.)

I feel really hella bad today. I don't know. Maybe it's just the mix of the strange workings of my mind, or my embitterment at being locked inside since I gotta sleep soon, or yesterday's things..
In any case, I'm a bit of a headcase.

I've been trying to make the parents of a friend of mine happy with the way my life is lately for the distincy purpose of making my friends' life easier. I know that sounds foolish, but it's the truth. And I managed to botch it over the course of a few weeks by calling at bad times and being stupid enough not to realise it.

I don't know how to solve the problem. I can't phone her; I can't do anything or her stepdad will hang up on me. Go to her house? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm the ANTICHRIST. I dropped out of College and I'm not dating their son anymore. For Heaven's sake, I wear a trenchcoat. Only serious badasses wear trenchcoats.

I'm an OTAKU for crying out loud! I'm no threat! I'm fuckin scared of drugs and alcohol! What do you want?!

I don't know, honestly. I have no idea why I seem to rub them wrong. But it's so frusterating, because I try my damndest to make them like or at least tolerate me, and I don't know what to do anymore. Her mom treats me as if I have something wrong all the time; this is much the same as Michelle's mom, except I don't get the distinct impression that Liz (Michelle's mom) is actually TRYING to make me feel like a complete idiot; I get this from the other.

Seriously, I know I'm older than your daughter, but give it up. I'm not gonna steal your baby away. You're pushing her away yourself.

I know they don't like me; they pretend otherwise. I can tell, seriously, I could always tell, since I broke up with their son, but for God's sake, they make a good effort to hide such ideas.

No, I don't want to talk to her mother about my problems. I hardly know her mother and she thinks I'm an incompetant moron.

Frankly, I'm scared shitless of talking to her stepdad at all. He seems completely irrational right now..

.. I'm sorry if I was out of line writing any of this, but God, it's making me insane..

-Rayne
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Regarding the recent events in Asia
Being someone without a television set, I was left behind on the news of what had happened in Asia until just recently.

If you don't know what happened, you should click here to find out.

It's a really horrible circumstance, and I can't really tell myself what to think of it. They think the tidal waves may continue, and over 63, 000 people have already died in these attacks. A friend of a friend of mine is teaching English in Thailand; it's really close to home, being right across the water from Victoria.

If you think you can help (I'm gonna, but not until payday)
Unicef, and World Vision are both taking donations that go to help the victims of these distasters.

I can't afford to give more than fifty dollars, but I figure, anything will help right now. A lot of people died here, and a lot of families need help rebuilding their lives, and their homes. If you can afford to give anything, it helps A LOT of people, and you really should.

Thanks for reading; this is really important. Sometimes I think we really take advantage of how safe and happy we are..

- Rayne
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Artblog
I've made a new blog for the distinct reason of posting my oekaki pictures that I usually don't find the need to publish.

http://azale.blogspot.com

Nobody's really been around here, or anything, and I don't even know anyone who has a blog, but I figured it would be nice to be able to actually do something with these drawings that I do every day.

Right now all that I have up is a pic of Val, a pic of the cast from DA (oekaki, it's not great) and the picture I just put up for fanart here.

Really, I think that would only interest Dethbug anyway, but I thought I might as well put this here.

:) Ciao.

-Rayne

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

...
What have I been doing that makes people avoid giving me comments or anything?

....

I added new art to the gallery.. -_-

-Rayne
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Sunday, December 26, 2004

More Christmas Blather
I got more appliances for Christmas.. I'm actually quite happy with the crock pot, but I'm not certain as to why my mom bought me *another* expresso machine.

I wonder why people keep buying me appliances? I really don't need anymore.

I had a nice quiet Christmas. It was just me and Luke this year, which seemed strange, since I'm so used to Rob, or my parents, or someone else being around, but I'm still extremely happy. We have a really cute little tree this year that we are going to buy a new ornament for every year, and we each got a lot of things we wanted.

^_^

I was given:

-A Spongebob nightie (Dad)
-Spongebob t-shirts (Mom)
-A PILE of candy
-A crockpot and a neat cookbook to go with it (Luke's Mom)
-200 dollars in gift certificates for Chapters Book Store (From my Dad and Aunt Cathy)
-A 50 dollar certificate for Island Blue (an art store- from Luke)
-A 50 dollar certificate for Safeway (Aunt Cathy- Groceries are good. ^^;)
-A year pass for the Underwater Gardens (Paul)
-A Brita Water Filter (Luke.. I'm kinda confused about that one. But it's okay, I have visions of him wandering around the store just as confused. ^^;)
-An expresso machine (Mom)

My Dad also got me a pile of random crap, like rip off "Beyblades" from the Dollar store. I don't really know why. It made me slap my forehead. Maybe that's what he wanted.

I didn't get any art supplies or Video Games, but I suppose I should expect that since I haven't been playing many games lately, and most people don't know what to buy me. I'm really happy. ^_^ My family was so nice.

I'm going to phone Chels now, because I'm impatient and she's supposed to be here in FIVE MINUTES. Although she's not technically late, I'm friggen impatient (as aforementioned) and really wanna go spend my Chapter's Money.

Wooo!

Happy Holidays. :)

-Rayne

music: Gwen Stefani- Rich Girl

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Saturday, December 25, 2004

:)
Happy Holidays, everyone.

^-^
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Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Geeze...
Okay. I'm a bit stuck on what to do next in my comic; don't get me wrong, I have a very well planned story, I just.. don't know what to make Xavier do.

Ehn. I'll thinka something. But for obvious reasons, my comic is gonna be late.

Played D&D a few nights ago. It was really cool. My character
Alice is a lot of fun to play. I'm enjoying it, but it's hard to play someone younger than myself. I think I might be overdoing it.

We wound up pillaging a church last night. Well, sorta. There's only one chaotic person in our group, and the rest of them (except me) are a bunch of Lawful goods, which means there were a lot of questioning morals and such. The town was burnt to the ground. Geeze, nobody would come back..

Alice beat the crap out of like, two zombies though. Not bad for a level one (now level 2) sorceress. Woo!

(If people find my gaming adventures boring I'll stop posting them, but I'm still hyped up.)

Anyhoo. I made an attempt to draw Daphne and James. Then I realised I had no idea what James looked like. So I waited until later, and then found out that he was an african american kid. So then I recycled the drawing, since it didn't look anything like him.

I'm a dork.

I still need to finish Dethbug's picture, and today's comic. So I'm off.

-Rayne
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Sunday, December 19, 2004

Two page spread! Woo!
^_^ As the title says. Friday's Late page, and tomorrow's are both up on my site now.

~dances~ Woo.
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Friday, December 17, 2004

No comic
Fuck.

My computer screwed up seriously a few days ago, so until I get another version of PSP7 I won't be uploading anything.

..shit.

For the record, I am up to date, I just can't get the damned thing online. Scanned, but as big as it is, I can't really submit it.

You can still see it here, but it's huge, and has no editing done..

I'm sorry. I'm going to bed..

I'll figure this out soon, I hope.

-Rayne
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Thursday, December 16, 2004

Computer.
Agh.

My computer overheated yesterday, so we had to go through all sorts of nonsense to get it back up and running again.

I need to resetup my scanner for my comic, and such, too. For once it's actually updated on time, too.

>.<

Doncha hate it when you just barely miss someone online? Me too.

-Rayne
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