Monday, November 15, 2004

Thank God..
Just an update to say that I found out I don't have a cataract; I am not going blind.

In fact, the optomitrist was surprised by this information at all. He said there were no signs of such a thing.

I found out that I have astrigmatism, though, and I need to wear my glasses full time. >.< Lamezors.

On a happy note, I updated my comic. It's a bit late, but I'm really happy with it.

:D

-Rayne
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Sunday, November 14, 2004

:D COFFEEEEE!
Because I am the most brilliant person in all existance, I've decided to smartly skip on sleep today entirely, draw my comic, and drink as much coffee as possible.

I will stay up all day, work all night, go to my eye appointment tomorrow, find out if I'll be blind, come home, and completely crash. Gauging by the amount of caffeeine I've intaken by now, my guess is that this really really really won't be a problem.

Ah. I'm all hyped over rpgs now, so if I don't draw something today, I may go gleefully insane. I'm not very smart, I don't think.

Oh.. my hair came out more brown than blonde for some reason.. but it's not pink anymore, so I guess thats okay. I could care less. It's just fuckin hair. What's the big deal?

On a sidenote, isn't this a pretty song?:

The Light Before We Land (The Delgados)

In cases such as these I'd like a hand
Don't wake me up without a master plan
With black & white instead of colour
Don't you understand?
When things that once were beautiful
Are bland

And when I feel like I can feel once again
Let me stay awhile
Soak it in awhile
If we can hold on we can fix what is wrong
Buy a little time
For this head of me
Haven for us

In truth there is no better place to be
Than falling out of darkness still to see

Without a premonition
Could you tell me where we stand?
I'd hate to lose this light
Before we land

And when I feel like I can feel once again
Let me stay awhile
Soak it in awhile
If we can hold on we can fix what is wrong
Buy a little time
For this head of mine
Haven for us

Before we let euphoria
Convince us we are free
Remind us how we used to feel
Before when life was real

And when I feel like I can feel once again
Let me stay awhile
Soak it in awhile
If we can hold on we can fix what is wrong
Buy a little time
For this head of mine
Haven for us

drawing progress today: N/A
Current mood: my back hurts.
Music: Duh, what I just listed.

-Rayne
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Saturday, November 13, 2004

Dying my hair
~sigh~ I liked having pink hair. This is supremely lame. Especially after I drew that profile picture of me with my pink hair. I guess I gotta redo it. >.<

Anyway, I'm currently waiting for it to dry, so I'm stuck online. I was hoping I hadn't missed Eric (rpg wise) because I was still getting his messages when I logged on, but I think I might have.

Dratted things. Blecky.

Luke seems unhappy with me going for a job interview. Since we currently work together, now, I understand, but I'm also looking at a set of circumstances.

- I hate my current job, and it depresses me. It makes me sleep all day, miss my friends, and I can't handle that anymore.

- West pays better. And I work MORNINGS instead of in the middle of the goddamned night (for those who don't know, I don't really draw much except in the middle of the night, so this is really harsh on me.)

Nuff said. I'm sure things will work out well.

Ah. Why does this crap smell so bad? Why would ANYONE choose to have blonde hair? I never understood the appeal. All I ever really enjoyed out of having this colour was how well pretty colours stuck to it. Is it *actually* attractive to some people? Cause I never liked it.

.. I don't want to dye my hair forever, though. I'm twenty years old. I gotta grow up.

>.< Damn it. I dun wanna! ;_;

.. thats all I guess. Look, I updated my journal two days in a row! Woo!

Oh yeah. I decided to post my schedule of what I've actually done art wise here, so I'll do that now.

7:05 am-Started Monday's comic. Got distacted.
8:00 am- Watched Gunslinger Girls. Realised that my idea for Digital Destiny was not as creative as I originally thought. Am disgruntled.
9:00 am- started pencils on a picture of Seth for Eric.
10:17 or so- Dyed hair, goofed off on computer. Still have not finished comic or pic of Seth.

Music: American Analog Set- Hard to Find

Mood- Headache. Stinky dye.

-Rayne
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Friday, November 12, 2004

Job interviewww!
I got an interview on Tuesday morning! Yesh yesh yesh!

I guess this means I should dye the pink out of my hair though. They probably won't hire me if my hair's pink.

>.< Crraaap.

.. I guess thats okay. Damn, though. I didn't wanna put like, another layer of dye over punky dye. It just seems like a bad idea.

.. on another note, I spent an extremely long time today on my comic page, so if anyone wants to go see it I would lurv you really friggen big time. And vote for me. I'm droppin like a rock.

(not really, just 20 places, but it's still depressing.)

-Rayne
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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

..okay.
I have few creative energies at the moment (although I am about to log off to draw tomorrow's comic) so I'm putting up a curious question:

Is there anyone who actually wants me to draw them anything? Because I'd really like to be able to, and lately I haven't really had a lot of things going in my mind.

I will draw you pretty much anything, although I'm more excited with original characters. If you ask for a vase or something, I will look at you funny, but maybe actually attempt it. I mean more in the line of people.

Hey, I'm awake at six am. Maybe I should go to the highschool and harass my friends before they go to class. XD.

Maybe maybe? Nah, too cold.

^_^ Anyway, get back to me on that.

-Rayne
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Friday, November 5, 2004

Goddamn I feel pathetic right now..

I'm really lonely. I can't explain it. Luke's asleep. Megan's ignoring me on messanger . I don't know where Terri is..

.... I don't wanna be alone right now.

...I can't even fuckin draw right now..

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Down...
I know my journal hasn't been most upbeat lately. I don't know. Depressed.

I feel really out of everything. Kinda cold all over. My head hurts constantly, and I've been forcing myself to wear glasses (I thought this might be why) but I'm not certain if that's the reason.

I really dislike working at night time. Superhost (is a program for waitresses in BC. It's completely retarded.) is completely impossible to get, because I can't find it. It's just bothering me. I can't get another full time job, because I can't get the program. I can't *find* the program because I work too much and sleep all day, so I can't get another job.

..actually, I was thinking of moving off the island entirely. Luke hates snow, but if we keep to the coast, it might not be so bad. I was thinking maybe even the States or something. I've never been to America..

.. I'm running from my problems, hunh?

.. damn..

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Thursday, November 4, 2004

Superhost?
I need this program to get any sort of job that isn't Wal*Mart night crew, so if anyone knows where I can find it, I will be your bestest friend ever. Or maybe draw you something. I have no idea.

~hug~ Pleeaassee?! I can't find anything, I am interweb illiterate. 0.o

-Rayne

(thanks for all the concern you guys showed about my eye. It means a lot to me, you have no idea.)
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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

You elected him *again*?
I am completely ecstatic that I'm not an American right now.

Lets just hope our fucking continent doesn't go up in flames when we're bombed by every other nation in the damned world. >.<

..I hate politics.

-Rayne
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Tuesday, November 2, 2004

Regarding my eyesight...
I went to the optomotrist today. It didn't come out well. I don't know what's going to happen, and the whole thing scares me.

See, I already have glasses, but I only need them to see things at a distance (I'm nearsighted) but this is a shot further than that. I expected to get in trouble for not wearing the damned thing when I needed to, but that wasn't the case at all.

They found this white spot on my right eye. I noticed this too; that was why I went..

Anyway. They think it might be a cataract. And if that's what it is, then it might be serious.

Because I haven't been to the optomitrist for over a freakin year, so... actually.. this is really bad. It's scaring the shit out of me. If it actually is a cataract (I have to see a specialist) I'm going to be blind in my right eye.

.. so thats my day. Wee. Last time I actually went to the doctor they were all like 'oh yeah, your asthma has gotten increasingly worse, now you'll die if you do, well, anything.' and this time, it's 'oh, you just live to draw, you don't need to see to do that, right?

... I'm sick of all this bullshit.

-Rayne
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