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• I'm only 21 and I'm an English teacher.
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• I was able to draw.
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• Macross, Lain, Lament of the Lamb (Which is actually a manga..)
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• Buy a house, and get married. Thats why I'm teaching..
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• I'm a cartoonist, writer, and teacher. I love baking, too.
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• I am sarcastic. :3 I don't know if thats bad or good.
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Thursday, December 2, 2004
Ups and Downs
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I'm entirely depressed. I'm sorry to the whole whopping two people who read my comic for not updating, but I just can't seem to do it.
I recieved some seriously uncalled for and mean critism today. It was.. really fucking harsh.
(Basically stating that I'm not a good enough artist to work on commission; I was seriously knocked down through a lot of verbal abuse that I didn't even know how to answer.)
Anyway.. this.. might be completely retarded, but it's left me a bit sore. I mean, maybe my art isn't good enough. I know I get a big head sometimes. I like to draw, and I want to get better. But I also want to develop my own style, so I can't just follow everyone else and learn all the proper things that go through.
...it made me think too much. It really hurt a lot. And I can't draw,because I hate ever one of the six pages I've attempted to put together in the last couple of days.
I'm trying, but I might not have anything up for a while. I wish people would stop judging my things. If they don't want to buy it, don't hassle me to draw something for a month that I've blatantly said I didn't want to draw. I wouldn't have even brought up the commission shit otherwise.
.. fuck.
.. I haven't really been getting any feedback on any of my posts lately either, so I.. think I might be whining more than I mean to.
I'm not asking for approval or anything, I just want to be left to stray into the abstract, defy physics a little, and play with my lines and art.
..but right now I'm hella depressed. I can't believe he said it. It hurts really bad.
(I'm keeping with my comic. I just don't know why. Nobody reads the fucking thing. Sorry, I'm wrong, like, four people read it, once in a while, maybe, if there's nothing else to do.
..see? Bitter. Too bitter. I'm sorry.)
-Rayne
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