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myOtaku.com: psychorayne


Thursday, December 30, 2004

I'm a bad influence? What?
(I'm avoiding using my friend's name in case she doesn't appreciate me writing all this.)

I feel really hella bad today. I don't know. Maybe it's just the mix of the strange workings of my mind, or my embitterment at being locked inside since I gotta sleep soon, or yesterday's things..
In any case, I'm a bit of a headcase.

I've been trying to make the parents of a friend of mine happy with the way my life is lately for the distincy purpose of making my friends' life easier. I know that sounds foolish, but it's the truth. And I managed to botch it over the course of a few weeks by calling at bad times and being stupid enough not to realise it.

I don't know how to solve the problem. I can't phone her; I can't do anything or her stepdad will hang up on me. Go to her house? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm the ANTICHRIST. I dropped out of College and I'm not dating their son anymore. For Heaven's sake, I wear a trenchcoat. Only serious badasses wear trenchcoats.

I'm an OTAKU for crying out loud! I'm no threat! I'm fuckin scared of drugs and alcohol! What do you want?!

I don't know, honestly. I have no idea why I seem to rub them wrong. But it's so frusterating, because I try my damndest to make them like or at least tolerate me, and I don't know what to do anymore. Her mom treats me as if I have something wrong all the time; this is much the same as Michelle's mom, except I don't get the distinct impression that Liz (Michelle's mom) is actually TRYING to make me feel like a complete idiot; I get this from the other.

Seriously, I know I'm older than your daughter, but give it up. I'm not gonna steal your baby away. You're pushing her away yourself.

I know they don't like me; they pretend otherwise. I can tell, seriously, I could always tell, since I broke up with their son, but for God's sake, they make a good effort to hide such ideas.

No, I don't want to talk to her mother about my problems. I hardly know her mother and she thinks I'm an incompetant moron.

Frankly, I'm scared shitless of talking to her stepdad at all. He seems completely irrational right now..

.. I'm sorry if I was out of line writing any of this, but God, it's making me insane..

-Rayne
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