Friday, May 12, 2006

Word....
I was really mad. My dad wouldn't let me call Tyrell yesterday. Now my mom thinks Tyrell is going to molest me and kill me and they don't want to let him come down and see me. MY GOD THEY PISS ME OFF!! ><
Otherwise today has been super awesome rad coolness. ^_______^
Chris is comeing to get me at school when it lets out. We get to eat afterwards and it'll be cool! We also gotta get Luke. Yay!
Today was senior awards day...my freind Maria sang it was really beautiful. I saw Logan (super ultra hottest guy in school, popular if only by looks. I'm so lucky to be his freind! ^^ The other day he made me feel so loved! He screamed "Hey, Lynnsey!" out of his car window at me...and he talks to me ....and he's always taken up for me in the class we had together....he's a sweetie)on the little presentation thing as well and cheered for him.
I'm gonna miss all my freinds that are going away...
Well, no one is here at school today. Me, Sandra, Logan, and Andrea all hung out, ao it was cool. In the class I am in right now, there are 10 out of 26 people that are here.
I can't understand Math. If the teacher explains it to me I just get more and more confused...;____;
I wonder if you guys ever read my comments. espically hinaru, because I always post them the day after he posts! XD
You all made me feel better! Thanks to Beyond Wonderland for the card! I can't see things on photobuket, but just knowing you made me one, makes me feel great! ^^
Love all of you lots!!!
Mistress Kitten
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Thursday, May 11, 2006

Not in a good mood....
Last night I thought about a lot of things. My relationsip with Chris. My freinds at school. My freinds here. My freinds at my old schools. Chris not getting a scholarship. How we'll live once I turn 18. My school drop out plan. How I've dissapointed everyone.

I hate myself. I really do.

The only reason Chris doesn't have a scholarship is because he didn't have good enough grades. The reason he didn't have good enough grades was because he got a job and was too tired to keep up in class. The reason he got a job was because he needed money to come see me and he wanted to give me the things I never got a chance to have. It's all my fault Chris didn't get a scholarship.
I was supposed to be the first one in my family to graduate high school and go to college and make something of them self. I'm too stupid to understand algebra or any math...so, I'm failing one of the classes I need.
I'mn also failing English.
I hate going to school. It doesn't feel like any of my freinds here are real freinds anymore. They all look like they're going to stab me in the back. All my old freinds have abandoned me. At least I still have you guys. Thanks for being there.

I cried a lot last night. I felt stupid. And I beat KH2. It was sorta dissapointing.
I get to bring in DDR to English class on the last day of school when we have our end of the year parties.

Otherwise I feel meh...
I got to everyone's site today.
That makes me happy.
Love ya lots,
Mistress Kitten
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Me and Alyana are stealing Becky and smuggling her in our boob clevage!
Time: 9:38 pm yesterday
Current Music: Cradle of Filth's "Thank God For The Suffering"
Mood: blah....

Well, my compy let me comment yesterday. I had to restart it and delete some viruses, and I think that did the trick. I also got some work done. Hinaru's site is gone!!!! >< Where did it go???

I need to find a third piece of printer paper to print of my lyrics for English. I'm useing Cradle of Filth's "Thank God For The Suffering." I had to "change" one word in the song from whore, to war, because well...I couldn't use the song otherwise...and every other song has some sort of sexual implication in it. And Cradle's just about the only band that has a lot of poetic ability in a song. I feel really bad for changeing that one word though...

I can't beat KH2. Riku dies in 3 hits before I can get to Sora. The other Xemnas keeps rapidly hitting me with his sheild thing and it's annoying. I hate it when an enemy combos me and I can't get out of it. I try to dodge it but he moves so fast I just run into it. And I can't heal Riku...
Your hott Riku, but I hate you so much.
'-_-
I took a three hour nap earlier. I was really nauseous, and felt like shit...I was also kinda mad at Amanda...she sorta ignored me today...I don't like this new boyfreind guy of hers...but at least she's happy. I'm glad for that I should guess. I just sorta got mad and jealous...
I miss Darby for some reason right now. I guess he hasn't come back from Boy's town yet, because he hasn't posted. I didn't get a chance to call him back on Easter and I felt bad about it. I just hope he doesn't think I'm ignoreing him.

*sigh*....word.

I wish the 3rd vol of Nana was out...I can't survive without it. I also wanna read the 2nd vol of Loveless. And I need to read the rest of Angel Sanctuary...sigh...so much damn manga. If it wasn't so fucking expensive...10.00 a book adds up. Also want to buy all of Paradise Kiss in one swipe. Thats like over 60.00. I need a fucking job. And Hyper Police, and Testarotho, and the rest of Gravitation...which is from 9-13. I also want Life vol.2. The list goes on.

So, what manga does everyone read? Or do you not read manga?

I also have to find out when Dir en Grey is comeing down here...Money....

The chick from Flyleaf sounds like a punked up Avril Laveinge...I don't really like that much. I need Kittie...Manx had an awesome voice. They need more girl bands. I miss my old band. Psycho Sanctuary. Good times. Good times. This is why I say Chara and Kevin don't know much about me. I don't think either of them knew I was in a band. And I espically know Chara didn't know that I was in one at the time *cackles*. I didn't let anyone know about my "night life". I miss those times. And I espically miss Bones...and all his freinds. Except for Skulls...I mos def don't miss him, and I know he doesn't miss me either. ^^' It's mutual hate so it's all good.

I keep offending the goth wannabes on the Otaku...it's not good, but...well. I'm trying to get a point across. I won't stop till I'm there.
I had my Revolver with me today with Trent Reznor on the front of it, and well I got a lot of comments about it. My freind told me Trent was weird and I whacked him good.(We can't let people hurt our Trent-poo now can we, Becky??^^) I said "Not weird just creative orgasmic- ness."
I was actually nice to Quinten today. Yeah, I know whoa. But well...he'll get whats comeing to him in the end. In this world, people who do shady shit like that get whats comeing to them three fold. It's just the way it works. I think so at least. I was being really mean to this girl yesterday (I don't like her because she thinks she's so...punk and shit) and she got her hair cut off really short and dyke-ish. Sandra said it looked like Paine from FFX-2, I said, You Look Like One of those people trying to be punk who really isn't and is doing a horrible job of it. But errmmmm...your hair looks good anyways I guess. I always tke back what I say! >< But this morning I woke up andI could not get my hair to be nice to me, and I hit my toe on my dad's tool box, I tripped getting out of bed, I fell asleep sitting up, I had difficulties with my cd player, I couldn't find any clothes to wear, and my freind ignored me for her boyfreind. Yep, thats what I get for being a bitch. -_-'

I gave Quinten a high five though. Still, it makes me mad...

Anyways....good nite to all for I have to call the "Christ"...Chris...because on those bubble in sheets where you put your last name, that was all they had space for. My freind King, was like "Hahaha, look now, I am the Christ. If you open your test booklet early, a ninja will hit you in the head, knock you out, and ass rape you."
Such, weird freinds I have...omy way of being nice to him is telling him to shove a finger up his ass, and be happy about it. Or wait your such a whore you'll probably have to find something a bit larger, so you'll feel something. The he tells me to shut the fuck up and go home and kill myself. We all have a good laugh.
He's burning me a Trivium cd...

Love ya lots,
Mistress Kitten

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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

I'm gonna help Becky and Alayna steal Dir en Grey!!! ^^
First I'll open with a poem I just wrote (well actually I wrote on thursday, but I added and revised it) for English class....maybe hopeing this will raise me up a little to a D...
It's about where I'm from...that was what we were supposed to write about.

Musical Dissonance, Memories, and Attention Defficit Disorder Fantasies (I am From...)
Lynnsey Nance
(If you do not know the first parts in italics are names of songs (Allusions.)
Anarchy In The UK-The Sex Pistols,Pennyroyal Tea-Nirvana,Chaste Sin-Duel Jewel , Love- Keysha Cole. I take no credit for the song titles, and the songs which beong to the respected artists.


I am from,
Anarchy In The U.K.
Pennyroyal Tea.
Chaste Sin.
Love.
Inspiration.

I am from a generation,
that does not know the extent of pain,
pitiful people, who fit themselves in with stereotypes.
Thinking of their horrible disposition,
slash their hearts open with shards
of oncomeing fear,
not being able to accept the changeing times.
Jeering at those not wanting to
fit in with sexual stereotypes,
bitter souls
that spit and hit with inexperience.
How can one judge when
they do not know the extent of the mind?
The soul?
Cling to the cross at which you
find comfort.
Cry for mercy,
when those you laughed at rise up.

I am from,
tall spires, lined with ghastly glitter.
A kingdom unto itself,
espically rendered in night sky.
Souless black, and
pristine white feathers,
of fealty and loyalty,
flutter in and out,
as if it were static interference.
A castle made of glass,
a kingdom of illusive hate.
If one were to wander through
these decadant halls
of livid dreams
would they know how to
separate my fantasies?

Crying angels,
laughing demons,
fill my rooms
with the theroes of humanity's essence.
These ghosts that beckon me,
sing songs of love once lost,
love regained,
and love gone forever, but yet,
never strays from my side.

I have no family,
where I am from.
Responsibility abandoned.
Control lost.
They gave up eons ago.

Abandoned to my thoughts.
The place where I come from.
My dreary memories,
and almost livid, all to vivid
fantasises.
And also left,
none the less,
with the ghost of you and me.

Like it? I hope so. But well...if you don't thats cool. Creative criticsm is cool.

Well, my Xgirlfreind Sandra's mother is in the hospital, and yesterday she tatooed my back in sharpie with a picture of a kitty boy saying "Hey."
It was cool.
Amanda is neglecting me. She has this goffy boyfreind...I didn't even know she liked him. I know I shouldn't feel this, but for some reason I feel betrayed.
My poor lil Chris is sick. He has a real bad cold. And his mother keeps bitching and putting him down because he didn't get a scholarship. She does this to his face, makeing him feel really bad. My mom being well, my mom, said that she thought he was excellent and would make something out of himself. It made chris smile, so it made me happy.
I got to some sites today, so I'll see if this computer will let me comment today!
I have to pick a song out that has poetry elements in it (rhyme, meter, etc...) and I think I'll do Cradle of Filth...or a Duel Jewel song, but I can't find one that fits it really...
I also have to write a poem about imagery, and I think I'm going to do it on an Angel Sanctuary picture of Sara....
I kinda started on it. I think I might write some song poetry about people...and some of you guys might be in them!!^^ In fact I think I'll do all of you I know well.
^^
I just need to choose some songs to work with...lyrics to fit things...
Well, yeah I changed my site back to soild colors. I just can't get my BG to work, so it's useless. So, I just picked my favorite colors and apply! ^^
Love all of you!
Mistress Kitten

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Monday, May 8, 2006

   RAGHGGHHHH! It won't let me comment again!! >
I hate this compy!!!!!!!! ><
But I am still going to read all your sites....
So, far I went by Hinatas, Hinaru's, Alaynas, and Beckys.
But I had a pretty good weekend. My and Chara (Kuronekosama), Kevin (JewishPayphone), and Chris hung out. Chara and I are back on good terms. Her mom went missing and we thought she was dead. We found her car at Chilhowee Park and Chara freaked. She thought her mom was dead. We waited a total of 3 hours probably, just find out her mom was arrested. Chara was so happy though. It was nice to see us all goofing off again. We went to Taco Bell and the next day we went to the Flea Market and Cici's Pizza.
Today my outfit consists of a red Aeropostle shirt, blue fisnet, Ripped Tripp jeans with skulls and chains all over them, and one fishnet stocking. Weird ain't I? I really like my random clothes matching. I also wore this yesterday.
This girl asked me if I believed in demons. I said yes, because I wouldn't wanna lie. Then she asked me if I ever saw one and I said yes and told her off about it being a personal question. All she could say was sorry. That pissed me off. I hate it when wannabe goth kids ask me shit like that.
Anyways, I'm off to read the rest of the sites!
Love ya'll.
Mistress Kitten
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Thursday, May 4, 2006

"Repent(whore)" Children of Bodom (originally done by CryHavoc I think)
Lyrics

I've seen you in a darkness
your face in a dusk
your silhouette in a shades
eyes gliming full of lust

You try to dazzle me
with your beauty
You try to bewitch me.

When cold northwind blows
I can smell your parfyme
when frost bites
I feel your lips on my neck

I don´t want to share my life
oh no with you
I want your sweets
and things we used to do

No... You can't reach my love
so go or be mistress of my dreams
No... In my life there's no room for you
as you know Your flesh is what I want

I hear your lullaby that sweet melody
and I can remember those words
which (you) whispered in my ear

You try to dazzle me with your beauty
You try to bewitch me
I feel your loving embrace
in my dream I see your face
your soft skin under my fingertips
and taste of your lips

I don't want to share my life
oh no with you
I want your "sweets"
and things we used to do

The time you spend with me
was nothing but a dream
and that's the thing you see

You were the chosen one
we made love under neversetting sun
and that's everything
I could do with you...

No... You can't reach my love
so go or be mistress of my dreams
No... In my life there's no room for you
as you know Your flesh is what I want

Dark desire dressed in black
you try to turn me your back
but you desire me
like a darkness desires you
you try to forget
those times we spend together
but your desire is
what bothers you the most

No... You can't reach my love
so go or be mistress of my dreams
No... In my life there's no room for you
as you know your flesh is what I want

...Do it do it end your life
but don't tease me anymore
with your cries repent... repent... repent whore

My favorite song by Children of Bodom...I listen to it every morning before going to school...

Yeah, I know I need to lay off the food Momo, but my metabolism is so fucked that the only ay I loose weight is by starveing myself and playing a lot of DDR...
I an such a delienquent...I'm not doing my work..
My freind Chance (I think he likes me...Koz likes me and he said "Hey you know you like her too." and Chance didn't say anything....And he's always so depressed...and I'd hate to help make him that.) says I should work at Brusters with him...I might...I dunno.
i really need the job and the money. Chris and I might be getting a studio apartment downtown and even though I'm not liveing there I still wanna help pay for it...
2 sources of income is better than one.
I'm not good with moneys...
I have tomorrow off from school!!! A whole day to dedicate to KH2.
I'm on the Tron world right now.
I hate that movie.
><
Today's went by so slowly...I need to talk to Tyrell tonight and watch my Name is Earl...and of course The Office as well. I also have to go buy a Pepsi and a Vault for our biology party....
I want to draw something...
Whats your favorite bands...?
I also need to look into when Dir en Grey is comeing into Nashville, so I can get tickets or at least pursuade my mom to let me get tickets..
Love yall lots,
Lynnsey
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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

   I am omniscent music wise.....I know it all...hahahah I wish.
Hinata: I know Green Day all ready. I used to have all their old cds. Bet half of you own American idiot, but none of you own Dookie. That was thier best. I hate new Green Day *spazs* I would love to see Sniper Wolf's rifle...ahhhh the coolness of the best MGS 1 female.

It's not been good.
Sick still....
I had to take the motherfucking gateway again. Even though i have passed it once, they made me take it AGAIN! I started crying during it....I felt so damn stupid...I wasn't smart enough, so I pretty much "christmas Treed" the paper. The this freshman comes up to me and says "Wow, that was easy, don't you think?"
I just smiled and said ja.
And the consulers made me feel like I was the stupidest most delienquent child ever....
I just want to sleep...and eat. I felt so gross last night after I scarffed down three double cheeseburgers....
I beat the Port Royale world on KH2...and now I'm on halloween town...^^
I don't really care anymore...My grades keep slipping and it's useless.......
Chance straightened his hair and he looks so emo...and hot.
We had to write Haikus in english....I wrote one about Gir...
Gir is green and silver.
He likes Cupcakes and poop cola.
I will always love Gir!
Wonderful eh? It's going outside on the wall at school along with this picture of Gir I drew...
^^'
Awwww, Hinaru you are so sweet....*huggles*
I just now noticed Michelle's site is gone...

why...

Love ya'll lots
Lynnsey/Purga-sama/onee-chan/Kitten
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Monday, May 1, 2006

I checked out my favorite book today! HORRAY! ^^
Current mood: Content, sleepy.
Current Music: The Sex Pistols, Ozone
Current Song-"Anarchy In The UK"-The Sex Pistols

Note: This was actually written yesterday


Who else has Kingdom Hearts 2 Fever? I borrowed the game from a freind and let me tell you...I'm not a big KH fan at all. In fact the first game was a big dissapointment for me. It was boreing and mundane, and the music got too repetive. But the 2nd one, is so much FUN! ^^ And the graphics are awespireing. The music is catchy. The story is intresting and fast paced. And the real time kinks have been dealt with.
Thank you John Austin (Cabelle00) for letting me borrow it.

All in all this has been a GREAT weekend!
Chris and I are working things out for the better. The only things I'm uncomfortable about are some unresolved feelings toward someone I'd call me best freind (you guys know who he is...and if you don't and want to know...then go to his site, Shintoga) and Chris seems angry that I won't give into certain sexual things. I say I'll do them, but then it gets too uncomfortable for me, and well...I don't. And it's not like I don't give him anything or let him do anything...-_-'
With Shintoga (I don' know why, but I'll revert back to useing his screen name for privacy purposes.) my feelings keep flipping. Just when I think I can get back to haveing a relationship that focuses mainly on Chris, these feelings come along for Shintoga...it's more than freindship, and I think it's a form of love. But there's this girl he used to date...and he really loved her. He never did anything to her, and she was a total bitch to him. Friday he got into an arguement with her (they started talking again) and since he's been throwing up everyday and crying. He's never cried over a girl before. He's not the type of guy to cry over anything. When he answered the phone he didn't sound at all like himself. And when he told me about what happened I wanted to cry. I hate to see him hurt...I really do. I wanted to be there to hold him and say that I'd be there for him. I can't wait till he comes down here soon. It's going to be so much fun! ^^
Thursday, when I called him my voice was fucked up, because I'm sick and he kept acting concerned. It was really sweet. Then he said "You know Lynnsey, I really like you." We both admitted we liked each other, but I think if we were ever going to date it would happen sometime after he comes down here for about a week. Another time he said, "If we were to ever go together, I'd never hit you or shit like that. "...that really made me feel all warm and fuzzy...*blushes*


Sid Vicious is so sexxy...meow.... I got "Never Mind The Bollocks, Here's The Sex Pistols" (The Sex Pistols) for my 2 year anniversary present from Chris and I also got DiscO-Zone (Ozone) which was 68 cents at the used book store! The Sex Pistols was a bit harder to come across but it only ran 11.99. I decided to go for a diffrent genre of music, because even though I love metal, and jrock, pop, rap, grunge, sludge...etc...etc...I've never listened to that much punk music. And this band is one of the only ones I've ever really listened to, thanks to Bones and my freind David. One day I heard my favorite song by them on the Drum Game at the mall, "Anarchy In The UK.", since then I've been seeking out this cd. I also kept reading Nana over and over again, and Ren looks so much like Sid...that insanity drove me to get this.

Btw...I'm over Quinten. He's a gay-tard with bad taste in music. He has no vareity... He was just a hot piece of ass and a great kisser. And I admit I did like the attention I got from him. I think most of it had to do with the fact that he was the only guy that thought I was really pretty...and any girl likes to hear she's pretty. So, I think...-_-'''''''

Monday is Chris and mine's 2 year anniversary...and I want to get him something special, but can't think of anythin..more like a way to get money...but eh.

Well, I'm going to go....tired and sick and happy.
Wow, what a combination.
Sweet dreams of Naked Snake to all!!! or atleast you MGS fans out there.
^_____^
Kitten pounces on you all and gives you hugs and kandies

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Friday, April 28, 2006

I fucking hate this SCHOOL!!! >
I'm tired of it.
I'm dropping out next year asap.
I'm going to do my best in the working world and I will make it damn it. If it takes me whoreing myself out I WILL MAKE IT!
I've lost all hope.

I'm still sick. And feel like crap. Quinten wouldn't even talk to me today. Hansen, Kasey, Garett, and Daneil (all Quintens freinds, but I also consider them freinds) came and sat with me, Ali, and Brandon. Quinten was over there all alone writting a note. Probably to Megan. His girlfreind. He came over to us a couple of times, and said stuff to Ali, and gave Hansen his headphones back. He then stole a note that Hansen stole from Ali, which was from me. Most of it was about him and he read it ALL!!!!! ><
Kasey and Garett tried to molest me today! Brandon kept saying "Yeah!! Grab them titties!!" 0_0
I think I saw them kissing the other day...I wanted to cry so bad...I try not to care, I shouldn't care, so why do I care?
I'm glad you guys liked the fanfiction! ^^ It made me happy to see that!
I also got to talk to Tyrell yesterday! YAY! He got a camera phone and kept trying to send me piccys that wouldn't show up on my gay phone...They were pictures of his dog, Lucky.
He said he really liked me yesterday. Hell, I knew he liked me all ready, but it still felt good to hear. I'm trying to get everything together to finalize his trip down here.
I*'m still pretty sick...ack.
Love ya lots,
Lynnsey
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

Fucking motherfucker son of a bitch fucker.
Well, I got back from yearbook signing. It fucking sucked.
First I walk over and talk to Kasey, and Quinten is standing there hanging all over his chick.
And he doesn't stop or anything when I'm over there.
He tried to talk to me today. I had a test on my desk and he was like "haha i finished before you did."
Then I said, "Do I give a fuck? Fucking no."
"Mad are we?"
"Fuck yes."
He sat there and I ignored him until her went away. He came back over and asked me to sign his yearbook. Since I'm a nice bitch I did.
I wrote "ur mean."
that was it.
Fuck this school.
I hate it.
Sorry I want to vent...
Lynnsey
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