Friday, April 7, 2006

Happy early birthday to me....
Monday is my birthday....I'll be 17.
Woooo.
I talked to Alayna last night on the phone...I was nervous, so I kept blabbing....-____-''''''''
I'm going after school with Amanda to get her tatoo finished! ^^YAY!
I saw a book today, because I was looking for something good to read. I saw a book that caught my eye and picked up. It's called Dragonology...Chara and I used to look through that book often. I remebered all those times and her...and I couldn't help, but cry again.
I actually talked a little to Quin today....Why does it hurt so bad? Just to hear his voice..it hurts my heart. But there's someone else out there for me...
I'm actually sinking to his level. I'm useing him. For answers in Math. Or else I would void him completely.
I talked to Tyrell last night and it was the best! Eric was over there to, so I got to talk to him a little. We talked a lot about when he comes to see me in June/July. OMG! I can't wait! ^^
I love all of you guys and sorry I couldn't get to so many sites today, but I'll do as many as possible! ^^'
Love ya
Kitten
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Thursday, April 6, 2006

In the great words of my dear friend Chris King:
Life just keeps getting worse.
And worse...
Quinten blew me off today. He didn't say one word to me except for when amanda came in the room and he said "Your lovers here".
Then during the class Ali went and fucking sat with HIM instead of ME.
What an awesome freind.
I can't believe she did that.
Yesterday she called me, and told me what he had IMed her.
It said
"Maybe I like her. Maybe I don't like her. Maybe I though I liked her. Maybe I'm just too afraid to ask her out."
After all the shit he said to me. And he told me to believe it. And there for awhile I did.
I cried in class. i got to biology, laid my head down and cried. Chris King came and kept asking me what was wrong...and kept saying talk to me about it. I can't believe it took words from him to make me stop crying.
I can't wait to talk to Tyrell tonight....
I've missed him over the week.
Thank you to all of you who commented. And I would like to ask if you guys would go and check out MagikSalem's Daria picture, because it's awesome.
Love all of you...espically Momo and Alayna, because you guys have always been there.
Kitten
ps. I do have DVD player Alyana! I would love a DJ dvd!!!
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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

Not a good day.
Things with Quin aren’t good…hard to explain….
I’m never going to find a guy that likes me and I like him back….
Or a girl…..
Guys just shun me away….the only guy that loves me is Chris…and I just don’t love him back. He’s never going to learn….
I know I keep talking about my problems, but that’s all it ever seems to be everyday. I’m so tired…I get no rest. I get no food. All I get is yelled at to do housework (which I never do…to much school work) and help with the family….
Well, I’m trying to get to as many sites as possible…so toodles!!!!
Lun ya’ll Kitten

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Monday, April 3, 2006

I love that song! ^~
Last night we had a HORRIBLE Storm where I lived in Tenessee. I wonder if Alayna got it?
It was lighting, all night, LITERALLY. It stormed most of the time. And a tornado passed over us. It hailed and rained like crazy. I was playing DDR Extreme 2 before the power shut off, and if you've ever seen the bg for Sakura, it looked like that outside beofre the rain started. And it didn't help that my parents bickered all night. And then my dad bitched me out and screamed at me...saying that he hated me for not being normal...and I went against God...
The weekend sucked. Chris screamed at me, because I was tired, didn't want to talk to him, and didn't want to go see "Slither" with him. I also called him a pussy a lot and he kept telling me he was going to kill himself. Then for an apology I made him apologize to my lil bro who was in the car, and take him and John Austin out for ice cream.
School's been all right I geuss. Once again stressed out and pissed, because it seems like Quin doesn't really wanna date me. I think theres someone else he likes....because this thingy on myspace said that he liked someone and hasn't asked them out yet. His freind Raven sent like eight messages asking if it was her. And when I asked who the person was, he just kept saying I like to keep secrets.
He walked with me again to class. In other words he walked my way to class. And he came and set with me as usual. But when he said, "God, Ali your annoying and Ali asked why he came and set with us. He said, "I want to talk to Lynnsey."
Awwwww....squeeeee...
Well, I gotta do work....thabks for everyone who comments...espically Momo and Alayna, Hinaru...and the rest...
Love All Of You,
Kitten

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Friday, March 31, 2006

I'm sorta tired of waiting on him.......
Ok before I start this post let me tell ya about a great club that needs helping getting off it's feet..
It's called LemonLove and run by my lil sis Momo, aka PeachesXCream
But it's yaoi and yuri, love and yes MALES I said YURI, which means GIRLS ON GIRLS!!
I'm more for the yuri than the yaoi, but heck...JOIN!

I wish he would just ask me out all ready, but I'm sure he has a reason not too. Today was special though....
He never walks the way I do to our class and we don't walk together except after class.
Today he walked up to me, the way I go to class which is opposite of the way he goes....And we walked together. It was nice.
he's sweet, but I just wonder...
Anyways, I hope I'm going to have a good weekend. I need to get ready to go to those places with Chris and then get ready for the long break up speech...
I get to eat though...
Yes, I have something to admit...I haven't been eating. My cooks stuff I like, but I still won't eat it....I ate a little last night and a hamburger earlier this week and thats all I've eaten....
I don't sleep well and I'm avrageing...2-3 hours of sleep a night.
But the happiest thing that happened to me last night.
I got to talk to Tyrell! ^^
And I finally got the courage to confess to him about how I feel. i told him that I liked him and had for awhile and he said , "So, have I"
YES!!
He's comeing to see me the last week of June going into July! Awesomeness....
So, how is everyone else doing?
My parents are trying to convince me not to move out when I turn eighteen.
What a joke.
Love all of you!
Kitten
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Thursday, March 30, 2006

I love that song...It's pretty up untill the part when her voice cracks, lol.
Well, things went well with Quinten...I had fun with him today. Me, him, Garett, and Ali, Kasey, and Hanson hung out. Garett had these little magnetic balls...and it was amuseing. Quinten kept playing with them and Garett said "Quinten stop massageing my magnets!!" lol
Weelllll...I gotta go, class is almost over...2-1, bye!
Love
Kitten
ps. Sorry if I didn't get to some sites like Lost Child, anastusha, and everyone else!! GOMEN!!! ><
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Well, I'm tired as crap. I stayed up a lot of the night crying, fearing, and contemplateing.

But everythings fine now.

After school yesterday I was outside and I told Sandra what I had hear and she said she knew somethings about Quinten that she couldn't tell me.
So, I convinced her to tell me.
This girl Rhea had drove him home. Quinten and Sandra are both good freinds with her. So, Quinten wanted her to come inside and chill for a little while. But she didn't want to. So, he stole something of hers and ran into his house with it. He ended up fingering her.
After I heard (even though this happened a while ago, probably before I came here.) this I got so pissed I tore the necklace he gave me off my neck and flung it across the school yard. I was bubbly mass of tears and confusion.
Sandra held me there as I said "Why do all these guys use me? Do, I just emit the aura that I'm easy? "
I cried a lot after school, called Ali and told her what I had found out. Chris talked to me as well, and helped a lot. He's such a good freind. Amanda called me at like 11 at night, right after I was saying to Chris that I had no one left I could trust. Amanda really is one of my best freinds. She kept saying all these things to me like, "Your too good for him...etc."

Today was diffrent. I came in and sat down. I didn't say a word after he came in, because we're always the first two people in class. So, he said, "What giveing me the cold shoulder now?"
And I said, 'yeah after what you said." He said, "Oh, I haven't said anything bad about you." And I said "Yes, you did." He said, "Well, whoever told you is lieing. Well, what did I supposedly say." "Well, you said I was just a freind and you weren't going to do much with me. After all the shit you said and I actually believed you."
"I never said that. Whoever told you that is lieng."
"I trust the guy who told me. Hes a good freind."
Then Amanda walked into the room afterwards and stood beside,saying it's going to be ok. Have strength.
She then proceeded to say this, "If you ever hurt her, I will rip off your balls and shove them down your throat" And walked off.
Later on we started talking some more and he told me the truth about the situation. He said the only thing he said to Chance when he asked how things were going with me, was that we were still just freinds, but we're close to dateing each other....I asked Chance and he said he probably just missunderstood.
So, everything's fine between us again pretty much.
Thank you so much for the support. It's so nice to know your loved ^^
Thank you all again.
Also, I made a AA on Maxx Unlimited on traning mode...hahaha I bumped the speed down to 1 and x1.5. lol.
I really wish I had a digital camera....I want to take pictures and upload them here! ><
Btw if any of you don't know what I look like, pictures are in archives.
Kitten Loves All Of You.
ps. I'm trying to get to as many sites as possible and if I do not get to yours I apologize.
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Kanashi.....
Spring break was boreing and exciting and confuseing and bad....
I did visit Quinten and we made out and he said a lot of shit to me. Like I wanna be with you, and when I asked about dateing he said give me sometime to sort things out in my head.
I got to keep his balls...no not those, but a necklace.
Well, today I was talking with my freind Chance. He said he talked to Quinten over spring break on Friday (i went over to his house Tuesday). He asked about me and Quin said "Oh, she's just a freind and thats about it."

...............
Why do these guys keep useing me?
Am I incapable of love? Can someone not love me that I love back???????

How can he say that...

I cried a little. I felt so alone right then. I have no one left. No one.

Abandoned and lied to again.

Kitten
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Friday, March 17, 2006

Spring Break.
Well, it's finally here!! I probably won't be here for a whole week because as you know, no school!
It's not that I'm not looking forward to it, but I'll be alone at home. Sitting and playing DDR and clock Tower, and other assorted things..

But things may change for the better.

Or worse.

My freind Ali who talks to Quinton on the net all the time, says that he's been talking about asking me out over spring break...
Ali told me about what they had been talking about.
It was like this:
"So, when you gonna ask Lynnsey out?"
"The more you ask me the longer I'll put it off."
" Bet you'll be sad, because you won't be able to see her for a while, since it's no school for a week and all."
"Hey, who says I won't see her over spring break?"
SQEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Sorry just the prospect of him seeing me makes me happy.

But I'm going to the hockey game with Chris, Luke, and John Austin. Hopefully JA can spend the night with us. If not I'll die!! ;___;
I might be getting a Children of Bodom shirt for my bday, because all the Dir en Grey and Duel jewel shirts are paypal only! And Kitten has no paypal...;_________;

Anyways toodles!
Love all of you and thanks for the nice comments!! ^^
Kitten Loves all of you!!
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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Favorite Song: "PennyRoyal Tea" Nirvana
Well, I'm feeling all right how bout all of you?
Quinton is so sweet....He kept rubbing my face and it was romantic. And talking to me. And Ali said that she's trying to convince him to ask me out. I won't go out with a guy unless they ask me. It's just personal policy.
Last night wasn't so great...but today's been better! Maybe tonight, I can FINALLY talk to Tyrell.
The thing about it is that my dad doesn't like blacks. So, once he saw Tyrell's name he freaked out and said all this BS. Now he doesn't awswer the phone when he calls, but I check it every night to see if he's called.
So, tell me about life.
Wow, Ketsuri was here??!
Maybe he came back for once ~^
Kitten Loves You
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