Thursday, February 9, 2006

I need to peeeeeeee....
Well hello to BlackNova and TribalofChaos...because thats about the only people that come.
I'm so sorry that I didn't call back...ya see my dad fell asleep on the phone....Like literally sat on it and fell asleep.
Don't kill me please, I'll let you in, I'll let you in...I'll come by and sign your GB to tell you that I've started it....
I'm hungry...and I need to peeeeeeee...so bad.
I was listening to Tenacious D last night and it was so much fun...
My really good freind Amanda (dare I say my best freind probably, in all truth, besides Casey)was really depressed today. I started to cry in second, I felt pretty bad, because I felt powerless to help her. She gave me this note and it was so sad. I wrote her one back, so I hope it'll help. She seemed happier, because I saw during lunch. Her class was in the library. We're going to try and go to this open Pagan coffehouse. I know I'm christian, but I believe in more than one god..I just worship my God. So it's like I'm a pagan-christian mix...
weird huh?
I'm tired...
The biggest bullshit ever happened. Our roads were completley frozen over, and snow was covering the ground and yet they MADE US GO TO SCHOOL!!! My dad was swerveing bad, but we made it ok.
I'm so tired...
and I have work so I think I'll go...
love you two guys...
SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten
And yes I will call you tonight...even if it's on my phone, Boozer...hahahahah boozer and his imaginary zeros...
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Wednesday, February 8, 2006

"Someone Put Something In My Drink"-Children of Bodom
Sigh….

Things have been good lately.

*tosses stake to the zero and run some more* Oh no it seems to be getting fatter, and slower which is good…now I must run some more.

But my friends seem like they could give a flying fuck about me. None of them care (except for Amanda) about me at all. They don’t even ask

“Hey Lynnsey, how are you?”

I have no best friend. Kuronekosama is dead to me now. We haven’t talked in nearly a month. I told myself I would not call her unless she called me. I miss my best friend…I have no real best friend anymore…it’s pretty sad. I barely talk on the phone anymore…it’s like anyone calls me anyways, but my dad questions me about why my friends never call anymore and it’s hard to tell him that they just don’t care.

I did have a good day besides realizeing all that…My daddy bought me the newest Metal Maniacs magazine and it has Dragonforce, Children of Bodom and Cannibal Corpse in it!! Alos has Nattefrost and some other good black metal….I love Alexi Laiho..I heard people think him Janne are lovers because they got drunk and made out. The two deny the lovers thing, but say the making out was intentional!!! I wish I could find a video of that….boy oh boy….

It’s Tribalof Chaos’s Birthday soon…we need to have an otaku party..teehee.

Beware for I am making a metal and REAL anime fanclub soon. I think I’ll make you *points to Nova-kun* vice president, because you are awesome! It would be funny if I made a club where noone could join but myself….I should do that…And ask people if they want to join lol.

SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten

Ps. I have weight issues too, TribalofChaos….I used to be bulimic and I used to starve myself, but now..I MUST EAT!!! And so should you!

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Tuesday, February 7, 2006

AGGGGHG
My sister is in jail for faliure to see her parole officer on traffic violations and drug charges....But I’m not gonna worry about it. Even though I almost got into with her boyfreind’s brother yesterday. I just walked away and muttered a lot of unrepeatable things under my breath....I hate her boyfreind....soooo much. He’s selfish and greedy and only cares for him self.

Things are getting better, but romantically I feel restless...I need a change, but there are no good guys and I don’t really want to break up with him....There is a guy (actually more than 1) but both are long distance and I doubt ethier of them would date me anyways...mainily dealing with one has a girlfreind all ready, even though he’s seemingly unsatisfied....

But other than that all is good!!! I’ll probably call Boozer-kun tonite.

I’m gonna run away from the scary imaginary zero!!!!!!! NOOOOOO!!!! * shrit rips open like in cheesy horror film* !!!!! NOOOOO!!!!! ARRRGGGGGGHHHH!!!

Well better run!!!

Hows it going with everyone??

SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten

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Monday, February 6, 2006

   my relationship is getting better!!!!
Well, things are not that bad for once....well cept for the fact my sissy is in jail, but thats beside the point!!

I had a bad weekend starting off. It wasn't good at all. The first half of saturday sucked. We went to the mall where I was reunited with my old freind Sky!!! Yayness for the Sky!!! But with her was her best freind Tiffany, who abhors me for some reason. She spread all these rumors about me....that asshole.
This also brought back some painful memories of Westley....
We went to McKays...and it sucked. Badly...
But right as I was about to give up on my relationship, things changed...
How is everyone???
SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten
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Friday, February 3, 2006

"Chaste Sin" Duel jewel
Woohoo today is a special day! It is Shun's bday!!! This post is espically dedicated to his fans, who're me, Tribal of Chaos, and Lemoned Lolita ( they're the only people who know of Duel Jewel that are on this site, thus far)

Well today, has been ok. Haveing some guy troubles (more like heart troubles).

Well, first off as most of you know there is someone who is very special to me named Chris (my boyfreind). I love him, but he is the MOSt wrong person for me I think. We barely have ANYTHING in common and he bores me. And he isn't that big, so if ya know what I mean I haven't been satisfied...(it helps relieve stress). But there is another named Westley (xboyfreind, we all know about him...)and well he still has some of my stuff, my Gungrave game, WhiteZombie CD and my pictures. I want it back, but I'm too afraid to call. The only way I could get over to his house to get it, is if Chris took me. Also...I still love Westley..insanely. In a way I want him to have part of me with him besides the big chunk of my heart he tore out. What should I do? I'm also begining to lose intrest in Chris...little by little I turn colder and colder toward him.

But my mother's health just gets worse and worse. Now she forgets more and more and falls asleep a lot.
I didn't talk to Tyrell, because if he was over at a freind's house. Instead i talked to BlackNova for like two hours! It was so much fun though. We talked a lot about Auqa Teen and the imaginary zero. Agggggh!! The Imaginary Zero's gonna get me!!!!!
I'm sad because Phil is gone and just hope he will be ok...but he'll be back in 10 weeks.
How is everyone?
Another thing...if I started a club, like ethier Big Breasted Women Unite! Or Jack Black Is Too Sexxy For You? Or some sort of music club, would anyone join...or maybe Real Fucking Anime Fans...
SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten
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Wednesday, February 1, 2006

"Fuck Her Hard" Tenacious D- I heart Jack Black!!!!!
Well, things are getting better. Not with my mom, it just seems thats getting worse. I realy don’t want to see her go to a hospital, but it will probably come to that. My dad all ready forewarned me. But believe me. I’ll be at that motherfucking hospital every second I can be.

As for the cutting...I know it’s disgusting. I’ve tried everything, except for burning (no way I’m too afraid of fire). I punch walls, I play tekken and any other fighting game I have, I draw, write, sing, shred paper, throw knives, and ocassionly kick a rock around outside (yes ridicuolous but it helps sometimes). Nothing works for me. But I’ll be fine. It’s nothing serious or noticable. As the stress lets down, I’ll be better.

Blacknova, I’m sorry I probably sounded pissed half of the conversation we had...I was really mad at my mom, because she kept falling asleep everywhere and kept rambling about stuff. But I did enjoy the call. If you want me to call, I can anytime...I’m just about always doing nothing, so....and I’m glad you consider me a good freind. That makes me happy to know i have at least two good freinds..maybe a few others.

Ahh tomorrow I can talk to Tyrell! Yayness! ^^

So what does everyone want for valentines day? I might try and send out cards this year...And whats everyone doing?

Sandra and I are on talking terms again. She seems out of it a lot. Jimmi is causing her problems again.

Well, loves all of you!

SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten



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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

"Cry of the Brave" Dragonforce

Agh feeling the pains of my period and of a meaningless life....or so life seems right now.

My moms off her fucking rocker. She’s haveing a bad time mentally and physically, because of her meds and just being her. My dads bipolar as usual, saying that I’m never going to make it in the real world. I started talking about the Phantom of the Opera last night, and how I wished the Phantom would do in Raul, and he sighed and said”I hope you figure out right and wrong someday.”

All I do is sleep, do homework, eat evry now and then, and then play games. And cry, because I’m a big wuss.

I’ve also started up the habit of cutting again, God knows why. I know I shouldn’t and it’s not for attention it just feels like something I have to do, maybe like a cartharsis for all my sins. It also takes me away to that place in my dreams, that my knight in rusting armor will come save me, but hey all I have is Chris and he doesn’t even have a horse. He can’t comfort me, and it just seems pointless sometimes. But then others, I love him...more than anything.

Teehee, if my asshole dad finally lets me use the phone maybe I can get around to calling blackNova... I don’t think your crazy. You and I are a lot alike. I don’t really have aspirations anymore. If I’m lucky enough maybe they’ll let me work in porn or I can become a prostitute.
Yep, there like melons...melons that are full of pain.

Anyways....I’m getting off on a rant so I’ll go now.....

SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten
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Monday, January 30, 2006

   hmmmmmmmmmmm
I had the most intresting 40 something minutes.

Well someone thinks I'm suicidal. It has to be one of my teachers and I think it's my science teacher because she always sees me alone and sees all those guys picking on me. But now I get to see the assitant student consuler every week. joyjoy. Well, it's not bad or anything, it helps get shit off my chest, but it's just a little awkward, because i can cuss and shit when I'm in there.

Things have been a little shaky lately, but otherwise all is good. I'm writting Tyrell a letter, so that keeps me occupied, and I also have the first two volumes of Gundam Seed to read. I'm also trying to beat Pokemon Stadium (I know stop laughing) I have vowed to myself that when tyrell and I meet in person that I shall defeat him in it!! ^^

I had a pretty rad weekend! I went to the mall and got some fishnet thigh highs, some pink and black pants that have a fairy on it (I only got them because they were the cheapest pair of pants I could find), a bra that fits me (I'm a D 38 so take that all you evil flat chested bitches that make fun of me!!!!!) and a Kurt Cobain shirt. I still need other items of clothing, but those will have to wait.

Chris, Luke (my little bro Gir00), and I went to the asian market near west town mall. It was awesome!!! I love Ramune soda!!! Espically the melon flavored! And it's so cool! It has a marble inside the bottle that makes it carbonated! I also got some strawberry Hello Kitty pocky. Luke got some really fancy strawberry pocky and Chris and him each bought a case of Ramune soda. If you've ever heard of the anime Precure, I got some little corn puff snacks from that, that came with a card! w00t card!
Phil is going away soon and I will be sad when he does....
Luv you guys
SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten
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Thursday, January 26, 2006

   Quiet tired and aggitated...
Why is it that noone will leave me alone? All the guys in this school now seem to be mocking me and won't stop tortureing me about drawing "hentai". They keep like surrounding me after school and shit. Then in Biology they gave me the broken cup, and said that I was the sick one (we had to do this thing where were in a group of about 5 and I seemed to have ended up with all the guys that hate me. One person had to get the broken cup in the group (the cups were supposed to represent stomaches)and everyone singled me out to do it. Then they said that I was the little boy out of the family ><). It just makes me sad that I can't be acknowledged as a girl just because I'm diffrent. I want to cry so bad right now because I hate it here. I want some strong man to hold me...and hug me, but there is noone here for me, because Chris isn't here. And even if he were, he wouldn't take up for me...he's just a wuss that needs me for his emotional support. Even if I do love him...he's a wuss. Theres no denial in that fact. But I have to stand strong, because I'n fucking She-man, metalgirl. I can't cry, because if I did the worl would fucking break... I'm tired of being leaned on, I just want to lean on someone...any fucking one.
Sory I'm mad, but I will be better, because if my dad gets the phone fixed then I can call Tyrell and Darby...
And tonight I can watch the Office and My Name Is Earl...
SOLID SNAKE IS MINE
Kitten
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Much love to all that still comment
I just noticed that a lot of my older freinds from this site never come and see e anymore...so I just wanted to say thanks to all who have stuck it through with me!!! Espically one of my oldest and dearest freinds: PHIL!!!!! Also I luv Blacknove too and chichrocks and all the rest of you guys and espically Amber!!!
Well not a lot is going on...except the irony of my ultra sister being ultra broke to where she has to borrow MY hairbrush!! BwhHHAHAHAH VENGEANCE!!!
And I never call you, because I don't know what time it is over there and if theres like a time you don't want me to call, but I will call you tonight....I have a very odd and from the words of Tyrell and Brad "school girl" voice. So, be prepared Nova-kun..be prepared.......
I beat Fatal frame for the third time and got the last ending...but there was suppose to be another ending so I now must look that up on game..
SOLID SNAKE
Kitten
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