Wednesday, March 9, 2005

   Feeling a bit better....
I feel a bit better and it's this new medicine totally whacking my head out. My highs change to lows and lows to highs all because of....birth control. I didn't even know it could do that until i saw the side of the box. Stupid pills. Well I've been liveing what about all of you? I've listened to an awesome new band called the Rasmus and they are the shit. Wesely wore his Children of bodom shirt today and I jumped up and down with glee because of it. It's a cool cool shirt. I'm wearing my Hellsing shirt today and yesterday as well!! A guy shook my hand because of it and it was funny. Well thats all for now I'll update more later because I gotta go take a piss in a few....maybe...0_o I'm sleepy... hugs to all and thanks for bearing witrh me!!!!
xXx Kitten xXx
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Monday, March 7, 2005

nothing here anymore...
I want my knife. But I don't want it. I don't care about Chris anymore. I do't care about anyone at all. Why the fuck should if they all just leave me in the end? He's never comeing back to me. He won't come home. I'll never see his face peering into my window and now it's all comeing down on me. I'm tired of love. I won't ever find happiness. I'm happy for those of you who have found it. I'm going away from here. I'm going away from everything. I'll levae my site up and maybe in a couple of years I'll come back again. My heart just isn't here anymore. It dissapeared and I can't find it. It might just be my hormones flareing, but all this pain feel so real and yet I can't feel anymore. I have no one. She abandoned me, he abandoned me, and he abandoned me. I want to move to Baltimore or Colorado or NYC....Anywhere but here. I'm sorry I'm just writting what comes to mind. I might feel better by this evening, but I seriously doubt it. I've said that for the past years of my life and then I started to feel better. Then now again I've said it for the past 2 years. it'll all get better. verything will work out for the best. yeah fucking right. nothing ever gets better it's just someone punishing us for being what we are. human.
xXx Kitten has no tail xXx
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Sunday, March 6, 2005

   I hear the footsteps walking by. Watching myself slowly die. Feel the sharp pieces impaleing through my heart. it's all tearing me apart. Watching your angel fall from grace...~Angels don't kill. Children of Bodom.
Life isn't going to well. I'm getting sick again. My head started to spin and all...I got hott and I almost bonked my head hard. Meh. Sorry I can't get to too many sites, depression and cleaning ym room has got me down. Chris spent the night this week and we had it multiple times. Now I'm really sore and a lot of body parts hurt badly. I ate too much this weekend and now I won't be eating for about a week or so. I gotta lose the weight I gained. But I know they'll force me to eat again. I got System of a Down's "Toxicty" this weekend and I was glad to have it back again. Bones had it and I got used to hearing it often. I'm not feeling so well...so this probably won't be much longer. I feel worthless now a days. Nothing feels worth it anymore. All my freinds seem to be abandoning me for their boyfreinds and other things. I miss haveing a goth boyfreind...I just can't get along seemingly with non-gothic guys. Our relationships never work. But anyways I want the knife, I reach for it and put it back so yeah. I gotta go clean and check a couple of things. I think I have homework or something, but eh screw it. I don't care anylonger. Why should I? I'm out. sorry for being this way today...
xXx Kitten xXx
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Friday, March 4, 2005

   come archangel come.....
Hihi, whats going on with everyone? Well welcome Cody to the site! His name is ehurr. Please try to check out his site....Anyways it's friday w00t! No school tomorrow!!! And I get an mp3 player so all the better.ack my blue fishnet shrunk in the washer....-_-'''''I washed it the wrong way. And my Tripp pants must have shrunk as well, because they were a ton bigger than what they are now....Have any of you heard of "Children Of Bodom (Bottom)"? They're a Finnish death metal band. My freind Wesely let me borrow the cd. He's really cool. Ge looks like a normal erson, but when you get to know him he loves Archangel and all the other cool bands....you know what my favorite death metal band used to be? (And I can't believe I didn't put em on the list -_-''') Canibal Corpse and Cradle of Filth. Those are 2 fucking hardcore bands. I love both of em (but CC a lil more the COF) anyone else here like them? I hope today will be a better than usual. And Tyrell sowwy for the big long comment on your site... Anyways, sorry for not getting to many sites last night...My mother was on the computer and we went out to eat and to the store...And it took awhile. And Chara tell me what you know!!! Isn't it annoying when people know stuff and you don't? >< Drives me nuts. Espically with Chara, but I always get it outta her one way or the other. And please keep Amber in your thoughts. Her dad is a bitch and her mother is all in trouble and she's staying with a freind until the end of the school year, so yeah. She needs not to live with her father but she might have to. so, um yeah. moop. I love all of you! yay!! (some of you in the most erotic way imganiable) ~^ My freind just always says in the most non-erotic way inaginable. But I gotta run all.l Tyrell pm me about how it's going. baibai hughug!!
xXx Kitten xXx
ps. NNOOOOOOO! Martha steweart is on the prowl again! :____:
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Thursday, March 3, 2005

   Happy Birthday to Gir 00 my lil bro.
Hey, hey. Not much going on here....tired. I stayed up till 12 with Brandy and now I'm just so tired....she was doing tax returns and I was waiting for her to get off the phone, so I could use it...><'''''But today is my little rbother Gir00's birthdasy...not that ever had the time to update or anything but well meh. He's 14. But well anyways...I was SUPPOSED to go up there last night so I could spend the night with him. Than my parents said they had no gas to get me to school >< Than afterwards my mom told me that after she mentioned something about his cake he said all he wanted was me there ><. Chris and I argued off and on last night and irt was a lot of crying on his part....it pissed me off because he was crying and i couldn't understand what heb said...just pisses me off when people do that. I talked to Bradley last night!! yay! It was good to hear from him. But unfourtunately no Tyrell. My mom got home too late. Now my mother als has back problems from where she slipped and fell on asome ice at work. Once more another time they should have callled school off was yesterday, because stuff was iced over....I hate the school system here. Also another thing I hate is art theives....I was on necro's site last night and he had a pic that someone had posted....it was obviously stolen. I had even seen the pic on a german site callled in eneternal love. Pisses me off. Well, I'll leave with that thought..I'm feeling quite pessmistic today and I think I need a hug...
xXx Kitten xXx
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Wednesday, March 2, 2005

   Close my eyes and move to the back, where worries are washed out to sea, see the changes where peoples faces are burned out...~The Used
Hihi...I'm tired...*yawns anmd cuddles up beside someone* I just got up....14 minutes ago....so yeah....I'm also cold because someone turned the heat off. I also forgot to do my homework last night...stupid me. I'd forget to eat if someone didn't remind me. Well, I'm listening to the Used right now...they' re alright. My freind is a really BIG fan of theirs. So she let me borrow the cd. Yesterday wasn't so good. I'm still kinda depressed. Stupid people on the bus keep makeing fun of me. Just because I'm goth and all I do is listen to my music and talk to my only freind on the bus. And he's a middle schooler. And he wasn't there for some reason...so all they did was pick on me. God I hate them. But I wish them no harm unless they really want it. Thats just the kind of person I am. I'm nice ^^'. I'm also missing Kei. I'm too afraid to call her, because se might be studying...I wish I could have talked to Tyrell last night, but he was asleep, so oh well. He needs that sleep too. He gets up at like 6 everyday and can't get back to sleep. I'm so tired....I just wish I could curl up into a ball and it would all go far away, but meh I know it isn't going to happen. Stupid reality. I kept wakeing up last night while i was sleeping. I kept haveing nightmares again. I just want one good sleep and I'll be happy. But in good news my little brothers 14 birthday is Thursday. I'm so happy for him, but i don't want him to grow up. He should still be in 6 grade and me in Freshman year.....But anyways no more sappy news....I miss you...well you know how you are. Can't eat today ethier...by the way Shintoga(Tyrell) changed his layout and it looks really cool. You guys should go see it. hughug. Glad you people like the effing girls! ^__^
xXx Kitten xXx
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Tuesday, March 1, 2005

   Night, so I pray give me some guidance this is gay, give me some so pacientce so I pray, it's time to die, throw it away...
That above is one of my favorite lines from a Korn song. I'm pissed. Stupid Truancy officer says that I have crap from the doctors to show why I missed so many days then I might be able to prove it to the judge...the problem ...I have to have it in by Friday at the latest. And they just now told me about this yesterday >< But anyways I talked to Tyrell last night and it was a very intresting conversation as always. We always talk about the coolest stuff. It snowing down here and laying pretty good so maybe a chance to get out of school later? ;__; Please? Guess what? Today my mom (Brandy) is going to get her heart looked at...wish her luck and that she doesn't have to stay in the hospital...I'll be worried until I get home today. Well, I want someone to cuddle with right now...bell rang bai. hughug
xXx Kitten xXx
ps. I wasn't saying about you Lindsay I was saying the whole gay bash about some chick that commented named Silent Love...

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Monday, February 28, 2005

   sleepy Lynnsey
hai hai. Sorry I didn't post yesterday...busy busy as a bee. I went to church twice. I didn't really want to go but hey I was doing Chris a favor and brandy wanted me to go to see some hott church guy and keep an eye out for shaun. i got aco bell for dinner and Montereys (another crappy mexican restraunt) for breakfast. Didn't really eat any of it though. i ate waffles when i got home from goig there with Chris and his parents... I also started my birth control last night. It's not really because I have sex or anything it's to regulate my periods and get my hormones and help my depression and all those excuses. high light of my day was seeing Chris and taking to Tyrell. Eric and him played Tekken 5 for 5 hours out in the snow. He's so crazy.... well gotta go...but I'm kinda happy. Just because... Maybe I'll talk to Tyrell tonight...Oh yeah Jenny satrted going into these chatrooms. Well she got 2 boyfreinds and one had long distance phone callin. And he called her mamwas while we are at church. he said he was 13 and lived in Cali right? Well his area code came up Arkansas and he wasn't 13. Now I have to call him and act like I'm jenny!! >< Wish me luck and I don't end up getting molested. Anyways one last thing to say...Tyrell stop makeing fun of my accent!! >< And have a good day at worlk Chris. hughug...
xXx Kitten xXx
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Saturday, February 26, 2005

   Kitten is sowwy she didn't post ealier....
hey guys wowie I got some GB signings today!! yayness! My little cousin is here beside me so um yeah say hihi to her....I had to change the Bg so I so sowwy...I changed it for Tyrell and all the other people who post and comment at the library...;_; yes V2 it is the sweet nectar though..I like Sango too *drooools* I really like hmmmm well Kasumi from DOA...sexxyness. and Rei too. Tekken 5 is out and Eric owns it!!! >< *steals it from him* now when Tyrell comes down to see me one day we can play together!! MWHAHAHA!! he really needs a new ps2...all he has is a Gamecube...woe be him...yeah whitepony was an allright cd...but so many times have i heard it >< I feel so randomly happy right now!!! periods are hard to get through, but well I'm uber happy....for some reason, but I can't tell why. I hope all of your days were grand...

My day...first was so shitty...I got yelled at and I cried a lot...I felt really depressed last night...I tried to call Michelle and Tyrell and Tyrell was asleep and michelle was online...I hope she had a good time at matsuri today...well I'm in chat rooms right now...boreing chat rooms...and the only guy worth talking to is animeman and he keps getting kicked off..;___; but bai and hugs!!
xXx chatrooms suck xXx
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Friday, February 25, 2005

   meh...
How are things going? Things are all right here...there going to get bettter tonight hopefully. Well I have something very important to say...Grandma Gibson Gives Good gumballs. Gumballs=blowjob. We came up with that in CW today because we wroked with Alitteration. waaaay fun. We have some wacky sentences...Well I feel sorry for Kuni's piggy waterbottle....so sad. She needs a ninja waterbottle. It'll be pretty and black. I love Nirvana. They re my favorite band have idolized Krdt since the weee ages. I HEART Rev. James Maynord and A Perfect Circle though. I could never get into the Deftones...I also like Rage Aganist the Machine a lot...I have listened to them in a while. Guess I'll drag out the download file and listen to "The Ghost of Tom Jones, live" tonight...Oh my god I got sooo pissed this morning. These tow chicks came up and well...this is the conversation. "Hi whats your name yo?"
" Kitten. "
" Oh you didn't have to get all smart with me and use a brush."
" Please speak enlish mamam. I don't understand ghetto. "

It was a laaaaame conversation. Stupidity in the masses...i'm not dieing ethier. Actually I am. We all die slowly inside and then when our negative energy and positive energy decreases we go boom. And we die. All the charges in our body run out and our heart simply stops after 2 seconds of pumping on it's last charge. Then your hands go all cold and then it speards to your body. Then your fluids seep out and your dead after your brain offically stops. The end. So yeah I'm dieing with each breath I take but I'm alright with it and i embrace it. There are a lot of peoploe I need to see badly and disscuss things with that you just can't do sometimes in dreams...meh I'll shut up now. School's been alright though. It's really funny because I keep telling everyone Grandam Gibson Gives Good Gumballs. It's grand. I'm glad you guys like the layout! Espically pleased by what Hinaru said. And I'm glad to see Kuni and I think simallar thoughts. I feel you. Someday we yuri fans will rise and conquer. MWHAHAHAHAHA!!! hughug lovelove.
xXx Kitten xXx
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