Thursday, February 24, 2005

   paiiiiiiin.....paiiiiin...Kurdt sang it best.
oh the pain of m idiotic period cramps. Lynnsey is not going to school today >< It hurts and my throat hurts and my nose is stuffy and everything is hurting >< Well, at least I'm not pregnant ^^''' So, how is everythin with everyone....as you can see me ...I'm alive and hurting but allive none the less. Chris apologized for being so controlotive and raiseing his voice. He doesn't even notice it and his parents even said that he does that often to them. It makes them um...angry. They are very angry people... Well, all I can say right now is i can't wait to start birth control, so that it'll lessen the pain....thats all for now updates laters...huggles..I wanna cuddle.. ><
xXx ouch my neck just poped xXx
UPDATE...Nirvana wis not over-rated. It's my favorite band...They were great and they have great philosophy...I dunno though...it's whatever you people wanna belive...I mean I don't like the Insane Clown Posse because I belive they are angry rapper people and shouldn't be catagorized with rock, but it's whatever the masses belive...ohhh piggy water bottle...I wish I had a piggy waterbottle....Thanks for the advice and someday I will kill Grieg...
YET AGAIN ANOTHER EDIT
I have changed layouts again and well the BG is about of a shock to some...if you really are against it then I will change. Just don't sick Adam on me or anything...This is a shoujo-ai/yuri layout and if you like it please show support!! I am so tired of all the yaoi themed sites and no shoujo-ai/yuri themed sites. I wanna show my support toward the fellow fans of this and show how much I love yuri!! ...and boobies. well in a while it I will change it around again and it might change to yaoi once...because I don't hate it. i actually like yaoi a lot..my favorite pairing is one I made up myself Alucard/Vicious...but anyways if you like this genre tell me what your favorite couple is...mine has to be...probably Rei/Kasumi or Aeris/Tifa..or Integra/Seras is also cool, but not very common...probably also Jupiter/Mecury and always Uranus/Neptune.....from Salior Moon...there are others as well...
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

   Get down with the sickness...
I feel horrible right now. I can barely talk, but I still have to go to school. my shirt is out of dress code and I can't take Chris's stupid hoodie off. It's to thick and heavy. i should have kept Josh's and not let him have it. It's lighter and it's prettier. It's blue and has a cool dragon on it. I really like the shirt I'm wearing today too. It's black and blue and one side is sleevless. Teres person wearing aluminum foil on his head. God the stupidity of the masses. I also can't beat Weigraf on FFT and it's driveing me nuts >< Chris kept trying to get me up this morning and it was just really annoying to hear him speak at all, because it felt like I should talk back and I couldn't. And then I kept hearing "Time to get up Lynnsey, get up you have to go to school." And he was talking as if he owned me this morning, as if I was just this little animal he kept in a cage for his pet. I'm fine to play that role in sex, but in reality FUK YOU!! >< God, I just feel so mad right now and I wanna just die. I hate life. I just go home and i wanna talk to Tyrell and to some other people and curl up besides someone who loves me and fall asleep in their arms. Well I gotta go because the bell rang, but i'll try to get to more of your sites today. Sorry Hinau and Darke and Kei I really wanted to go to your sites but the compy kept kickng me off and on, because my mom kept needing to use the fucking phone...
xXx shini xXx
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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

   seeeeply....
Heyhey, whats going on? I'm sorry it's been such a while since i've poste but I've beeen gone away to my parents and I haven't gotten to call ny of you ethier...r mail. My parents are talking about getting a dvorce and my mom thinks my dad has a girlfreind. But I think thats just the new depression medication they have her on. I'm really scared that my dad will hrt y mom again because he thinks she's going psycho. I missed all of you guys while I was gone so BIG hughug. I have printed out pics of all of you that I have pics of and paced them in my bineder thingy. I wanna pic of KEI!! ^___^ Guess what I gots? Hellsing the complete collection, a Hellsing shirt and Chris and I got Hide's Best Psychocommunity. It's very nifty and all in japanese made a while after he died. Welll anyways...I miss you Tyrell and I love all of you. baibai.
xXx Lynnsey-chan xXx
ps. heheheI am sooooo gay! ^^ Not really I'm bisexual...
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Friday, February 18, 2005

   The Many Methods of Self Mutilation
hihi. Not such a great sleep I have had in the last while. A reoccouring dream that won't stop happening...Then a dream that I actually kinda enjoyed about pokemon and being the jhoto leagues with m,y big-ass level 100 Mewtwo that would demolish all of your pokemon, until the ground started to rumble and I fell down into and landed in a bunch f dead bodies...they all reached out and asked for me to help them so i I guess they weren't so dead after all....so um yeah.. not feeling so grand and happy. I found out that one of my boyfreind's freinds (and I thought he was really nice and cool before) tells him that he should break up with me. I'm doing everything to keep him happy and i know he doesn't to nthe guy, but why does it feel as if he's talking behind my back? Stupid James...and I thought he was really cool too...well happy late b-day to Kaoru and Kyo since I forgot to mention it...glad you guys liked the story I wrote...theres more to come I just gotta write, but i have to finish up schoool projects which is hard..>< I talked to Brad last night and found out that Katie went to Arizona, so i hope she's safe and all...because if she isn't >< Man I'm just feeling down, but I know I shouldn't because I have the day off from school and all. well hughug...and I still can't find away to make the mp3 thing compat with the mp3s on my computer....sigh... And I miss Tyrell and once again I didn't get to call him....
xXx I am Nothing xXx

Your inner soul is calling for help! You always
seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an
outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior,
but in all reality you are hurt inside and
bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you
wonder why are you still here when there is
nothing left? You use to once be a happy,
loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and
seems like it never can be fixed again.
However, you have yet seemed to realize that
there are people out there that deeply care for
you. They secretly have a thing for you because
they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full
of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest
person in the world! You like to enjoy your
time by yourself expressing your feelings
through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet
scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.
Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where
you can hide out, hidden from those who gave
you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have
some fun! Never start frowning because you
never know who's falling in love with your
smile :)


What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)


What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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I know someone is always there with me. His wings are always there wrapped behind me. ^^


The one passion that deeply burns in your soul is
longing for love... You're often depressed and
you've been hurt so many times that you tears
seem meaningless, if you even have any left to
cry! You want to be able to reach out and tell
someone everything, making your troubles go
away... But... You jsut can't bring yourself to
do so... Everyday you wish that all of the pain
will just go away... Just disappear... However,
it just seems to get worse and you try to
bottle everything up inside as best as you can!
However, your plan sometimes fails, making you
lash out or break down emotionally. You just
wish to be like everyone else... You want to be
able to tell someone all of your problems...
But you're afraid of admitting your weakness...
You're that outside, loner, mistunderstood
person that has been pushed out of everyones'
life. You desperately try to break through the
barrier, but you guts tell you no... You'll
just be hurt again and again... So why bother?
Your sanctuary is your room, where you can hide
out and be out of 'their' visions. You like to
express your thoughts and feelings through
various forms of art, and try ridding of your
pain in 'different ways.' You're so busy caught
up in your own little, lost world, that you
have yet to realize that a light burns inside
of the darkness of the pack. You might not know
it, but out there... Someone is watching your
every move... Enjoying your presence...
Enjoying you for who YOU are! Wipe away those
tears and open up those beautiful eyes, see the
light! See what you're missing and grasp ahold,
break out of that crust, and mold... Smile your
way through life because the most beautiful
things cannot be concealed forever :)


What Passion Burns In Your Soul?
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why do I keep getting depressing awnswers?? >.>


Independence

Your angel seeks for freedom.
Your angel is part of you. Thus, you are the
kind of person who values your indepence than
most things in this world. Don't get angry if
I'm wrong, but you may be a pained person.
Problems in your life have caused you to be
depressed, or, shall we say, greatly saddened.
You may have lost hope many times, but you
still manage to keep your independence. You
don't listen to anyone but yourself. People may
look at you in a "different" way, but
inside, you want all the pain to stop, but you
have a hard time expressing it. I wish you
well!

Please Rate and Message!


What's Your Angel Seeking For? .:BEAUTIFUL Anime Pics AND Music!:.
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eh independece? Maybe....


you're a gaurdian angel. you fight and protect the
people you love and vaule.


what kind of angel are you?
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hmmm what do you guys think? Any of em fit me?

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Thursday, February 17, 2005

sowwy I accidently just posted the story and not the actual post...here it is!
The song title in the heading is from Legend of the Dragoon...not really a good game, but I saw the mp3 and was PREEEETY! It's also the intro song to the game. So how do you peoplelike the new layout and yesI know the pic of Kotori and Kamui is covering my avi. I need someway to get Ex Dream up here. I only have it on the computer and i've been trying to find away to link it up here for you all to hear it. So, how are things with you guys? Things here are alright...I didn't get to call Tyrell last night..;_; 'm so tired lately. My throat hurts and I wanna cuddle!! But noooo...none here. I can't believe the bus came early today!! >< I was out there at the right time and everything! It must have came at like...7:29 or something like that? >< I need to go to school and if I don't get ahold of anyone my ass is walking...even though I don't wanna, because I'm ultra tired...my eyes have huge bags under them and as we speak I'm drooling. You think I'm kidding, but I'm not. I could lay down in this floor right now and fall dead asleep. I re-read Vicious comment and look at what he explained and it all made sense to me. I wish I could go back to sleep, but i need to wait for someone to come get me...like my dad...I just hope my mom has the phone today...pleaseplease..See if I were at my old school this wouldn't be a problem, because I always rode the bus with Chara!!! And if one was late the other was late as well. So, if we were late Chara's mom always came and got us or Chara's dad...peep. My tummy hurts...I think I'm hungry. I need a new avi too, because no matter how much I love Duo he just isn't my representation of myself....huggles to all and kisses and cuddles to those who want them....to make this longer I'm posting what little of my hentai story I have done, so enjoy!! ^^ Tell me if you like it or not...
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   If You still Believe....
" Are you sure this is the right way? " Yumie said looking over at the road signs passing by her.

Yaeger just kept turning the steering wheel.

" Yeah, I'm absolutely sure. You do trust me right? Because if you don't we can turn back right now, " Yaeger spoke with an inside smile.

Yumie jumped in her seat. She loved her boyfriend a lot. She didn't want to lose him. It would be the end of her life if she did.

" Of course I do!!! " she shouted nervously.

" Then sit back and enjoy the ride, " he spoke with a loveing tone.


They had been driveing for about 2 hours and hadn't gotten to the destination. Yaeger had decided that now was the time to take Yumie out on a little road trip. They were going to a fancy resort hotel or so she thought.


Suddenly Yaeger hit the brakes makeing the car stall. There was a road block up ahead. He knew he was going the right way now. Across from the road block sat an old house. Yaeger smiled. His friends had told him all about the place. Old and abandoned and out in the middle of nowhere. It would be perfect.


" Honey I think we are lost. I thought we were going the right, but seems we've been going opposite the whole entire time, " he said holding up the map, " and it's getting a bit late. I think I see a house upahead. We should stop and see if we can rest there. "


His girlfriend looked up a bit dissapointed, " Oh. All right. I suppose thats a good idea. "


He turned the car into the old gravel driveway. Upahead was an old house, that looked more like a really old Victorian mansion. A car sat in the driveway, but it looked old and rusted, like no one had taken it out for a drive in years. The yard and front garden were littered with trash of all sorts. Cans, newspapers, bottles, and even a box of condoms, sat scattered across where Yaeger could see them. He parked the car behind the other one. He looked at where the tags should have been but there were none. He could barely make out the company name from the back, but it looked as if it said "Bently"

Damn, whoever lived here must have been rich!!! Maybe I'll find somerthing valueable if I go exploreing in the house?, he thought slyly.

He grabbed Yumie's arm and said, " Come on lets get out before the storm gets anyworse. "

She noded and followed him out. The rain pounded there young bodies and even worse than the rain was the hail hitting them both.
They reached the door in a short amount of time. Yumie knocked and as she did the door fell open at her touch. They both walked inside, takeing a look inside. The bottom floor contained a living room which was covered in dust and old porn magazines and other things of sexual orient, and not to mention above all dust. A kitchen was off to the side beside a staircase, in which led up to the upsatirs portion of the house. Yumie walked into the kitchen and tried to flip on the power switch. Nothing came through though, as she pounded on it, trying her hardest to make it come on. Suddenly she felt a hand on her shoulders and she jumped.

" Hey, I'm going to go around back to flip the main breaker, all right? Stay right here and don't move, " the person behind her said.

" All right. Hurry back, " she said relieved to hear the sound of her boyfriend's voice.

Yumie slumped down into the dirty floor as, she heard the door close. She couldn't believe she was out in a desreted house at almost 12 at night. Sighing, she curled up into a ball. She missed her house. She thought she was going on a vaction. She thought it was going to be fun, but this is the exact opposite of what she had wanted.

Meanwhile, outside Yaeger ran around back in the pouring rain and around to the breaker. He flipped the switch and beside of it was a little package. He smiled. He bent down and opened it up and found some rope, a ball gag, and a scrap of paper. On it was a little note and he began to read it as his smile grew even wider.

" Dear Yaeger,

Have fun and in case she tries to resist, use the items inside the box!! You lucky bastard you! And don't forget the fucking details man!!

In all our love and respect
your friends, hahahahahahaha "

He put the rope inside his hoodie pocket and the ball gag inside his pants pocket. Smileing he opened the door to discover that Yumie was lieing on the floor.

" Hey what's wrong?? " he cried and ran over there.

She looked up as he neared her. Yumies face was tear stained and she was still sobbing a bit. Yaeger put his hand on her shoulder.

" Hey what's wrong? " he spoke trying his best to pretend as if he actually cared.

Yumie smiled a little bit, " Nothing. I-I-I just don't like this place. It feels not so right. "

" It'll be all right. No boogie man is going to get you while I am here remember? I'm really strong and I will protect you, because I um...love you, " he said hopeing he didn't sound false.

Yumie's eyes brightened. She jumped up and gave him a big hug. That was the first time her boyfriend had ever said that to her!!! And it sounded so sincere and true!!!

" Thank you. I know you love me. Why don't we explore around the house? Maybe there is someone here since there was a car parked in the driveway. Maybe they just didn't hear us, " she grabbed his arm and looked up at him happily.

Finally, you are fucking starting to trust me. This is going to be so easy it won't even take me a minute to convince you!!! Yaeger thought as he smiled on the inside.

They began to walk up a long spiral stair case. By the time they were done going up it they were both exaushted.

" Hey, why don't we check out that room over there? " Yumie said excitedly.

Yumie drug Yaeger over to a room right across from them and began to turn the door handle. She pushed the door open to reveal an elegant room. The odd thing about it though was the dolls covering the room and the candles sat in the middle of the floor, glowing dimly. Yaeger walked over to the candle and picked it up to get a better look at the room. A dresser held more dolls and a couple of music boxes. A closet over to the right of the said dresser contained a ton of dresses for girls of all ages. Something sat among the middle of the pile of dolls which covered the floor. Yaeger shone the candle near it and screamed.

" Whats wrong? " Yumie said comeing in for a closer look gasping in suprise and fear.

An old dried up corpse lay among the dolls, as if it was one of them. It was wearing an old dress, likely one that had once been in the closet and beside it was an old rusted, or maybe even blood stained knife. Yaeger almost droped the candle as he backed up out of the door. He sat it on the dresser and grabbed Yumie as he slammed the door shut.

" W-what the bloodly hell was that? " he said softly.

" That scared the poop out of me, " Yumie said, " Makes me kinda not wanna see what is in the other rooms. "

But alas they kept walking on. They finally reached the end of the long hallway not sure which room to check out, until they saw something that was a definet point of intrest. A ligt came from under the door of one room near the end of the hallway. They headed near it.

I thought they said this place was abandoned...shit this ruins everything, Yaeger thought.

They walked toward the room, as Yumie knocked on it.

" Helllo. Is anyone in there? We were just lost and needed a place to stay. Hope you don't mind us... " her sentenced trailed off as the door slowly creaked open.

" OH MY GOD!!! " Yumie cried out.

" Well fuck..." Yaeger said impressed.

The room was beyond nice, it was more like expensive. It was well furnished with a lamp already lit, burning low. A chandiler was also lit above thier heads, and the bed looked made and comfortable. The carpet must have been expensive as well as the sheets of the bed, because all of them looked very well elegant and new.

" Someone must live here or why would this room be all lit, like this? " Yumie said.

" Yeah, but I'm beat. Why don't use this bed? I don't think they would mind... " Yaeger spoke slyly.

" I suppose. I hope they just don't get angry when they see us here, " Yumie said nervously.

Yager shut the door behind him. He walked up to his girlfriend and said, " You must be cold from those wet clothes. Why don't you take them off and hop into bed?"

She blushed more than one could ever think possible.

" Take...my clothes off? "

" Yeah why not? "

" Because um...I'm embarassed and afraid...." Yumie said blushing even worse.

" Why it's just me. I really love you. And I'm sure that it would make me love you even more if you take the clothes off, " I wishpered into her ear blowing hot air into it with every word.

Yumie began to strip her clothes off. She unzipped her hot little school girl uniform from behind and discared it to the side. She was left in nothing more than her white plain cotton bra and panties. They looked a bit small on her, but that made it even more sexxy, as they showed off her curves and her nice D sized breasts.

Yaeger couldn't help, but get a hard just from getting a glance of her from the side. She was blushing like she was really really emabarssed.

Oh hun you have no reason to be embarassed, he thought to himself, with an ass like that I don't see how the guys keep themselves off you!

She began to walk toward the bed, and Yaeger couldn't stand it anymore. He jumped behind her and ripped her bra off and began easeing her panties down her legs. Yumie gasped in suprise and jumped back ripping her bra in the front.

" Yaeger!!! What the hell are you doing???!!! " she gasped as she jumped back.

" What does it look like? " he grinned, " You needed those clothes off or else I wouldn't have acess to those hott little tits of yours! "

" But you promised...."

" Who gives a jack shit what I promised!!! Are you gonna do me bitch? Or am I going to make you do me? "

" Yaeger...I thought you loved me...."

" I do love you!!! Love your body that is!!! hahahahaha! "

" Yaeger....I can't do..."

Yaeger grabbed the ball gag out of his pocket and put it in Yumies mouth tieing it around only tight enough not to suffocate her.

" No more words whore.."

He began to grab her breasts and massage them. They were soft and were bigger than his whole hand, so he decided to take just the nipple and massage it instead. He rubbed his nails up againist it as it grew bigger and then drew his mouth down upon it. He lashived it with his tounge as he made little circles around it and moved up and down it. He then bit it a little hearing a pained gasp from Yumie's gagged mouth. Sucking on it a little he then switched over to the other breast doing the same to it.

Yumie squirmed and writhed underneath his touch. It wasn't out of pleasure really, but more out of trying to get out of the touch he was giveing her. She began to sob a little as he attempts proved futile to her efforts. She could hear her boyfreind growl. He was growing tired of her squirming and whineing. He stood up and held her tightly aganist her. He grabbed the rope out of his hoodie and tied her arms circleing it down around her body. He threw her onto the bed and tied each of her feet to each of the bed posts. He then began to strip down to his boxers. Yumie screamed. She knew what was comeing next. She had watched too many Lifetime/Oxygyn movies not to know what was to happen next. Yaeger stripped off his boxers reavleing his hard erection and grinned at the sight he saw.

He jumped onto the bed with Yumie. He began to kiss and bite her neck as he moved down biteing her all the way, makeing her gasp in pain as he drew blood. He finally got right above her pussy and began to work his tounge slowly down into it's sheath. His tounge finally hit her clit and he began to flick his tounge up against it, causeing her to writhe in actual pleasure for once. He drew her clit into his mouth and began to suck on it, makeing her moan. His tounge moved over the tip of it and all over the swollen piece of flesh.

" hmmmm I wonder how wet my slut is. " he said wondering a loud. He opned up her folds with one hand and began to probe her open with the other. Wetness pored out of her. Yumie began to cry. She felt so dirty. She wasn't supposed to be enjoying any of this at all! he was rapeing her, raveshing her body, and stealing her innocence from her and there was nothing she could do about it.

" hmmmm I think you are enjoying this just like the little sack shitt you are. " he said coldly.

His eyes lit up and he began to place himself over her.

" Are you ready?...wait why the fuck am I asking you that? I don't give a fuck wether you are or not, " he said as he slammed all of his cock into her wet pussy.

Yumie screamed. The pain was unyeilding and it felt worse than anything she had ever done. A little bit of blood began to trickle down her legs and she gasped at the feeling of it. No man would ever want her dirty body. She was tainted. Soiled. There was no way to take back what he had stolen right then. He began to thrust as hard as he could in and out of her tight hole and she began to sob even more.

" Damn whore...you are fucking tight as hell. If you were any tighter I think my dick would be crushed!!!! " Yaeger said laughing in between pants and moans, " so, you want it harder huh? "

She shook her head no as he spoke again.

" harder it is then since my slut wants it sooooo badly!! " he said laughing more.

He began to thrust in and out as hard as he could and finally a few minutes after he finished off, cuming hard inside of her and she screamed because of the pain. Yaeger drew out and cut the ropes and took out the ball gag. He smiled smuggly looking down at his broken girfreind. Her face was astray clenched in pain and drowned in tears, her body messy and sweaty, and her eyes clenched closed. Yaeger grabbed her by the neck and lead her down to his cock which was still a little hard.

" Suck it slut. I want you taste yourself and me mixed together. Let you see how good we taste together, "

She opened her eyes and stared at his cock. It was gleaming with a mix of blood, cum and pussy cum. She felt as if she was about to pass out.

" If your'e not gonna do it then I'm gonna make you. "

He took her and shoved his cock into her mouth. Yumie could taste everything mixed together and it made her wanna throw up. Yaeger began to thrust harder inside of her mouth and groaned as he did so. He almost came again immediately but held it back so she could taste everything. He then pulled out and jizzed all over her face.


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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Our Little group has always been and always will until the end...
I ran into Tifanny and Sky a few minutes ago. I felt really uncomfortable around them and now I'm getting to the point of where I think people are talking behind my back...why can't everything go back to last semster it? It was good...Well things are still a bit shakey but with time things get better right? I feel sad right now...again. I need a hug and someone to cuddle with. I don't get what Vicious 2 means with his comment but i think i understand now. sigh...someone just get me out of this state...thanks for all the hugs usagixsenjo...sorry I haven't been getting to your sites...I have little time on the net because I talk to Chirs a lt.huggle bai
~Lynn-chan
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

   ....
Chris just sent me a sappy pm...I like Tyrell and Chris both. What should I do? I don't know anymore. Can't I have both? Why can't this end happily? I'm so hungry. My stomache is killing me. My head hurts. Just put on a happy face and it'll be ok right? My Chara freind posted new wallpaapers and the last one of the angel I think i might put as my desktop...I love the poem to it. I have been listening to Tsunami Bomb nonstop. I love the words o My Machetti. It reminds me of Chris. these are the words that I can remeber...
You first see me standing there, your hopefully eyes shatter in despiar at what used to be. No one is more confused than me. oh you look so happy sad. I don't want to hurt you anymore.
I drop my Machetti to the floor. lalala. I hope things will work out for the best , ne? People have been saying Tyrell and I would make a good couple. Chris says I sound all meh at the sound of him. I just wish he wouldn't be so sweet sometime...god I just wish I could fall into an oblivoion. A nice dark pit with no light..somewhere like Tyrells basement. I wanna go away. someone just take me away...
~Lynnsey +_+
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Monday, February 14, 2005

   Happy v-day...
not my favorite holiday...but at least Heather let me borrow her Tsunami Bomb cd. w00t! It has my machetti on it nd thats a rad song!! ^^ Well what has everyone got for valentines day?? I have yet to recieve anything, bu meh oh well whatever. I'm sending Tyrell something I'm makeing him in the mai and he's my valentine no matter what he says!!! >< *tackles him* meh Chris and I are going out...saturday or later on sunday....wheeeeeeeeee. I get to go see a movie and stuff. meh I see a fat bitch in the distance lalalalala....gods I hate Tiffany with her barbie goth Kelly Ousbourne only wishing she could love Nirvana as much as I do. She nasty and nothing more than a pile of rotting flesh.....meep. and sky just told me something...she thinks I'm in love with sky!!! >< Man I think she is the one in love with Sky...gods i'm confuzzlediated...and hungry...but well hugs to all bai!!!
~Lynnsey +_+
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Sunday, February 13, 2005

   my o is still not letting me into my backroom so I had to go through a lot of stuff to post...
why is my o down? But well anyways...how is it goin with everyone if I ever get a chance to post this.....I'm allright. I talked to Tyrell for like 2 hours last night. We talked till 12 something. We talked about....a lot. It was fun. In fact I haven't had that much fun talking to someone in quite a while....Chris was pissed about it though. He knows I like Tyrell and he doesn't like him at all. But anyways Chris cut himself all over his stomache and some on his chest area....It made me feel like shit. I just hate feeling like this. Feeling like I am held responisible for someone else hurting themselves....I am going to keep talking to him though. I really wanna go to the Otakon with Tyrell and his freinds. It would be a ton of fun!!! ^^ I espically can't wait for him to come down to Knoxville maybe....we can play DDR and all that stuff like hanging out. I am probably going to call him tonight. I just don't want him to feel as if I am stalking him or anything. ^//^ He said he had an x-girlfreind like that.... I don't want to be that way toward him. It's so hard you know? I really really like him, but I like Chris as well and if I leave him he'll do something bad....if you could only see his stomache. God it looks almost as bad as my back did after all the times I cut it and acidently cut spots over again...(because you can't see that well from your back while trying to cut and look in the mirror....) But I had some fun today. Watched part of the hentai that I have recieved. It was sad because the little 13 year old girl was involved in part of the orgy thing. She was raped and maybe it hurts hardest because I know how she feels. Kinda...I mean thats fiction....and what happened to me was reality. Though I wish it weren't. But rather me then someone else ne? I got a really awesome pic of Sam-sam. It's really really pretty. She looks adorable in it. I wonder if she would mind if I posted it?? 0_o She'd probably kill me....with a blunt knife to make it more painful. *imagines look on her face and winces* I really wanna draw that pic of her. It's just unexplainabley cool. I wanna call Tyrell I wanna call Tyrell I wanna call Tyrell...just have to wait for Jenny to get off the phone. >< He said his hormones were being mean to him last night...hehehehehe, because my voice is school girl sweet. I felt bad for him because he said that I was lucky because I had a boyfreind and that I had someone to be with on v-day.....I wish I could be with the both of them. I WANNA COSPLAY!!! I WILL BE .....I WILL BE...hmmm I dunno >< maybe Kotori from X. I kinda resmble her...and Hyatt from Excel Saga. I wish I could be an ultra pretty charcter like....Riona....or something....but well thats it for tonight...gotta let Jenny get on the net....baibai huggs!
~Lynnsey +_+
Updateness....I talked to Tyrell last night and it was soo much fun once again. We talked about everything. I really wish he lived nearer. I wanna play him in Tekken Tag Tournament. We have a lot in common and we always get into the most intresting conversations.
that was yestredays post...but well nothing really is going on. Dreading the school week. Dreading a lot of things while listening to APC. I love the song " A Stranger" It reminds me of Thanatos. huggles to all.


You're depressed. Really you are. And you
definitely have a reason. You often space out
and stare at things blankly, even if you're
normally hyper and energetic. This is because
nothing really seems important anymore. You
might just be sad right now, or you might be
manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa
and stuff'll be ok.


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does it fit me or not? I'd like to see what you guys get as well...sigh....I'm getting cold again..

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