Sunday, February 13, 2005

   my o is still not letting me into my backroom so I had to go through a lot of stuff to post...
why is my o down? But well anyways...how is it goin with everyone if I ever get a chance to post this.....I'm allright. I talked to Tyrell for like 2 hours last night. We talked till 12 something. We talked about....a lot. It was fun. In fact I haven't had that much fun talking to someone in quite a while....Chris was pissed about it though. He knows I like Tyrell and he doesn't like him at all. But anyways Chris cut himself all over his stomache and some on his chest area....It made me feel like shit. I just hate feeling like this. Feeling like I am held responisible for someone else hurting themselves....I am going to keep talking to him though. I really wanna go to the Otakon with Tyrell and his freinds. It would be a ton of fun!!! ^^ I espically can't wait for him to come down to Knoxville maybe....we can play DDR and all that stuff like hanging out. I am probably going to call him tonight. I just don't want him to feel as if I am stalking him or anything. ^//^ He said he had an x-girlfreind like that.... I don't want to be that way toward him. It's so hard you know? I really really like him, but I like Chris as well and if I leave him he'll do something bad....if you could only see his stomache. God it looks almost as bad as my back did after all the times I cut it and acidently cut spots over again...(because you can't see that well from your back while trying to cut and look in the mirror....) But I had some fun today. Watched part of the hentai that I have recieved. It was sad because the little 13 year old girl was involved in part of the orgy thing. She was raped and maybe it hurts hardest because I know how she feels. Kinda...I mean thats fiction....and what happened to me was reality. Though I wish it weren't. But rather me then someone else ne? I got a really awesome pic of Sam-sam. It's really really pretty. She looks adorable in it. I wonder if she would mind if I posted it?? 0_o She'd probably kill me....with a blunt knife to make it more painful. *imagines look on her face and winces* I really wanna draw that pic of her. It's just unexplainabley cool. I wanna call Tyrell I wanna call Tyrell I wanna call Tyrell...just have to wait for Jenny to get off the phone. >< He said his hormones were being mean to him last night...hehehehehe, because my voice is school girl sweet. I felt bad for him because he said that I was lucky because I had a boyfreind and that I had someone to be with on v-day.....I wish I could be with the both of them. I WANNA COSPLAY!!! I WILL BE .....I WILL BE...hmmm I dunno >< maybe Kotori from X. I kinda resmble her...and Hyatt from Excel Saga. I wish I could be an ultra pretty charcter like....Riona....or something....but well thats it for tonight...gotta let Jenny get on the net....baibai huggs!
~Lynnsey +_+
Updateness....I talked to Tyrell last night and it was soo much fun once again. We talked about everything. I really wish he lived nearer. I wanna play him in Tekken Tag Tournament. We have a lot in common and we always get into the most intresting conversations.
that was yestredays post...but well nothing really is going on. Dreading the school week. Dreading a lot of things while listening to APC. I love the song " A Stranger" It reminds me of Thanatos. huggles to all.
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Friday, February 11, 2005

   I miss Tyrell...
I was going to call him last night but then remebered that his mom doesn't like people to call after 9...So I just stayed online for a little whle and talked to Sam and Matty. It was pretty fun. I miss Sam. ;-; I hope that someday I can hang out with all my good freinds on here. It would be soooo much fun! I'm happy for Kei she got her braces took off!!! Be happy for her too! ^^ I just wish I had some better freinds to hang out with. I sat with Sky this morning and things felt awkward because tiffany was there. I don't think she likes me very much at all. i think she thinks I'm stupid because I never do any of my work...but I know I'm a lot smarter than her. I'm actually really intelligent...as if you guys could guess. I just don't like to show it because it makes me look like a brain. And thats not the imgae I wanna portray. I wish I could be cute and sweet and innocent. But alas I am a bitch from hell. I drew up a new yuri themed pic. Bell rag gootta run. huggles.
~Lynnsey +_+
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Thursday, February 10, 2005

   FUCK IT!!!
oh my fucking god. I feel so pissed right now. I missed the bus. The cats shit in the floor. My room smells like cat piss and shitt so bad that it gives me a head-ache to go back there. i hate my life. I keep feeling sick at my stomache and keep haveing this stupid dreams. I'm also afraid I'm pregnant. I don't think I am though. GOD JUST FUCKING LET ME DIE!!!! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP ME HERE??? On the light side though last night I got a ton of food. And I also got piccys of rin and a pic of his art. He's a talented artist. Tyrell might not be posting for awhile..... Everything seema to keep going worng....what did I do? What the fuck did I do to make everything go bad? Well anyone got any problems? I'm always here to listen....I hope that I helped Rin last night....I hope I help all of you in some way. Because if I don't I don't have a purpose anymore....
~Lynnsey +_+
ps. Thank god tomorrow is friday. Sara is going away to. She gave up myO for Lent.
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Wednesday, February 9, 2005

   moderately happy yet sad.
Hellllllo My Otaku!!! ARE YOU GUYS READY TO FUCKING RAWK??!!! Jokeing jokeing. Anyways how has your day been going? Mine's been ok. I got a pic of Heather and all her sexxyness! yay for me! The teacher moved me abd my freind Skye closer togetther in French. We also might get to listen to x-japan during french tomorrow! Because Love Replica is in French. Agh I'm sooo hungry!!! I LOVE YOU TOO KATIE!!!! BRAD WANTS TO KNOW WHEN YOU WANT TO HAVE THE 3-SOME!!! lol! Anyways Shintoga has a lot of school work so he may not be updateing for awhile.....sadness. I always go to the library during just to see if he has posted. Because Chris bitches if I stay on the net for too long. *sigh* V-day is comeing up soon!! yayness I suppose. Brandy is happy which is good. Cliff put a rose on her car and she found it! Thats so roamntic. I have always wanted to go play DDR at the mall with my boyfreind. I think it would be fun. I'm tired. Glad tomorrow is thursday but my 15 page short story is due on friday!!! >< And I HAVE TO EDIT IT!!! No violence or blood. But oh well she can suck my non-existant cock for all I care. my school career has basically been ruined so whats the point? I just wanna get into journalism. Thats all. I would also love to tak photgraphy as well. Wll huggles to all!! I gotta a copule of pics of Rin....but I really want one of Tyrell. well huggles you guys!! HUGGLES!!!
~Lynnsey +_+
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Tuesday, February 8, 2005

   pissed.
Damn bitch. She shouldn't be mean to Tyrell like that. I mean saying shit like "I don't think anyone would chase you arond on V-day" That fucking hurts. You shouldn't exploit someone like that. oh well. Rin is awesome though. But hows it been going? I've had a pretty rad day at school. Jeff wasn't here thougha nd I have said w00t w00t after every other sentence. Skye is here too in the library with me. I hope everything will be alright with shintoga. So, what are you guys doing for v-day? As you can see I changed the layout to Gackt and my new avi shows up on the librarys compy so thats all cool! hehehehehehe thaniks Darike for saying you'd let me borrow Saikano. makes me feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside. I sawe this girly at wal-mart last night with a Puffy-Yumi shirt and I said hey thats an awesome band she just stared at me. Well I have a little food to eat now!! W00T!! I'm getting white choclate covered strawberries this weekend too!! yummies! well havea good one and one final question if you could go out with anyone person who would it be and why? This is going to be intresting...^^ huggles!
~Lynnsey +_+
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Monday, February 7, 2005

   Everything is set in stone...
Well, whats going on guys? Nothing realy here just sitting and listening to Phish about to change music...Well now I'm listening to Gackt's Dears. My body is sore. I slept heavy and rolled around a lot. I feel sad for some reason again. I need to get out of the house and go chill with some freinds. I would love to hang with Katie or Heather or anyone of you guys buiy none of you live near me well except for a few...Like Brad does Kinda. I miss Brad wished he would call. Noone is on again. And right now is the time I would be talking to someone...but yeah. I drew a pic last night. It's a guy with one eyes on the uper lid, one on the lower. He's smirking and has a hand cut off with Living Doll written on it. Also his hand is way up in the air... But anyways...I hope to get that pic of Kei soon!!!! ^^^^ It will make me ultra happy! But happy you guys like the new avi if you can see it because I can't...it's still Rosiel when I check my site. Anyways if you don't know the chara in it it's Duo Maxwell from Gundam Wing. One of my favorite Charas. What are you guys doing for v-day? And a question that I found intresting form Shintoga's site...who would you spend it with if anyone would say yes? Well thats it for now!
huggles! Oh shitt by the way...Chara's mother's boyfreind got arrested last night because he was beating up on Chara's mom again. Hope for her that things will go well...Greg needs to stay in prison so he can't hurt them!
~Lynnsey +_+

Shadow. You are an angels made from shadows. You
wings are powerful beyong mortal understanding.
You love to hide in shadows, and are a natural
at night. You enjoy showing mortals whose in
control, and won't hesitate ti hurt someone if
they really start to bug you. You are old, and
will continue to live for many years more.
Longer than any given person. You are agile,
quick witted and sharp. You enjoy putting
people down, and can communiv=cate with the
nights soul, as you do the shadows.

You are an angel that has been cast out of heaven,
and thrown to the earth. Almost being killed in
the process. But what doesn't kill you makes
you stronger, right? And the same rule applies
to you. When you suffer, it only makes you more
vicious, and powerful. You are an impressive
beinf. One never to be trifled with. You hate
all normal angels for this. You drink their
blood, to get back at the heavens that rejected
you.

Congrats, you are very smooth.






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theres a cool quiz. I talked to Chris for a little while today and played DDR. I'm really hungry. But hey I got hentai awaiting me at Chris's house so that makes me happy! ^^ Tell me if you think the quiz awnswer matches me!
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Sunday, February 6, 2005

   new layout
Hope you like the new layout. I did an HIM one espically for Valentines day. At first I was gonna do a hentai themed one, but then I thought that was too sterotypical of me. Hope you guys like the song. It's my favorite by them. They are one of my absolute favorite bands. And I have never seen BAM for the record. I didn't even know they did the theme until...a month ago maybe? So, I am not one of the people who only have heard of them because of the whole MTV thingy....I don't even like BAM. They guy who did the show made fun of my freind Heather when she used to be fat. She was in Burger King and he made some snide comment about her weight...what a bastard. So, whats going on? I went to my cousins grave today...god I feel so sad. It's hard to believe that this only happened last summer. I can still feel the life drain out of his hand as I held it as he died... But Chris spent the night and it was...fun I guess? I couldn't sleep very well. He takes up too much space on such a small bed. I was glad to have him there though. Except for when he farted...We also watched Eddie Murphy's "Raw" video last night with Brandy. It was pretty funny. He kept on tryong to get me to look at enagement rings with him during the movie though. I'm not ready for a real ring yet, but how do I tell him that??? I still am hung up over someone I will never have back so to speak....I just don't know if I'm ready yet....is that selfish of me to say? I really need a new avi....so bad. Aubrey pmed me again yesterday and it made me happy happy joy joy. I wish someone was on right now to talk too...well huggles.
~Lynnsey +_+
ps. thanks for the support....I'm always so fucking depressed and everyone of you try to help me..but then again guess thats what faimly is for right...... *cries*
UPDATENESS

Die has a great sence of humor. You will have such
a great time. Lets just hope he doesn't make u
laugh too terribly hard....it might get a lil
embarassing. And if he teases you dont take it
personally, he teases everyone.


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yeah..I kinda wanted Kaoru...NOOO KEI YOUR LOVE OF KAORU HAS INFECTED ME!!
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Saturday, February 5, 2005

   .......Passive
Hi whats going on with everyone? Hope you guys had a good one last night....because I didn't really. About half way into the night I started falling into depression again. And it sucked. I was thinking about how much I cared for someone...and how they'll never be back here with me. We are also going to probably go see my cousins grave today or tomorrow. Hopefully today because I wanna gt this over with. I dunno if I can handle but i'll try my best... I also have a V-days layout in mind, that I'm going to try change ethier today or monday.... How do you like the music? It's Room of Angel!! Cool huh? Thanks to Elves for the codeing.

.......I have some bad news. My good freind Amai-Kagura is going away to a mental hospital....it makes me sad, because she is so young and doesn't need that at this age. Don't they know those places only make people more suicidal???

Well, I'm waiting for Chris to get here...hopefully he'll be here soon. I keep calling his phone and yet get no awnswer. He's spending the night tonight...I hope we'll have fun. Brandy seems depressed. Everyone seems depressed. Just sacrafice me and make me feel all the pain. I'm so tired of everyone being in constant pain...

huggles

~Lynnsey +_+
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Friday, February 4, 2005

Yay no School for Lynnsey today!!! Yay for the Flu!
I am at home today happily!! Go me! But anyways I am talking to brad's sexxy Katie right now! She tells me the lyrics to Gackts Vanallia dirty so later I am going to look them up! Not a lot of you have updated...I miss Sinny. She nevers updates! *sadness* I just might call her tonight to see if she is ok. I wanna call Tyrell too and Kei...and I wish Brad would call. but anyways....I am ataully doing the back story to Thanatos!! It's for a schgool project the way the orginal started out! Cool huh? I hope when I get done I an post it here...but I want hinaru to read it...Hinaru....Where did he go? He updated every weekedn there for a while and now I hear nothing from him. I am so makeing my site have music today! I just hope it works....because if it doesn't I'll be sad. I think Might put Room of Angel up...I dunno. Well I better run. All I am doing is rambleing...hughug.
~Lynnsey +_+
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Thursday, February 3, 2005

   *cries*
aubrey isn't gone for good. He sent me a PM today and now I am quite happy! ^^ But I don't feel the best...I just wanna die right now and i'm tired, but well school maybe out tomorrow...so um yeah. i am sad though. The rain reminds me of a lot things. Good things, but sad things. Of someone I won't be able to see again. I implore all of you to not go the lady doctor. Implore with a greatness. I keep haveing nightmares about it and they wake me up. I was so tired today that I couldn't get up. my mom didn't have any sympathy though. So just started bitching as soon as I got in the car about me not catching the bus. I have been catching the bus!!! Can't they at least give me credit for effort? Or am I that much of a loser? I'm really sleepy. Reallllly sleepy. 23 kids went home today because of the flu and still counting. The hallways are less congested than usual. It's like a fucking plauge. I hope this finds all of you well and thanks for the mp3 codes!!! I will have to use them as soon as possible! Well see all of you laters! Oh one more thing...I'M GETTING MY HENTAI SOON!! I love you Chris. I'm sorry about this morning. hugs. bai.
~Lynnnsey +_+
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