Saturday, January 22, 2005

   Got the net back....
Well, here's a long post to keep you enetertained...I wrote it through the days I wasn't here. Yeah, I have ultra low self esteem. It's because of stuff. A lot of stuff. Stuff that my father has done, being molested by a 55 year old man when you are 10 doesn't help it ethier, and then all the guys at school say you are uglier than a ton of bricks, and then someone ultra close to you...(most of you already know about it) passes away and he was the first person to ever say you were beautiful and mean it. I know I don't have a bad life. Mine is great compared to a ton of peoples. I wish I could trade them my life just for a taste of freedom. I'll take the place of any 5 year old child who has to bust ass everyday to earn 5 cents a week. I just hope he doesn't get on Brandy's bad side ever!! ~^ But see ya'll laters. and thanks for the encouragement. I'll see if I can't get a goth piccy up here for you guys sometime. And maybe even put my kitty ears on for it! I just have to get Chris to bring the camera. I have one more thing to say...I saw my x, Josh at the mall yesterday. We chated for a while but I'll tell you all about it laters...well heres the week long post...I advise you not to read all of it for it is a loooong ass post. hugs! ciaou.

START OF LOOONG ASS POST.

Yeah this is probably gonna be really long...

Sorry for my recent absence. Phone got cut off and I was at my mothers Sunday and Monday. Even if it was on I think I wouldn't be on much. I'm just depressed, because I'm such a failure. But meh. Well, this is actually thursday in which I am writting this. I'm typeing it on my computer and saveing it o a floppy so I can just copy and paste it at school. I haven't seen any school all week long. I keep missing the bus. My alarm clock sucks balls. I set it last night and it never went off this morning, so I woke up at 7:35. I almost caught the bus except for the fact that I dropped a glass on my foot. It shattered and at least I had socks on or I would be in a lot of pain and no way to get help... God, I hate my clumsy ass. I spilt pepsi all over my bed last night and had to sleep on some towels and a blanket. And then this morning I spilt pepsi all over my keys. I watched a little bit of Jerry Springer and Maury this morning because I was bored, but most of the morning was spent crying, because I didn't catch the bus and it seems everywhere I go havoc and chaos follow me. Well right now I feel a bit happier. I'm watching/listening to Nirvana. I just got done listening to one of my all time favorite songs "Jesus Doesn't Want me for a Sunbeam" and right now I'm listening to "Sappy" because I miss Freddy and the song reminds me of him, because he loves it so much. That and I like the song too. I should find something that reminds me of David, but all the music i like he seems to hate...silly jingle balls. I miss Math class with them. And I haven't talked to Heather ethier...I miss talking to all of you alot. By the way here's what happened through out the week

Sunday night: Sat around, played DDR, worked on my kids book, baby sitted Ciera (my neice. I call her little Juicy, because of her adorable fat rolls and the fact that she always wants something to eat and drools a lot) she's the most adorable baby I have ever seen. And quiest too. She rarely ever cries. Fell asleep about 1.

Monday: Spent most of the day with my sister. Found out she is going into rehab for 30 days...I'm going to miss her. so we celebrated her few days of freedom. Went and picked her up some pills (expensive too 60 a pill). Went to Bobs...Then we went to the mall. It was fun except for the fact that I started my period... We went to see White Noise, but before we did we went to Hottopic...I'm going to be getting some new pants soon. Then after that we went to the arcade and watched a couple of guys play DDR...they were all right. they did one of my best songs on begginer A by D.J. Amuro. As we were watching them my sister asked me if they looked like they were worth watching and I said "no because I've never seen a good guy that looked prepy. All the good dudes are goth" one of em turned around and looked me over and smiled...and it scared me. I walked off...I wanted to play Tekken 5 but the assholes were takeing up all the time there. I also wanted to play soul Caluiber but a couple of little kids were there all the time. I wanted to play DDR but the to guys and another kid kept hogging it. So, i just played House of the liveing Dead. Anyways the movie started and it was one of the best movies I've seen in a while. It had a great plt and the worse thing is all of it could actually happen, because the whole EVP thing is real. It can come over the computer, phone, tv anything electronic...but what I wonder is if I one day open up the fridge and I hear a voice...would it be ghost or an eskimo??? lol.

Tuesday: Nothing noteworthy. Cleaned the house because my cramps were hurting me too bead to go to the school place. Cliff (Brandy's boyfriend) came over and theyr had sex so I just turned up the tv, but that didn't stop the noises...>< After that we went walmart and I finally found a copy of A Perfect Circle's "Thirtenth Step", so Brandy got it for me...now I just gotta wait for it and her other stuff to get paid off in Layaway so i can actually listen to it...at least i got it.

Wensday: well...beat Silent Hill 3 on the UFO/Revenge ending, and it was hilarous. I love the Silent Hill song!! ^^ I also read Ceres Celestial Legend. I'm hooked on that now. It's a good story...sad and good. I loveid Toya, but I really like Aki. He's so sweet. Nothing else really. Bored and drew a weird pic. Thinking about life and all it's depressing splendor. wow. what a contradiction of words.

hehehehe my moods are so fluxuating right now. swinging, swinging, swinging, tick tock tick tock, dead. I'm listening to "Beans" right...god I love that song almost as much as I love gir...now I'm listening to "They Hung Him on a Cross"...Kurt's vocals sound so pretty on this. I'm on a Nirvana binge right now...but the question is when don't I listen to them?? I have listen to them everyday since...for awhile. except when Chara borrowed my cd....I think I say probably say the are my all time favorite band besides Duel Jewel...I haven't listened to them for a while...byt the way I have advanced up to Light mode in DDR all in a week..no wait 2. I'm proud of myself...just gotta keep practiceing. I got faint headed yesterday and slipped on the mat and almost fell back into the table. It wasn't fun, but the funny thing was the cat came up and sniffed me after i did it...I wonder how Chara is...I wanna talk to her but alas no phone ecxept after 9. Because thats when free minutes start on the cell. This post will be the longest ever. Meep. Now I am listneing to pennyroyal tea...crying a little because I know why this song is my favorite...and none of you do...*sticks tounge out* Now I listen to Sappy once more and again, but this isn't the one of the dvd so it be diffrent and prettier. I wonder how Janelle is...she seemed to be doing really bad last time I talked to her..I hope her and Leo are all right. And Kei and Sam and Matty and Rebecca and Brad and Katie and Katie 2 and Aubrey and Heimantini (Hinaru...hope I spelled it right...) and Keiko and Melencholy and hope her freind is alright and Luminae and Sinny ( I still need to call her!!! >< ) and Vicious 2 and Selena and Brittany and Randy and Smurf and Angela and Dennis and Jillian and everyone else...I miss all of my freinds. wow I think I've been typeing for like an hour. You guys are gonna kill me bcaeuse now I am just rambleing and this is getting longer than..........................that line of dots.hehehehe there is the song title for me..." I hate Myself and I want to Die" hehehehehhehehehehe I feel psychotic...I feel like I'm falling...and theres no one at the bottom to catch me any longer...because he finally rests. No more wings, no more dreams. meep.

"And if you Save yourself you will make him happy

And he'll keep you in a jar and you'll think you're happy"

meep..lyrics to Sappy...

" And if you Cut yourself you'll think you're happy

Keep you in a jar and you'll make him happy

And you'll get breathing holes and you'll think you're happy"


meep.

Peep.

Look a sheep.

Sorry don't mean to be the sterotypical depressed girl. Drooling and dreaming about what used to be. About what used to live, but is gone. I feel like I need a blood transfusion, because my blood is dirty.

This is going to be the longest post ever. Becxause you never know when your last breath will be. Your last day. your last hug. your last kiss. your last time to say you're sorry. your last day to grasp everything you ever wanted. your last day to be with the person you love. I think about how many people have died to have what I have right now and I wanna just die myself. All the drugs that have been sold, all that people that were shot, and lives shattered in order for me to have clothes and a playstation and all the other stuff I have. Not all of it was dirty money but the mass majority was. I just hate how materailstic humans are. Always competeing to get attop the corprate ladder of popularity, but never realizeing how many people they step on, on the way out of thier hole. I'm just horrible. But I won't think about this anymore..I don't need to because it's not a good idea for me right now. I love all of you and I'm sorry that it's such a long post....but hey It'll tide you over until after Monday eh? We will probably have the phone turned back on after Monday or maybe even Monday..I hope soon, because I miss all of you and I miss being able to talk before 9... >< Well, hugs.

~Lynnsey...wait why did I sign with my real name???? ?_? X_X agh who knows...plays_with_squirrils_ over and out!

ps. hehehehehe I just got all the mp3s I lost because I had to delte kaaza back!! There is always a way around everyhgting on a computer...all I had to do was go do system restore and convert everything into a ZIP file!! ^^ meep! I have all the songs back!! ALL OF MY GACKT!!!! AND MY X-JAPAN FOREVER LOVE MP#!!! WHOOOOYT!
pss. I just got a notice form the court about my school abscences. I have to be in court on tuesday..yay fun. Just have to look nice, cry a lot and act innocent. It's probably (hopefully just a warning though...) My mom wants to talk to me about it and everything though....;_;
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Friday, January 21, 2005

hi....
sorry haven't been around...I'm ugly, I hate myself and I wanna die. But anyways tis my grunge outfit Shintoga...believe me..I look bad, usually not that bad. I do straighten my hair, but it's not my fault I was born with it like that...I usually am wearing gothic clothing but I was over at my boyfreinds house and I can't wear much gothic stuff over there because they are big christian. I can't dye my hair and even if I did it wouldn't make me look better. Nothing can.
well bell rang tell me how it's been going love all of you bai.
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Sunday, January 16, 2005

   Still not in existence....it is gone.
hoepfullyHey guys....whats going on? Nothing much here....Just liveing. I've been in a depressive mood for the last few days. Chris came over and made me a bit happpier. We bought some hentai from animenation. It's a yuri thing. it's called "Yu no" Looks like cool. Plus it was the boxset with all the dvds in it and it was all rightly priced so...yeah. I had a good time today. My little brother Gir00 (Luke/Taro-kun) is over here. he is spending the night with me until tomorrow. meh. He just wanted to play DDR. I've been doing really good at that game lately...I've done 20 rounds of endless and the highest combo i've had is like 170...pretty good in my eyes. I felt like I blew off Sam today...Chris and I were looking up that stuff and we were talking on AIM and she never really responded...shitt I need to check out her xanga page. *sigh* so much to do. Also need to finish up my homework and start on my kids book...which is going to be good hopefully, even if it is centered around a stupid cactus...Wow Zen is here and updated...I'm still not feeling so well... Something is missing. i don't know where it went but i think it was my humanity....
Jenny's pet mouse died today and she had a huge crying fit over that. So, all this woke me up. And when I was finally up i decided, "Hey, I'm gonna get my homework done..." But somehow they have figured out the password for my computer...Now i have to change it...i miss Ryu and Brad and my other friends I used to talk to...I hope they are all alright. i talked to chara yesterday and she was happy. She got new nightmare Before x-mas stuff. my little brother is getting a Gamecube this week. I get jack shit. But i'm glad he is getting this. He desrves it. Well...wait. I did get those rings. But i don't really like jewlery. I might sell those rings to go buy some games, but that would be kinda mean. So, I won't. Oh, well at least I get some hentai. I lovce you Chris....later all of you guys. bau and hugs.
~playswithsquirrils~
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   Still not in existence....it is gone.
hoepfullyHey guys....whats going on? Nothing much here....Just liveing. I've been in a depressive mood for the last few days. Chris came over and made me a bit happpier. We bought some hentai from animenation. It's a yuri thing. it's called "Yu no" Looks like cool. Plus it was the boxset with all the dvds in it and it was all rightly priced so...yeah. I had a good time today. My little brother Gir00 (Luke/Taro-kun) is over here. he is spending the night with me until tomorrow. meh. He just wanted to play DDR. I've been doing really good at that game lately...I've done 20 rounds of endless and the highest combo i've had is like 170...pretty good in my eyes. I felt like I blew off Sam today...Chris and I were looking up that stuff and we were talking on AIM and she never really responded...shitt I need to check out her xanga page. *sigh* so much to do. Also need to finish up my homework and start on my kids book...which is going to be good hopefully, even if it is centered around a stupid cactus...Wow Zen is here and updated...I'm still not feeling so well... Something is missing. i don't know where it went but i think it was my humanity....
Jenny's pet mouse died today and she had a huge crying fit over that. So, all this woke me up. And when I was finally up i decided, "Hey, I'm gonna get my homework done..." But somehow they have figured out the password for my computer...Now i have to change it...i miss Ryu and Brad and my other friends I used to talk to...I hope they are all alright. i talked to chara yesterday and she was happy. She got new nightmare Before x-mas stuff. my little brother is getting a Gamecube this week. I get jack shit. But i'm glad he is getting this. He desrves it. Well...wait. I did get those rings. But i don't really like jewlery. I might sell those rings to go buy some games, but that would be kinda mean. So, I won't. Oh, well at least I get some hentai. I lovce you Chris....later all of you guys. bau and hugs.
~playswithsquirrils~
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Saturday, January 15, 2005

   heh....hi yall!! ^^
Well sorry I haven't been around much. i have been busy. Lots and lots of fun homework. Yeah fun...right. And now I'm helping Jenny with her art gallery project. I haven't got started on my kids book project...I need to write my intro stories and what if pargraphs too and finish my science stuff. Not to mention get all the paper work I need signed. >< So, busy, busy...how is everything going? I got two new rings today...my sister gave me food today, and she came over here to give it to me it. She told me to try her rings and she said "Do they fit?" I said "ummm...yeah"
These rings are nice too...real diamonds, real gold, real saphire. And she for me to keep them and she had some with rubies in them to give me as well...my sister has more money than she knows what to do with...And shane and her is getting my little brother a Gamecube...I'm going to try to get him that Baiten Kaitos game for his birthday...Well, it's 12 over here...and I need to still do a lot of things and well I'm kinda depressed...just feeling meh. Maybe exaushted maybe tired...or maybe just sad. It's hard to talk about right now...Maybe I'll tell all of you later? *sigh* I also wanna post a couple of stories up here as soon as I get them done...so well hugs and all!! Oh by the way I have a new project to draw...more Kurt Cobain...he was such a simple inspiration today. Just seeing him all peaceful and looking at the brezze run through his hair and the peacefulness on his face. There is three maybe four things that inspire me...1.Death, 2.morbidness, 3.the people I love, 4. Simple pleasure. Well, gotta run. Love all of you and by the way if you have the time please go check out one of my best friends, her name is Katie...well Braiar Rose. She is on my friends list so please check her out if you like!! hugs and bai!
~playswithsquirrils~
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Thursday, January 13, 2005

   lynnsey wins, bus loses!!
Except that some little middle school fucker flipped my headphones and tried to make me turn down my music. I just turned around shook my head and smiled. Heh. They are not going to get me turn down my Slipknot or my Nirvana. meh no way. But I am at school right now. It sucks but oh well. I wore my blue fishnet and the Godsmack shirt Freddy traded me. My really tight tripp pants. not tight on inrention just too damn tight because they shrunk in my friend's washer. But how is everyone? Hapy birhtday to Lordinuyasha!! Even if he doesn't know me..-_-''' oh well. But man I am hungry...But i have no food here and none at home..it bites. Well glad all of you enjoyed my quizzes!! ^^ I might not get to all of your sites today, but I will try my baest! Yay! Tomorrow is Friday!! Well, see ya guys laters and hugs!
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005

   Bored so I took a ton of quizzes. post below all the quizzes.

Your Life: The Soundtrack
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Opening credits	"Holy, Holy," Angel Sanctuary OST
Waking up	"Mr. Brownstone" Guns n' Roses
Average day	"Smells Like Teen Spirit" Nirvana
First date	"Right Here in My Arms" HIM
Falling in love	"For You" HIM
Love scene	"Closer" Nine Inch Nails
Fight scene	"Keep the Faith" Guity Gear OST Testament battle scene
Breaking up	"HeartShaped Box" Nirvana
Getting back together	" Deep Shadows" HIM
Secret love	" December Love Song " Gackt
Life's okay	"Knockin on Heavens Door" Guns N' Roses
Mental breakdown	"PaperDoll" Kittie
Driving	" Hells Bells" ACDC
Learning a lesson	" 14 Years " Guns N' Roses
Deep thought	" Room of Angel " Silent Hill 4 : The Room OST
Flashback	" Don't Cry " (orginal) Guns N' Roses
Partying	" Sandstrom" Darude
Happy dance	"Beans" Nirvana
Regreting	" Regret " Gackt
Long night alone	" Bottom of a Bottle " Smile Empty Soul
Death scene	" Forever Love" X-Japan
Closing credits	" PennyRoyal Tea" Nirvana
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....angry rant post below. Tomorrow will be Lynnsey vs. the school bus part 2.
another quiz. Think it's pretty accurate, but my obsession spawns from a person. I don't wanna talk about it....

Angel Goth -- Something about the fallen angels
calls to you. You might even name your first
child Lucifer, regardless of sex.


Which Gothic Stereotype Are You?
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Bored? ((Over 100 questions))
Created by xSwtLilAngel666x and taken 61769 times on bzoink!
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::	Lynnsey, but it's Purgatory to you fools!!!
Birthplace ::	Knoxville, TN
Age ::	15, why do you wanna know?
Age you act ::	hmmm with my intelect...87...nah more like 7 or 8 ~^
Current location ::	in the chair.
Eye color ::	brown
Hair color ::	ummm brownish
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::	right I think
Zodiac sign? ::	Aeries, the Ram
Height? ::	I'm short. Freddy is taller than me ><
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::	German mostly, Aussie, Cheerokee indian,maybe part African American..not determined that yet, scottish and irish, ( so thats where all the alcholism in my faimly came from)
Your hair ::	striaght for now, when it gets un straightened, frizzy than your wildest dreams
Your fears ::	heights, not being able to breathe, that I'm not alive, what Chara does to me when I am asleep,~^
Your perfect room ::	black, with a bed and you and nakedness~^
What you practically do in a day ::	sit, piss, play DDR, talk on the phone and the other paty you wouldn't wanna disscuss now would you ~^
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::	fuck, shit, damn, squirril, bastard, hell Goddamn, I,hate,you,hugs,love
Phrases you overuse ::	Fuck you, hugs to you, I miss you, screw you, I wanna fuck
Your first thought when you wake up ::	damn give me 10 more minutes or I wanna fuck right now and I need to piss
Your greatest accomplishment ::	hmmmm, I farted a minute ago does that count? j/k, hmmm, I gotta aboyfriend
Something you want to do ::	fucck right now...
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::	coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::	burger king
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::	nethier, I prefer pale women with dark hair
Chocolate or vanilla ::	vanilla
Adidas or Nike ::	nethier I like DC
Black or white ::	black most definetly
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::	bills, and lots of em..I wish...
Burgers or hot dogs ::	damn why must you make me CHOOSE?? I guess burgers, but hotdogs if it's from a gas station
Egypt or France ::	Egypt
Rock or rap ::	rock, j-rock, death metal, love metal, etc
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::	used to, but not now
Cuss ::	Fuck yes
Sing well ::	maybe..it all depends on your opinon
Sing in the shower ::	yeah somtimes
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::	yeah, if you count my muse as myself
Believe in yourself ::	fuck no!!!
Like taking these longass surveys? ::	all depends on my mood.
Play an instrument ::	used to play violin, but not now. would like to learn to play drums
Want to go to college? ::	maybe. i don't achive things well.
Want to get married? ::	yeah
Want to have children? ::	maybe
Think you're a health freak? ::	fuck no all I eat is junk food
Get along with your parents ::	sometimes not often
Get along with your siblings? ::	yeah
Think you're popular ::	fuck no
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::	...no
Drank alchohal ::	no
Smoke ::	no
Get high ::	no, but wish I was, because I gotta headache.
Done any drugs ::	nah
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::	ewwww oreos
Been on stage ::	no
Gone skinny dipping ::	i took a bath does that count?
Been dumped ::	I almost dumped someone
Dyed your hair ::	no
Stolen anything ::	a cookie out of the cookie jar!! j/k
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::	Heather or Angela
Loudest ::	Angela
Most shy ::	Chara or David
Blondest ::	Chara
Smartest ::	Matty
Kindest ::	Kei
Best personality ::	Brad
Most talented ::	Elvesatemyramen, Chara, Jannelle or MeloncholyTears
Best singer ::	hmmmm, dunno, Kevin?
Most ghetto ::	none of em are
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::	hmmmm Chara
Pain in the ass ::	hmmmm Chara
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::	hmmmm Chara
Funniest ::	hmmmm Chris or Freddy or David or Tara or brittany
Best person for advice ::	matty or Brad or Janelle
Dependable ::	Chris
Trustworthy ::	Matty
Druggie ::	Freddy
Most likely to end up in jail ::	hmmmm Kevin for statturoy rape
Person you've known the longest ::	hmmmm...Brittany
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::	was a nightmare
Last nightmare ::	about the hospital and someone being it that i didn't get to see while they were in it
Car ride ::	yesterday to get something to eat
Last time you cried ::	yesterday, because I thought i was going to die
Last movie seen ::	Vampire Hunter D
Last movie rented ::	hmmmm...Texas Chainsaw Massacre from my sis
Last book read ::	the Ring manga
Last word said ::	fuck
Last curse word said ::	fuck
Last time you laugh ::	last night
Last phone call ::	to brandy an hour ago
Last CD played ::	Guns N' Roses : Appetite for Destruction
Last song you listened to ::	"Blue" A Perfect Circle (one of my favorite songs)
Last annoyance ::	hmmm last night because the cat knocked over my pS2 and messed up my DDR game
Last IM ::	about 20 minutes ago from rebecca
Last weird encounter ::	hmmmm a few weeks back at Chara's house. Her ghost kept screwing up Fatal Frame
Last person you hugged ::	real life hug: Freddy, or Brandy virtual: Selena
Last person you yelled at ::	does the bus count?
Last time you wore a skirt ::	last month for a candle lighting ceremony
Last time you've been evil ::	I always am
Sarcastic? ::	most of the time, if you know me well enough
Last time you fought with your parents ::	heh....sometime ago when i was thier house.
Last time you wished upon a star ::	a week ago.
Played Truth or Dare ::	oh my so long ago i don't remeber
Spent quality time alone ::	right now
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::	not right now she's takeing a shower...
Do you feel lonely ::	always
Ever TP'd someone's house ::	yeah
How about egging someone's house ::	I egged my dads car
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::	the fuck....
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::	fuck no
Yo Momma ::	is so fat she was through walmart and people started ratioing the food. heh made that one up a minute ago
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::	no, because I can withsatnd it easy
What do you think of George Bush? ::	bastard
Any secret fetishes? ::	S&M, bondage, blood, cat ears on anime chicks
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::	yes I do
How many languages do you speak? ::	hmmmm, various parts of various ones
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::	yeah my middle finger is.
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::	hmmm a little I can watch Jerry Springer now
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You like the trouble making types.


What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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I can't help it!! *blush*

You are Relaxed
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You have this constant feeling inside that says
that everything will be alright. Calm cool, you
invented the Chill Pill! (WHAT?!)Whenever
there's a problem you don't spaz out, that's
why people come to you for advice because
you're really reliable. Not many people have
the aura of calmness that follows wherever you
go. Whenever people are around you, they loosen
up, relax, just by being near you! Your motto
is 'Sit back and relax'. Stay the way you are,
because you rarely get stressed out! Please
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What's The Girl Inside of You? .:BEAUTIFUL Anime Pics:. (UPDATED!)
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hmmmm I dunno bout this one. I get stressed out a lot.



Skitty Kitty! Your small and cute you come from
POKEMON. You look very cute the only thing is
your. Tail it's weird! You dont really have
that much power, but your cute. SOOOOOOOO
CUTE=3


What type of anime cat are you?
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Yay!!! ^_^


HEY KOOL DUDE, YOUR LIKE KENNY McCormick HE IS
AWSOME!


WHICH SOUTH PARK CHARACTER ARE YOU
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Kenny is my favorite!!! ^^

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   motherfucking son of a bitch!!!!
The asshole bus passed me up this morning!!!!! HOW CAN IT DO THAT TO ME?? It was early and I think like 5 other people probably missed it. I've been trying to call my mom to see if i can get a ride, but alas no awnswer. If things get to the wrose I may have to call my sis, or walk to school which is like a mile or something? I actually think it's a lot more, but I need to have my ass in class. GOD I JUST HATE LIVEING!!!! but that doesn't mean I am going to die. For I must stay around to piss many more people off, like the guys on the bus with my loud rock and jappanese music. Someday they will all die and I will be a happy kitten!!! WHOOO! Sam-sam is back!! Me is so happy! I have to go check out her site later! But for now I must depart after I write a little more. My cats are driveinbg me crazy. My Tigger broke my DDR game to where it won't play the songs "Ladies night and La Senoritia" but they weren't onei really liked anyways, but eh i stil wanted to play them to unlock new stuff. I got a new song called "A" by DJ Amuro thats now become sorta favorite of mine. It's starts out ultra slow and speeds up to like 210 or something like that. I can hit everything basically too and I almost got an A on the song. i'm getting pretty gfood, but still need a ton of room for improvement. My Brandy person is really good and so is Chris, suprisengly. But anyways I gotta run, but just to let you know i am starting on the stroy!! ^^ And sorry I'm not getting to your sites. Melencholy Tears espically and Matty.
~playswithsquirrils~
ps.hugs!
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

   waitwaitwaitWAIT!!!!
One last thing!!!! Please, please,please, I beg of you to go check out my friends, story Cerise Tear. If you don't know already it's on her site and now and maybe if you liked it you can click her link and leave her a review or two at fictionpress.com??? Please? She needs more reviews and a lot more recognition!!! But well her name if you haven't guessed already is Kuronekosama. She is on my friends list and I know someof you have done me the favor of going to look at her art, but can you please go check out her story? It's very twisted and a little on the yaoi side. post below this one!
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   shitt
I hate missing goddamn school!!! And I had to delete Kazaa from my computer, because obiviosuly there was some kind of hidden charges. There were these 6 minute calls from Reno, Nevada and all and one from England on the phone bill and Brandy got all pissed at me, because it was a lot of money. But the charges were deleted because I'm a minor and they never questioned me for charges. Assholes... It has to be kazaa because nothing else dials on the net besides it. oh, well there went all my fucking mp3s. Except for chou. Atleast I still have it. I might be grounded from here for a week so if you know my #, (chara, Chris, Brad) call me if you wanna talk. I will try to call you nati, but it all depends. On wether or not I have the time because I have a load of homework and I have to work on the new twisted short story. i had to go to the hospital last night. it sucked. Cliff, Brandy's man, was in there until today. The hospital gave me nightmares and Brandy was preaching about how "it isn't so bad," because she basically lived there when cuz was in there. Well she doesn't know how it feels to not be able to be with someone in the hospital that you love, when they are about to die, and then have their friends tell you, about how that person was reacheing out for your hand and calling for you and you weren't there. It makes me feel like shitt. And they only person who knew about some of this stuff, was my shitty x-boyfriend Josh. And he wouldn't let me talk about it because he was jealous and he thought i shouldn't hang on to something that isn't there anymore. Chris is so sweet. He is pacient and loves me enough to deal with all of my shitt and stand there beside me. I'm sorry guys. I just had to get it off my chest... Things aren't the best for me right now...Just feeling wrhtless and like shit. But anyways I'll get the story on here as soon as possible. I just gotta finish writting the one for creative writting and soon enough the horror stroy will be up here. heh, we have to make a childrens book in that class, and it has to be about a stupid charcter named mr.Cactus. We had to vote on charcters and I don't know who the fuck, gave the person who made mr.Cactus all the votes, but they are all stupid. I voted for Demolition Man. He was the best up there. He liked to blow things up. I know even if I had made my chara in time none would have voted for it. Mine was Neko, the little gothic boy no one cared for. Well, bad news for him my story is not going to be centered around a cactus. It's going to be about my chara. because he is an anarchist and he is better than a a cactus. And it's going to teach kids how to accept diffrences. Yep it will. But anyways as soon a s get done with the final design of neko and my scanner works he'll be up here. He is very chibi. But anyways the addiction with DDR is the fact that it's just fun and the music isn't all girly, Kei. It's just a bunch of really cool songs. It's not really a girls game, actually more guys play it than girls. That and I hate inital D. Because raceing games blow. And the animation for iniatl D is shitt. But I'm glad you have something cool to play a the mall or do you have the actual game, kei?? But anyways hugs to all!!!
~playswithsquirrils~
ps. there is a really cool guy on here named Shingto. He's cool!!
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