Wednesday, November 17, 2004

Guess I have to change my back ground...
And I love it so..i think I'll just have to put it on my desk top... For you guys can't see it, it's of Kurt Cobain and he looks like he kinda falling and it has the definition of Nirvana in the background. It's so pretty. I'm listening to Staind right now. Epiphany. Very good song. very, very good song. YAY KEIKO-SAMA IS HERE!! *hugs Keiko-sama* I'm so glad to see yooooooooou!! And Sam is here too and Rebecca and Chara and Matty! My family is here! I'm so happy! Actually all of you are like family to me! But anyways. I'll send Keiko-sama a picture of me. I do look tired in those pictures, because both of those at Chris's house and I had to get up at 7 to go. I was very tired! And that was the day I beat Silent Hill 1 too! I was so proud of myself! Thankies for the nice sayings! Those aren't very good pictures of me. I wasn't in full gothic glory that day. Chris's parents probably wouldn't appriciate that! ^^'. They're Catholics. It's ok, tht you can't read Thanatos , Sam. It is very understandable. I'm at home today which isn't good. I got up late and missed the bus... i think I yelled at Chris this morning too because the only thing I really remeber is him saying good bye and my pounding head. It felt like I had a major hangover, but I don't drink anymore. I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you. I miss you so much. Happier news I've started a new story. It's called Dead and End and it was actually Chara's idea, but I changed a lot of things about it. I don't think she's going to be to happy with how much I changed the story. her orginal idea had to do with a boy that ran away from the goverment and was found by Kanahi a loner who lost everything to his mother includeing his beloved kid sister. I'm makeing it to where the Kanashi part is still the same, but the whole goverment/alien thing is thrown completely away. Kanashi finds Hatsuko and takes him, when he was thrown away to die after his abusive boyfriend raped and tried to kill him. Actually Hatsuko did die, but his body was taken over by a ghoul, a monster who posses creatures which are dead/on the verge of death. This gives him his life back for awhile,but it's actually the ghoul liveing insie of him which gives him what he needs to walk and talk and instanty heal itself. Kanashi will eventually find out what Hatsuko really is and free his body, possibly burning his house and Hatsuko, but also loseing the one he loves. But anyways thats the basic story. I'll post it on here to get opinons on what needs to be changed and what Chara thinks as well. But I've typed long enough so hugs!
~Purgatory-_-~Dead and Loveing it~
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

   Ahhhhh school fuckin sucks...
I hate it here. I'm so tired it's funny. Very tired. And I don't know why... But i have pictures of me below not very good ones, but tell me about how you think I look. I need facts to support the theory that I look like an ugly man. But well, how is everyone? Anyways also if you care there is another chapter of Thanatos below in a post from yeseterday. Well bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Dead and Loveing it~
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Monday, November 15, 2004

hehehehehe



theres another image below it. Thanks to Rebecca-chan!!!
~Purgatory-_-~Dead and Loveing it~
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I don't know if this will work..
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   I'm scared. Noone is here. Protect me chris!!!
I tried calling Brandy's work and cell. They left last night and said that they would be home today or in the morning. Brandys parents came in from Michigan and was haveing trouble with their RV. It broke down again last night so her and Steve went to help fix it. So, anyways whats going on? Everyone all right? I have another chapter of Thanatos to post! I actually have a couple for during my abscence nothing was better than to write. I will be useing some real people as charcters in my story. Look out anyone of you maybe next. So, far I'm useing Freddy and David and Chara (Kuronekosama), Kevin (Jewish Payphone), Chris (Grave), and well Lynnsey (Purgatory, which is me, btw names in parantheses are MyO screennames). i dunno why I included myself in that list but now everyone who didn't know my real name does. A lot of people call me Kitten now though. Oh, yeah my friend Jareth from school is on here now! His user name is goblinking. He's a sweetie. School was all right today. I got one review for my chapter of Thanatos that I put up! It was from Elke!! But about my BG...how many people can see it? It's of Kurt Cobain now and i can see it on my home computer, but not at the school ones. Or is Black Peral the only? Or maybe I'm insane... But well huuuuuggggs!
~Purgatory-_-~Dead and Loveing it~

*****STORY******CHAPTER 3, actually 4 ^^'

Genesis 3 Part 1: Purgatory


I hate to worry. But then again I always do. The simplest things trigger it seemingly. I can not believe he is back! After all this time of staying gone…he came back. It's hard to believe after all this time. I didn't believe Grave at first, but he has changed. I worry about you Thanatos. I really do. And after all this time, I still can't let you go. Memory after memory seems to over take every pore of my mind as you fill me with the pure instinct to run after you, all the while leaving Grave wondering about what went on between us. Even if I love Grave I will never tell him about what has happened between us, Thanatos. I can't. It would hurt him and rage would fill him, like blood filling a cradle after the death of a young baby. I will never tell him. Never.

" Why did you do it. Purgatory?" a voice followed the creaking of the bathroom door and the stopping of running water.

" Huh?" I spoke looking down at the ground. It was all I could say. It was all I could do. I couldn't turn around. I couldn't look him in the face at all.

I felt warm hands wrap around my shoulders and press me up against a warm, water-covered body. I felt a towel drop and light breathing in my ear as a light, yet, heavy voice spoke in it.

" Why didn't you let me kill him? It would have all been over, " he quivered. He was angry. He was demanding.

I could not answer him. An awkward silence took the air space where the question lingered. His grip was tightening. He was getting angrier.

" Tell me why."

The silence just got heavier.

I can feel my shoulders benign jerked. Suddenly I was face to face with him, his angry brown eyes filled with a questioning gaze. He pulled me closer to him. I think he can see the fear in my eyes. Suddenly sadness took them over. It mixed with the anger, which is not a good thing.

" Just tell me that you love me."

" I…I…"

" Tell me damnit! Tell me please! I can't live with out you! I won't let you go back to him! Everything was supposed to be over between you and him! Tell me it is!"

I had to speak then. It's not that I didn't love him. Of course I do. But it's hard to say I love you, when you can't tell them that it's only them that you love.

" I love you. Please believe me. Everything is over between Thanatos and me. It was just the shock of seeing him that’s all. And I thought he was going to hurt you."

I felt him embrace me warmly and I could feel his hot, salty tears on my shoulders. Then I heard him speak in my ear.

" Please don't leave me alone."

I won't leave him alone. But I have to find Thanatos. I have something important to tell him.


Part 2 : All Alone


It's hard to be alone. That’s what people say to me a lot. They ask me why I don't have any friends and I simply say.

" Why do you have friends? I don't need them. I don't need anyone at all."

They look at me like I'm crazy and say:

" Well, that’s fine, but when you look up the word, lonely in the dictionary, you'll see a picture of you, Vincent."

They are weird. But then again I bet they view me as weird too. So, I don't care. Or at least I try not to in public. But when I get home…it's a different story. All I want is a friend!!! I don't care if they aren't pretty of if they aren't popular, I just…sometimes you just need someone to talk to. It's hard talking to a stuffed animal. It's hard to give the TV a hug. It's hard to say goodnight to the lamp. And it's hard to say I love you to the hot animated guy on the computer.
I am all alone.

Part 3: School grounds


Another lesson learned, another page in life turned. That’s what I tell myself. But when I look at the story of my life it all seems blank. No one is involved in it. I can't wait to get out of school. All these happy people make me sad. Why can't I be happy too? I have nothing to learn in this class called life, so why don't I just die already?

" Yes you do."

Is someone talking to me? Is someone out there? Who are you and why are you telling me that I have something to live for?

" I will grant you eternal happiness and lots of friends. I can teach you the way to do it. And you have to do exactly what I say or it won't work."

" Who are you?"

" My name is Thanatos. I am a guardian angel for those who are lonely. You are very special. You can help the world and yourself become better."

" Really? How do I do it? "

" Let me tell you the secret. It's simple. All you have to do is kill those around you who threaten you. They will go to a place where life for them will be better and in turn it will make life for you better."

" Really? It's that simple? Will I get to see this place soon? "

" Everyone will eventually see it. There everyone will be happy. But for right now I need you to help me and I will bring to life your innermost desire."


Part 4 ClassRoom

" Class we have a new student today. His name is Manaka Faust. He comes to our school from a far away place called Tokyo. It's in Japan. He's 16 like most of you and seems very talented in the field of this class. He's won the highest prestige in art for his country. I hope you all will make him feel very welcomed. Do you have a few words you'd like to say Manaka?" the teacher droned with a plastered smile.

" Well, you can call me Faust, if you don't mind. We Japanese put our last name first. I hope to make a lot of friends here in Paradine. I'm new to this place and if one of you wouldn't mind showing me around after school, it would be highly appreciated," he bowed and finished his statements.

He dazzled me. I have never seen another guy that looked that good… His eyes were a beautiful shade of light blue, and his hair was long and black. It was cut in a raggedy fashion, which a lot of the guys around here seem to enjoy. He wore a black shirt with a picture of a band called Slipknot on it. I like that band a lot… it seems we already have something in common. He also wore a pair of tight black bondage pants…they made his ass look really nice and he seemed to have quite a sizeable bulge in his pants…hehehehehe…guess I am gay. Never would have guessed it. Yeah, right.

" You can sit down by Vincent over there. He's the guy with the blue hair and the several pierceings wearing all black. I'm sure he would be more than happy to show you around.." the teacher sniggered at her own personal joke, along with the rest of the class.

He walked over toward me and took the seat right next to me. I felt my face turn red and I looked down at my work. I heard a couple of the people in the back of the table laugh and whisper something to the person beside of them. The person suddenly said it out loud.

" Hey, Vincent cut the fairy shit. We already knew you were odd, but we didn't know you were that way!!" Everyone laughed at what was said and my face flared with anger, but I didn't look up. I wouldn't let them have the best of me.

" Aw, come on Vince, it's not hard to see the bulge in your pants!!" the class once again burst out in laughter.

Suddenly I heard the chair turned aside. Faust was standing up, his fists were clenched in to balled fists.

" So, what if he does like me? Maybe I like him too, ever thought of that punk-ass bitch?"

The girl that was standing up beside the guy who had stared it all was getting mad. I think that was her boy friend. And I also believe she was that really ditzy popular girl.

" If you like him so much then why don't you kiss him, asshole!" she said in her high pitched voice. She thought that was a real threat? God she is a ditz, but then again most cheerleaders are.

I felt a hand on my chin and all of a sudden I saw Faust in my face. His eyes were staring into mine and his lips were partially parted…they were also painted black. His face came closer to mine and I saw his eyes close…wait a minute!!? He was really going to do this!? His lips came down on mine. They were soft and painted. I can feel my cheeks turning red…partially because this is my first kiss and partially because the whole class was gazing in shock including the teacher. I could feel his tongue part my lips and enter my mouth. It moved around and found my own tongue and began to make small elicit motions against my own. I think my body was reacting to this on it's own because my tongue started to move against his in a shy demeanor.

" Oh. My. Fucking. God." The girl said.

I suddenly felt his lips pull apart from mine. He was smiling. Thanatos had kept his promise!! I think I found a friend!

Part 5: Outside school

This was probably the best day of my life! I have finally found a friend! Thank you Thanatos! Thank you! It's all his work, I bet! I owe my part of the deal still though… I have to kill the ones who stand in my way. That would be my school. It stands in my way. It must be burned. Tonight I will burn it. I will make them suffer for what they have done to me, my whole life. They say you should burn your bad memories right? So, that’s what I shall do. Set fire to the school.

" Hey, are you going to show me around?" I heard a voice call out from behind me.

I turned around and saw him. The envisonment of complex beauty. I guess there is such a thing as love at first sight, huh?

" Sure, " I said to him, " Do you have any certain time you need to be back at your house, or do your parents mind?"

He turned a little to the side and his face wasn't as happy as it usually was.

" My parents aren't among the living anymore. I live alone, by myself."

I felt bad for mentioning this, so out of pure instinct I touched his shoulders.

" I'm sorry I mentioned it. My parents are dead too. It's been that way since forever I suppose. I live alone also. So where do you wanna see first?"

I could see a grin on his face. What was he smiling about I wonder.

" I wanna see your house if you don't mind." He said

" My house? I don't see why, but all right." I said. I'm confused. I was sure he would want to see the park or the mall or something like that, but my house? That was totally unexpected.

We walked along the street to my small apartment complex. He snatched my hand and smiled at my confused look.

" Well, here we are. Not much, but well…it's home I suppose, " I said opening the door.

The living room was barren. It had a couch and a TV with a Playstation 2 hooked up to it. It also had a VCR and several stacks of videotapes near it. He walked in and looked at it like it was the place of a Chinese emperor.

" You have a very lovely place! " he gasped.

" Well, you'll think so until you see my room. It's like a tornado hit it. "

I walked him back through the hall and into my room. It wasn't as barren as the living room for it had things strewn across the walls and the floor. Pictures that I had drawn were scattered everywhere. Trash littered the floor, along with bottles of glue and some pain pill bottles.

" You have a very lovely room as well! " he said looking around at it. He sat down on the bed, the covers jiggled as he did because it was a water bed.

" Hey can you turn around for a second? Close your eyes and don't peek!" he said with a smile.

I'm confused, but what the hell. Turning around and closing my eyes, I heard the rustling of clothes and zippers begin undone.

" All right you can open your eyes now."

Turning around I stared in shock at what I saw. He was naked and laying on my bed. His skin was pale and his chest was hairless. I also noticed that my wondering about the big bulge was correct. I could just stare at him all day…

" F-Faust…" I stammered. I'm not very good with words. Never was.

He got up and began walking toward me. He came up to face me and sighed.

" All of my life, I've been alone. I've never had any friends because everyone always thought me odd, even my parents did. When I was little all I did was draw. All I drew was men. I never drew any girls at all. I knew that I was a bit too girlish, but I didn't think anything of it until I hit puberty. All the guys were getting girl friends and talking about boobs. I never have once found a woman to be attractive in my life. No one understood it at all. My parents started worrying about me and my health so they took me to see a physician. He said nothing was wrong with me, except that I seemed to be attracted to men, rather than women. My parents were ashamed of me. So, they committed suicide. That’s how people are where I come from. That’s all they know. If they feel they have failed they think that they need not live. I came here to find someone to be with me. I came here to start a new life because I didn't want to be where no one would love me. I have one thing to say though to you. Even though it's only been a day since we have met, I feel as if something brought us together. Will you love me? Will you hold me? Will you stand by my side? I know it may be rushing into to things quickly, but I want to finish that kiss, if you know what I mean."

It was too good to be true! Someone who understands!! Thank you Thanatos!

" I would like to be with you too. I feel as if you understand my pain," I said embracing him tightly, "I'll be together with you for all of eternity. I promise."

*WARNING!!!! FOR GUYS OR WOMEN WHO DO NOT LIKE YAOI SEX SCENES DO NOT READ UNTILL YOU SEE THE ASTRIKS AGAIN!!!!!!!*

I planted a kiss upon his lips and tasted the black lipstick he was wearing. He inserted his tongue fiercely in to my mouth and we began to my move together in some kind of a rhythm. I was afraid. I'm going to screw this up I know I will. I could feel him grow harder against my leg and it felt good. He moaned into my mouth and I did what felt natural at the moment. I found his hardened cock and began to wrap my hand around it. I moved slowly and he began to thrust in to my hand. I picked up the pace and he broke the kiss and let out a loud moan. This all seemed so animalistic to me… but hey what the hell. I could see a small trail of precum going down his cock and bent down and picked it up with my tongue. He tasted delicious, as if it were the best taste in the world I had to have more so I stuck it in to my mouth and began to move up and down it.

" Vincent…god…" he moaned softly.

I guess wasn't screwing up after all. That was good. I began to suck on the head of it a little and heard him gasp. I was getting harder and harder with each little sound he made. God, he sounded so sexy. Irrisitable was the only word I can think of to describe it. I wanted more of it, so I sucked harder and heard him beginning to pant. He was sweating too as well as he was beginning to leak. He suddenly pulled out of my mouth and said, "I'm saving this for later."

He began to unzip my pants and I took off my shirt for him. My throbbing erection sprung forth and he ran his tongue across it and kissed the tip. He went back up and begin to suck on my nipples. He began to bite them and well I couldn't help but let out a moan. I was getting really hard and when he began to bite the back of my neck I couldn't resist it. I flipped him over on his backside. He looked up at me and smiled. He put all of my cock in his mouth wetting it. I slid in to him softly as possible. I saw his eyes closed and his shoulders tense and I reached down and began to rub him across his body. He began to relax, so I began to make little thrusts with my hips. He felt so tight around me I almost came as soon as I began to move. He began to whimper a little and move with me.

" Faust if I hurt you then tell me to stop…," I said in a low voice.

" After coming this far I don't want you too." He replied.

I began thrusting a little harder and he began to moan. I must have hit a spot because he started to groan and writhe underneath me. I began to move as hard as I could up against that spot and he began to get louder and louder each time. I grabbed his cock and began to pump in time with my thrusts and his moaning got even louder. Suddenly I felt him tighten around me and cum into my hand. It wasn't to much longer until I came roughly into him, my seed coating him on the inside, marking him as mine.

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" I…I…it was good." He said breathily.

" So, I didn't screw up?"

" No. Not at all. It was my first time, and you made it special."

" Mine too."

" Thank you, Vincent. God I love you. It may be soon to say that, but I know I do."


" I love you too Faust." I smiled in contempt as he cuddled in to my arms.


Part 5 : Burning

It's cold outside tonight and loud as well. There was a football game that had just ended at our school. Thanatos is behind me.

" You know what you need to do, " he said in a dead serious voice.

I walked forward and in to the football game. I found the people in my art class and singled out the girl that was the one who had called Faust names.

" What the Hell do you want Fairy?" she spoke so sure of herself.

" I want a fight. Will you do this for me? Or are you too chicken, bitch?"

She looked surprised. A guy stepped up in front of her.

" I'll fight you fairy ass. I'll kick you right to where you belong. Hell."

We stepped in front of the school and he tried to surprise me from behind. I was too quick for him though. I dodged the hit and punched him in the stomach as fast as I could. Everyone looked surprised as he fell back and writhed in pain. They stepped back and began to run into the school. The guy looked up at me and began to beg for no more, but this was not the end by far. I found the can of gasoline I had hidden and poured it into his mouth and doused his body in it. I pulled out a lighter and I heard the guy beginning to sob and beg for mercy. I lit the lighter and threw it down upon his body and saw the black and red flames burst from it. Thanatos moved it up into the air and hurled it into the school. I saw it go up in flames quickly. People began to run from it, some on fire some just screaming and others rolling on the ground trying to put out their inflamed bodies. The funny thing of all of this was that it didn't feel bad. I did not feel guilty. I did not feel like I owed these people anything. What had they ever done for me? And they were going to go to a better place right? So, in all actuallity I was granting them a favor.

Thanatos smiled at me.

" You are helping this world. Look up at the sky. "

Obeying him I looked up at the sky. The colors to my amazement were various shades of blacks and reds. How come it changed all of a sudden? I don't understand…

" These are the true colors of the sky, " Thanatos said as if reading my mind, " Long ago there was an angel who covered it up to make the people of this world happier. He was a good angel who was loved by all. He had a brother though and they loved one another in both a sexual and non-sexual way. They were the most luminous beings in the sky. A goddess bestowed unto one though beautiful wings, the colors of what the sky had once been long ago. She thought that the angel deserved them. His brother though grew very jealous of his younger brother's wings. He thought the goddess should have given the wings to him instead, so one day out of an act of pure jealousy he pushed his brother off the edge of their world, after stripping him of his wings; and the brother fell weeping tears of crimson for his brother. He had loved him dearly and didn't see why he did it, but the brother soon after years of falling to the sky found his way down to a place called Ghenna, a place which he had made from his dreams which he thought of while in the sky. He could feel nothing there decided it was the best feeling of all. That way he could not feel the love for his brother, which tore at his soul, or the hate that made him grow bitter. *You Want To Knock On Kevin's Door.* ( I did this to get 10,001 words that phrase has nothing to do with the story.) So, one day he thought he needed to…"

Thanatos stopped there and sighed as he looked up at the blinding light filling the air.

" Not again Grave…" he sighed. He sounds tired. Poor guy.

An angel like being descended from the air. He was quite beautiful. Large white wings, billowing in the wind, blackish-brown hair in a trail behind him, and dressed all in black. He had dark brown eyes, which glared down at Thanatos. It was rude of him to do so, I think. No one should look at someone as great as him, with such discontempt. His black trench coat tail and his shiny black boots landed with a thud against the ground of the school. A girl walked out from behind him and looked at Thanatos, almost sadly, in my opinion. Why was she staring so sadly, I wonder? I hope this all ends soon. I can't just abandon Thanatos, but I need to hurry back to Faust. He could awake any time soon and find me not there. What would he think? I should have left a note that said that I was going to the store or something… Oh, well too late that for now.

" Why are you here Grave? " Thanatos asked, growling.

" To stop you from taking another innocent life! Who gives you the right?! I'd like to know? These people all have families and significant others! Who gives you the right to take them away from each other!? I don't understand your logic! " Grave sneered.

Thanatos walked up to me and spoke in my ear, " I'm taking you to a better place now. You shall be with Faust with no other worries. You won't feel a thing. It's the best feeling possible."

I was entranced by his words. I didn't understand it, but I picked up Thanatos's cane and held it to my head. I could feel nothing, but numbness and the cold steel against my temple.

" Won't you die for love? " Thanatos sang. Why was he singing? It was the ultimate way to be with the one I loved though. I pulled the trigger and felt the bullet ring, but nothing else.


Part 6: Awaken


I feel it. A light. A light in my darkness…yes I remember all now. I am, Faust, the angel that made a deal with the devil. He is dead. He is dead. He is dead.




……..No More.


End Genesis 3.



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   I should be asleep, but I had to take some quizzes

I:

Your Beauty lies
in Sadness. Lonely, depressed and feeling broken.
For whatever reason, you see
this world only for the bad that it holds carrying
the burdens of yourself and
others. Some people like to be with you and your
unique vantage point when they
are down, you are someone who can sympathize with
them. But you find yourself
alone again when they seem to find a solution and
are happy again, yet you still
are stuck in this rut. Do not worry, you will make
it out at some time. Everyone
does, if you try. When you are seen all others want
to do is make your pain go
away, but that is something only you can do. You
probably keep to yourself a lot
and don't like to let people in, afraid to be hurt
again. You feel empty and
helpless and your looks reflect that, often seen
with tears in your eyes.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Earth Animal: Robin Color:
Grays, Blacks, Dark
Colors Song: Tourniquet by Evanescence
Expression:
Tearful Frown

Gemstone:
Aquamarine Mythological Creature: Spirit,
Gargoyle Sign:
Aries Planet: Mercury Hair Color:
Blue-Black Eye Color:
Gray

Quote:
"Am I too lost to be saved?"

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Dir en grey


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So, whats up with everyone? I'm listening to Chobits on my portable dvd player right now! Agh, I don't wanna have to go to school tomorrow. I hate it there most of the time. I wanna die and just remain in a dark place for awhile. I want someone to embrace me there. I don't want to know who this person is, just that they are there and that they love me. I wish it wiuld be someone like Alucard or Vicious, but it could never be them. They are fake. I want someone with wings. And who I can just remain with forever and they would always be there for me. They could always wrap their wings around me, even if they were far away. I wish I could have that. Don't take me wrong I love Chris. I'm just tired of makeing him constatly suffer and hurt. I wish I could have never existed . I wish I could stop being a demon. I want white wings now. But I'm afariad of the light. It burns my eyes. It stains me with an untrue essence. I think the dark is better. Someday I can be a good wife to him. I hope it's soon. I have confuseing emotions. But anyways if none of that made sense sorry. I'm tired so I think I'll go now and sleep! Nite-nite everyone. I hope Master Kyo-sama is all right. Chara-chan has told me of his hard times and i hope they get better. I hope Matty-chan will no be depressed. I also hope Rebecca is ok. And Bradley with his seemingly depressing post. And also my good friend Sam. She's haveing it rough with emo problems. And Kei-chan. I hope she gets to see Karou-san someday. And Hinaru...I hope he passes his exams. And Selena and Vicious 2 need to be together. And that succubus in Vicious 2's head should stop teaseing him. And well Hippygeek hasn't been by in a while, so I hope school work is not pileing up for her. And Chara-chan needs to be with Kevin. And Elke hasn't mailed me in a while. And Katie hasn't called me. Netheir has Brittany, Alisha, or Angela. And Heather I will get to hear from tomorrow at school. Sweet dreams Chris. Btw, what do you guys think of my Kurt BG? I love Kurt. R.I.P. Kurt Cobain and hide-sama. Night to all! Hugs!
~Purgatory-_-~dead and Loveing it~
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Sunday, November 14, 2004

   new chapter, post below.
Genesis 2 part 1: Detective Yume Lynch

Man what a day. Seems like people are disappearing by the handful and we are getting tons of calls. I finally solved the doll shop disappearances and well I was quite interested in what I found. It seems that everyone who had gone missing was found. The doll maker Shigeru Sashimi disappeared, but all his victims were found. They were not found in whole pieces ether. It seems many of them had been used for doll parts. No wonder they had felt and looked so human like. All the remains were buried properly, but no grave was made for Shigeru. We are still looking for him, but I seriously doubt he is alive. I just have this feeling about it all. Something very strange is going. No matter what it takes I'll solve it. Just because well..that’s my job and my passion; to help the people of this world. Staring out the window and looking at the world below I guess always makes me think that. So, many people out there need to help, yet so few of them do. But, no matter what the cost I will help the people. For our future generation.

" Hey, what are you doing?" a voice said from behind me.

Turning around swiftly I saw a pair of deep brown eyes staring down at mine. It was Kevin, my husband. I also protect the world for him. To make it safer for him because he can barely handle it as it is. He has horrible depression; but then again so I do sometimes. I believe he is rubbing off on me. His depression makes him unable to function correctly outside the house sometimes so he doesn't go out too often. He has panic attacks. He also has no job but, then again taking care of our kids, Damein, Asher, and Daemon, be a huge hassle.

" Looking out the window."

" Dinners almost done. Come on and eat. The kids are waiting at the table and they want you to help set it, " he replied shakily.

I took his trembling hand in to mine and set off for the kitchen with no further response. It was getting worse. He's shaking more and more every day.


Genesis 2: Part 2 Glass World

This world isn't real. Or at least that’s what I like to think. Maybe that’s why I became an artist. To make a better world, to make something pretty out of ugly little old me. What I really like to do though is write. Yes write. To create an illusionary world. A perfect world in my eyes, a world made of glass. You have to be careful with my world. You can't pollute it with war and you can't hurt its inhabitants or it will break. You don't want to break the world do you? My world has no rulers or dictators, or laws. None are needed because everyone there gets along with one another and no one hurts or cries. No one will ever go hungry in my world, because the glass buildings are coated with candy and icing of all sorts! The grass that grows is really pixie stick and the snow is nothing more than powdered sugar and feathers falling from the sky, ascending with perfect grace. This is my wish to the world. No one will feel any pain in my world. You never feel anything at all. Because in all it's aspects happiness in only a abstract noun and love is as well. Everyone will feel nothing. All will be as cold as ice and the moon will always hang in the teardrop sparkled sky, covered with the blood of those who oppose my ideals. Teardrops sound sad, but they are not really. They are from the people who have cried over their broken wishes and dreams, but now they are happy here. Soon all the teardrops will disappear and all the wishes and dreams shall be granted. Everyone will sing, but you never can hear the words, because in this world you are granted no voice, so that you can not hurt others with hurtful words. Soon my world will become a reality. You will have to die mother. You stand in my way of happiness as well as father. Please understand mother. Please.

End Genesis 2.

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   I liked the question mark for it is random!
But well whats going on? I hope all is good on your side of the net! But well Chris and I got in to an arguement this morning (more like I was being bitch) But now all is fine! I'm going to post a chapter of Thanatos today and maybe change the background, because gir just doesn't go with the music and the message I'm trying to convey about me through it. I'm so glad I have the net back that I could cry!! But I need to finish volume 4 of Angel Sanncturay! Actually I get to do a mythology on Sir Rosiel! ^_^ I'm alos doing a book report on Marylin Manosn!! Cool huh? Not much more going on here besides the fact that kuro-chan is here! yay! She is reading gravitation right now! Volume 8 has the most adorable picture! It's of Shuicihi with kitty ears! But well chris is alos seeing his real father today if he even shows up. It was his birthday Tuesday and h's comeing down to see him! Yay for him! But well later! Love all of you!
~Purgatory-_-~Dead and Loveing it~
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Saturday, November 13, 2004

   I'M BACK FUCKERS!!!!!!
MWHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAh!!!! I am back! After a long and argeous delay, I am finally here again! Miss me or what? Now I will have time to do all the crap I used too!! I love my new compy! And my big brother Kevin got me the 8th volume of Gravitation! yay! I'l be confused because I haven't got to read 7, but well oh well! I'll be poting my story again soon and makeing it more regular! This is the best Saturday evah! Everyonme is here where they belong and my family is back! Well, I'm gonna spend a little while on here and find a good BG for my compy! Love all of you bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Dead and Loving it~
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