Thursday, September 16, 2004

They found out I skipped......
But I'm not in trouble or nothing. I went today though and don't have to go tomorrow, because our area is flooded over. YES! No school rocks! I'm glad we don't have to go, because i have a Mythology essay on wether the Gods were a help to the Greeks and the Trojans in the Trojan War. Welp, no school and thgat means I can sleep in, but I probably will call Chris if he has to go tomorrow. no we aren't going to break up Keiko-sama! We just had a minor fight. He didn't say my art was bad. It just made me feel as if he was. This guy David (a big Redneck) in my math class called my art shit and siad I was a failure. But on the other hand Freddy gave me a hug and we played around at the end of class! He's awesome! I saw him like 4 times at the fair. He's a sweetie. Also, Brain wasn't here today!! Which ment no comments on me being bi. But well how was everyones day? I'm glad I had a good one and hope you do too!
~Purgatory-_-~Thanatos~

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Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Meow!
I skipped school today! Yay for me, huh? I didn't wanna go, because school sucks ass! Espically my goddamn bi-hateing math class. I hate those fucking dick-heads. I just hope Brandy doesn't come home early ^^'. My ass would be grass. Well, how is y'alls day been? All i've done is eat Mint chip ice cream and play FF8. I really want 4:30 to hurry up and get here. Chris and I got into a bunch of minor arguements last night. About how I should go to school at least not to get in trouble and all. Then he made me feel really bad when he said cierra's the best artist ever and he already knew that I was thinking about burning my drawings and all and I was depressed, because the art everyone else seems to kick the hell outta mines. I'm pissed and worried about my future, because no way can I be a animator or a writter. I got really depressed. And still am. This world is just a pain in the ass. But anyways with what little time i have left i'm off to check your sites.
~purgatory-_-~Thanatos~
ps. My favorite song from the Korn album is...um...well probablu Follow the Leader or Dead Bodies.
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Dead Bodies lyrics, because thats the second best song on the Cd. And it's very true.
Come on, step inside, and you will realize.
Tell me what you need, tell me what to be.
What's your vision? You'll see, what do you expect of me?
I can't live that... lie.
Hate!
I sing my words, I'm fucked at dealing,
with your life's dead bodies everywhere.
You!
Really want me to be a good son. Why?
You make me feel like no one.
Let me strip the plain, let me not give in.
Free me of your life, inside my heart dies.
Your dreams never achieved, don't lay that shit on me.
Let me live my... life.
Hate!
I sing my words, I'm fucked at dealing,
with your life's dead bodies everywhere.
You!
Really want me to be a good son. Why?
You make me feel like no one.
You want me to be, something I can never ever be!
I sing my words, I thought that didn't,
with your life's dead bodies everywhere.
You!
Really want me to be a good son. Why?
You make me feel like no one.
Dead bodies everywhere!

That is a kick ass song. God, I'm so glad I have this CD again. Well, i have good news! SAM ISN'T DEAD!!! SHE'S BACK! Seems the rumor wasn't true, but I heard from her today. I cried. I was really happy! Well, to all the comments thank-you and how do you guys like the new look? Thanks to Hinaru for the html thing! *gives Hinaru a hug* Yes, Keiko we all believe you are on drugs j/k! I missed the bus again today! >< But I drunk bad milk as well and now my stomache hurts a little! Funny thing is my freind Chara did the same thing! We always seem to get sick at the same time! I heard from my mom today too! Well, tell me about your day?
~Purgatory-_-~Thanatos~
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Monday, September 13, 2004

Random Quizzes from Kei-chan, because she always has the best ones...

Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
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You're Kyo ... You Cute Person You!


Which Jrocker Matches your Personality
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aw seems like only two people read my story ;_; well actually Niko already did and so did Saeius, but he's gone now
Hi everyone! Big brother Matty/DemonMessiah is gone but Hinaru and Vicious 2 is still here! I hope all is well in your worlds, but all is not good in mine. I missed the bus and can't get ahold of my mom. I can't call Brandy b/c if I do it will be like getting hell on earth. If I miss school today though i have detion! Also I have a few words I'd like to say. My good freind WitheredPassion/ otherwise known as Sam, has supposedly comitted suicide. Saeius told me of this and I feel that she is gone. Plus Saeius has deleted his MYo account. I think thats because she is really gone. I anyone knows her and that she is alive and well please contact me because it's really important. Sam was one of my first and best freinds on this site. I'd like to know if she is alive or not. i didn't really think about it, because she has a habit of dissaperaing and reappearing here. I had to look at her site one more time though. I couldn't help it. It's the only thing of Sam's I have except a couple of emails. I cried and yes I know it's babiyish, but I gave the computer a hug. But anyways, I went to the fair yesterday and it sucked ass. went to see the Battle of the Bands, but only got to watch like 20 minutes of it. I couldn't even mosh, b/c I had to look after my little cousins. When Dieing Daily sai, everyone sitting down please come up to the front! I died. I wanted to so bad. It sucked. Well, I'll type more later though, bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Thanatos~
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Saturday, September 11, 2004

   My short story and A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEMONMESSIAH/ BIG BROTHER MATT!!!
Rain. Rain falling gently against tall porcelain buildings and people made of stone
complexion. They didn't care nor thought a thing of the world around them or the people
that surrounded them. To them the world was just a place. To Thanatos though it had a
different meaning. The world was a place where people lived. Where people died. He
seemed to be the only one in society that noticed the death around him. When someone
died he noticed it. Like when the old man who waited every morning at the city bus stop
disappeared, he knew he had died. Even those who had conversed with him never said a
word about him after he had died. Or at least not when Thanatos was there at the stop.
The world just seemed so wrong to him. Unjust and corrupted by politics and criminals
…and that glass monster. It was as if something from a fairy tale had appeared out of
nowhere, following him and tracking him where ever he went. Numerous occasions had
occurred where he had been fighting it, trying to stop it from harming an innocent person, and
no one seemed to notice it, but him. Not even the person it was trying to attack or his
friends. No one, but he, could see that monstrosity. Often he wondered if he were the
only one alive. Maybe everyone else was dead. Maybe only the people that were really alive
could see the glass creature. He didn't know it at the time, but he would find the truth very
soon.



It was raining again in Paradine city. The streets were covered with miniature floods and herds
people. Everyone seemed to be seeking shelter from the water ravishing the streets, the lighting
possessing the sky, and the thunder screaming of injustice to the world below. Thanatos and his
friends, Grave and Purgatory were at the graveyard though. Today was a special day for
Thanatos. It was this day ten years ago that the monster made of glass killed his parents.
Two flowers were placed at the burial site, which had never been adorned with much at all.
Thanatos could not afford much with buying his medicine, which was very costly, but crucial to
his sleeping pattern. He had horrible dreams. He could never get rid of them and could never
sleep, because of them. The doctors never quite understood why he had such nightmares, but
after looking at the descriptions the young man had written down for them they could see why
anyone would have night terrors from these visions. People being beheaded in front of his eyes
Blood spraying out in numerous gushes, covering his face and body entirely. People coming
after him chaseing him out of a good nights rest. He could feel it when they hit him in his dreams
and it was very painful to him indeed. He came out of his sleep with numerous scars and
bleeding gashes. He did not even know what was the cause of the people chasing him. They
would scream things at him, but he awoke never once remembering what they things were.


Looking down at the grave below him he posed a question to his comrades.


" Why do we live?" he asked never once looking up from the remains of his parents.

" Huh? That’s an odd question, Thanatos," the girl clad in all black responded.

" I think it's to find who we really need to be with in life. It's hard to explain…" Grave said
grabbing Purgatory around the waist, her black duster smacking in the face as he grabbed her.

" We take so much from the world, but in the end we all we have to give is our lives. What is
point in doing all this if none of it is ever remembered. What is the legacy we leave behind?
What is our true genesis? And when will it all become clear? I want to know a lot of things
before I die. Like why the world works the way it does, whether I really ever existed or not
and there is so much more I need to know," Thanatos said aloud and then whispered quietly in
a voice barely audible, " And the reason why I can see it."

"Huh? What was that last part, Thanatos-kun, I didn't quite catch it," Purgatory said withering
in Graves arms playfully.

Suddenly a chill colder than death was sent up Thanatos spine. He knew it was coming. The
glass monster. It was out to seek blood again. His back tingled for an odd reason. He knew
why yet did not at the same time. It sparked something his memory. The feeling was so familiar
it hurt inside. It began to rain. Not just ordinary rain, but rain made of glass. He definitely knew it was here now. All of sudden a thousand shards of what appeared like a broken stained
glass window encircled him, freezing all else that moved around him. A figure appeared before
made purely out of what seemed like crystal clear glass. It looked almost human if it was clear
and had no really distinct details. It stared at him as Thanatos stared back at it. Golden yellow
met clear as they clashed together trying to harm each other in any way possible. Thanatos
growled demonically as the creature tried to take a slice at his head, which he barely escaped,
the monster cutting at the silver strands of hair which adorned his head. Thanatos took his cane
took his cane and pointed at the monster a small red laser aiming at the glass creatures center.
Before he could fire the creature knocked a blow to his head, blood gushing from his pores
knocking him to the ground with a huge thud.

" Shiiiii….t," Thanatos growled, his eyes becoming blurry and the objects around him becoming
indistinct and unrecognizable.

" Show yourself."


It was the last thing he heard before he became unconcious.

Thanatos opened his eyes. How long had been out of it? He stood up and brushed off the long
, black overcoat he wore. He sighed looking around at his surroundings. They did not seem
like the grave yard he was just in a second ago. Maybe someone had drug him into this place.
It was dark and ominous, with an odor which was famillar to him somehow. It smelled like
blood. Suddenly from out of the blue he began to walk. He did not know why he was walking,
or where to, but he knew he was not the one moving his legs. He was being lead up some
stairs. A familiar feeling presumed in his body. He felt as if he has been up these stairs many
times before. The trip that his body was making by itself though was coming to a halt as he
stopped in front of another stairwell. Thanatos stood there as if in a drunken stupor, dreaming,
yet in all actuality thinking, as his eyes began to glaze over with tears.


" Aiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!" a high pitched scream of a woman
resounded in his ears.

He snapped out of his thinking and rushed up the stairwell without a second's hesitation.
Somehow this all seemed so familiar to him, yet he never remembered doing any of it. He
found his way to the source of the scream. An apartment building in which he remembered
very well.

" 105…" he recited the number aloud. It was his old apartment.


He busted open the door, not even thinking of trying to use the doorknob. He stepped in and
saw his horrid memory. It was like a broken record with out end. What he saw at that moment
explained it all. A small child was standing over a massively bleeding woman, stabbing her
repeatedly in the heart. The smile upon the child's face was one of a person maddening over
with a vicious desire. Lust clouded the boys blue eyes as he stabbed the woman over and over
as if her screams and cries for mercy were cheering him on.

" Please…stop… Why ….? I…didn't mean…to hit you… I just had a little… too much to
drink… Please…. stop…I love you…son…" the woman's breath was raspy from what
seemed like many years of drinking, smoking, and drugs.


Her breathing stopped. The blood was finally settling on the floor along with her other fluids
in a mass pile. Thanatos screamed as the boy looked over at him. The black hair he had once
had, the blue eyes before they had turned a golden color, and the small patch on the boys
uniform that said " Sekichi Tomoe". It was him. He had been the one to kill his parents. Not the monster made of glass. He saw a beam of light suddenly and it blinded him. He heard the
smaller version of himself growl as he and his other looked over at the light. A being was
coming out of it. He had pristine white hair, and beautiful blue eyes, which seemed to be staring
at him to the core. His whole body seemed to be made entirely of light, yet you could tell he
a human body was what he had. Beautiful pearly white wings sprouted from his back as he
stepped toward the smaller him. He looked down at him in disdain.


" You are the son of evil. You are Death itself. Your name can no longer be one of an earthly
fashion. You shall be called, Death spirit Thanatos Geist ( authors note: Roman translation
Thanatos = Death, Geist = spirit) You cannot die though. Your sins are too harsh to be
punished by merely sending you back to that which you rule. You shall spend your life on earth.
And I shall hunt you down and let you suffer a depressive life. Your life shall atone for your
sins. And let you not remember this meeting of the hunter and the hunted!" the being screamed.

The little boy screamed as the being disappeared. Sekichi fell to the ground and Thanatos
heard one last thing.


"Mother! Mother!!!!!"


Thanatos was regaining conciousness, but only half way before he could a little boy's arms
wrap around him and he heard a scream. He felt as if his back was being ripped in two with
a blunt blade. Suddenly two elephant sized, slick black wings appeared from his back. Blood
began to drip down his side as he slid a finger down and gathered some of it up on his hand,
tasting it with his tongue. Something began to surge within his body. A new feeling was
taking over. He needed human flesh and blood. He must take them away to a phantom land
with no pain and sorrow, only a place where they could feel nothing. Nothing was the best thing
of all. You could never be happy, yet you could never be sad, so he was going to destroy this
world, the domain of Usher and take them away to Gehenna, his own paradise.


" You have finally shown yourself after all this time. I have found you at last, my little wall
trophy! Wondering why you couldn't see me before? We angels are perfect beings blessed
with the grace of god himself! No human could handle our beautiful and perfect appearance, so
you could say the best thing to compare us to is glass! Perfect like glass! It's the only thing
earthly that we are nearly close enough to, so that is the form we take once we descend to
hunt down, atrocious creatures such as yourself!" the angel said in a haughty voice.

" No," Thanatos growled, " You are mistaken. You are just like humans. We are all the same.
Filled with lust and desire and other human ambitons we create war. That is why we must feel
nothing so that we never make a mistake like you self-proclaimed angels do!"

" How dare you say such a thing!!!? In the name and grace of God I shall deliver swift justice
upon you!!!! And any ways you have no right to say anything murderer!!" the angel spoke
voice filled with a vengeful rage.

" I only did what you would have done and everyone else as well. Defend myself from an
abusive situation. I'm sure you would have done the same eventually if your mother beat you
every night."


Thanatos and the angel stared at each other. Thanatos made the first move as the angel turned
to dodge it in advance.

"Treacherous demon!" the angel cried striking him in the head, landing a direct blow.


Thanatos fell to the ground with a loud crash, his head splitting in half blood pouring from it.
It was all over in a matter of seconds. Thanatos eyes rolled in to the back of his head and the
angel let out a cry of victory as he congratulated himself. His wings and entire body turned back
in to glass and he began walking back.


Suddenly a shatter of glass could be heard. The world froze and black feathers could be seen
all around once it began to move again.


People looked up in awe and some began to shot obscene words as the feathers doused their
cars completely. No one noticed that a man with long silver hair and black overcoat was getting
up from out of no where. The world was still the same. No one noticed when anyone died
and Thanatos Geist disappeared. No one remembered him at all not even those whom he called comrades. Then many murders began. No one could explain why. All they found at the
crime scenes were the body and a single black feather.




Hope you guys like it!! Well, today was an allright day. Very hetic, but with a car and 40 minute drive what wouldn't be? Today is DemonMessiah's birthday!!! It's his 21!! AWWWW I'm so happy for my older brother! He's also going to see Rebecca!! So, be happy for it is a moment to rejoice! Well, how was everyone's days?
~Purgatory-_-~Thanatos~
ps Do you think I should make the story into a seires? I was thinking about doing it….

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YOSHIKI!!!!!! SQYEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

You are Yoshiki! Elegant with a touch of artistic
abilities and very mannerful, you are
hard-working but sometimes so much that you are
dubbed a "workaholic". But we can
deal with that right? Right?! Argh! There you
go with the caustic temper! (Yes, even the most
beautiful and artistic musician has a
temper...teehee) Oh and speaking of which, are
you ever going to finish your Violet UK
project??


Which member of X Japan do you resemble?
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I LOVE YOU YOSHIKI!!! I WANT TO BEAR YOUR CHILDREN!!!! I'M YOUR BIGGEST FAN!!!!!!!
~purgatory-_-~Thanatos~Chris's Kitty~
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Friday, September 10, 2004

Hi everyone! I'm a kitty!
Meow! I wore my kitty ears to school today and it was cool. i didn't get too many reactions. All were positive except for the guys in my math class. They really don't like me. They love to pick on me and heather because we re bi. It's really pissing me off and i'm about to send a frucking formal request to the teacher for pregidous harrasement. It's pissing me the hell off. If I was a hott bi person then they probably would have no problem with me, but I have to be ugly. Thank you to GTK for the wonderful Alucard picture! I have it printed out and in my binder! I talked to the coolest dude ever to step foot in Mythology class too! He's so awesome and he's cute too, but since i already have a boyfreind none of that matters anyways. He likes Boogiepop Phantom and he was "FINALLY! SOMEONE ELSE WHO KNOWS WHAT IT IS!" it was awesome, becuase one of his grades was a K/20 and it was funny. He's really cool and hilarous is an understatement and from what I've seen a good artist as well. I made another freind in myth though! Robert is cool! He says Vicious deserved to die though and he said that I would fit in well with the jappanese! Such an honor! I need to get Heather kitty ears too though! Heather is cool as hell! Well, tell me about your days! And does anyone konw where i can aquire creepy music for my site. Like stuff on Malkavs and Vampyress's? Thank you all for your support! It was much needed and i'll try not to do anything stupid again, but I said that before and well look what happened. Well, have fun and later!
~purgatory-_-~Thanatos~Chris's Kitty
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Wednesday, September 8, 2004

more random quizzes and a post!

Toshiya is your slave...the wild sexy beast has
been tamed, and your the one to do it! Lucky
you, just don't touch the lips!


J-Rock Claim Quiz -Who would be YOUR slave???
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Howdy everyone whats goin on? I didn't go to school today, because well...we won't talk about it. I was stupid today. Lucky me all the knives in te house are blunt let's say. i couldn't cut myself, but barely. I know I was stupid, but when i saw the big shiny knife...it's hard to explain how I feel. I needed to know that I was still alive. But I don't want to be. I'm just tired of a routine life. Am I here only to work and be someone's bitch? I'm really pissed at this guy Joey too. He's useing one of my best freinds Kevin for his money and to watch his kid!! And it's gets worse! They are brothers!! Chara-chan and I are trying to get him on myO but he has no internet access, but his art is so awesome!! He should try entering the next riseing stars of manga contest! he'd win for sure! Well, tell me about your days! And big hugs to hippygeek, Hinaru, Kei-chan, and everyone else!!! Well, bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Thanatos~
ps I'm glad I got shinya and die!!
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Tuesday, September 7, 2004

Hi everyone!
Well, I just finished my short story project! Yay! I actually quite enjoy it! I'll post it on here later. How was everyones day? Mines been pretty avrage. Not too good not too bad, but it could be worse! I'm getting my Gir backpack this week! Yay! GIR! I love Gir and his piggy! Well, this was short, but tell me how life is going! bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Thanatos~
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