Sunday, August 1, 2004

   I got to see mah GRAVE!!!^_^
I got to see Chris today!! I'm so happy I think I might dance!!! But maybe not... I hope everyone likes the changes I made in the site. I'm going to try to find the main theme to Chaos Legion to bestow my site with. Well, how was everyones day? Mine was absolutey GREAT!! *grins* I got to go skateing with Shawn and Jennifer and Chris and Brandy and Luke(Gir00)and it was fun!! We skated(though there was little skateing involved apon my part. Can't balance!^^')for a long while. There wasn't too many people at the roller rink and we had fun though there were some people mainly all kids younger than Chris and myself, but there was one old man skateing out there and he was funny. He had the most serious face skateing to a bunch of love songs!!And he was doing splits and twirls and stuff while doing so! I also got GUNGRAVE(one of my all time favorite vidoegames) voulme 1 dvd from Chris and Chaos Legion!! Now maybe I will finally be able to make it through the stage I've been suck on forvever, since I have more of a time to play. Kuro-chan has the game and said from the first day she got it that she'd let me borrow it and well today she hasn't let me borrow it even though she's not playing it!! I can't wait to watch Gungrave though!! I've been stareing in awe at the shiny cover forever it seems! I also ate at Buger King today and if you've ever been to one with in an indoor playground then...let's just say I bended the rules a bit...8 and under I am not^_^! I got up there and played Metal Gear Solid in the tunnels and stuff!!
" I AM SOLID SNAKE!! FEAR ME FOR A HAVE A CHEESEBURGER!! MWHAHAHAH!!" Chris and I also had a little fun when we got home...hehehehe and let's just say someone lost something in a way...hehehe! It was actually quite funny...I won't talk about it in public though!! Well, I'm off now to visit your sites!! Well, Bai!! And I made a new freind today!! XCold EmbersX!! Yay! freind!!
~Purgatory-_-~Keep the Faith~
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Saturday, July 31, 2004

   hentai=idiotic titles!!
Hello you guys!! Today is Saturday morning!! Yay!! And I am so bored!! So, bored that in a desperate attempt to find entertainment, after DemonMessiah got off IM, that I went a huntin for pictures to draw!! When I should have called Chris I didn't want to disturb him though....;_; I'll will be seeing him today though which is always the hilight of my week. And also get the first dvd of Gungrave!! Yipeee!! Gungrave is one of my favorite seires of videogames! so, um expect background to change soon?^^' Well, tonight when I was looking for pictures to draw, an idea filtered it's way into my tiny brain, it's said "Hey, you!! Asshole with the hair!! Draw some nakie chicks!!" Willing to obey I hurried on over to anipike for the first time in a while. I didn't really know where to really find any good yuri pictures(well actually I do) or anything so I just thought I might look for stuff that was in a hentai series! And the laughter I found was uncomprhendible!! First off I found some hillarous titles!! Like for instance my sexaul Harresment and Titalous adventours. I couldn't help, but laugh and think who the F*** gave them the idea? Well, I ran into something famillar along the way:Twin Angels/Twin Dolls. Grave had seen it and was telling me about how much he laughed at it and well, I finally found a picture of what him and Kev call the penis monster!! It was hilarious!! Well, I'm tired so I must leave you all!!
~purgatory-_-~Keep the Faith~
ps anyone have any other hilarous titles i can laugh at?
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Friday, July 30, 2004

   PARTAH!!!!
Today we shall all PARTAH!!
*baloons and streamers and a bright pink colored hat for Niko!!*
Partah hats for all!!! Let's kick back have fun forget about our woes and get drunker than HELL!!!...For those of you who want too that is!! Personally i'm going to stay sober for the night!!
Special Hugs to Big Bro!!(DemonMessiah), Grave(I love you)!,
Rayea!!(yipiee we finally can have our partah!!!), Kira 127(let's have naked Johnny Depp!!), Duo Rocks(Naked Duo!!), ChainedAngel(!!!Don't have worries for a day and just party away!!), and everyone else!!! Also check out Reya's site where more partying is!! What should the party song be? I mean like an athem? What is the soundtrack for this party!!?? Another thing....for a special event let's play pin-the-tail-on-the-bad-anime-character!! Tell me who the anime character shall be and later well, we take turns pining the tail and we'll annouce the winner later!! We also need a bad actor pinata and I say the Olsen twins!! I'm sure big brother can lead them here with the smell of cocaine!! We'll tell me what else we should do? I'll be updateing through out and well let's have fun!!
~Purgatory-_-~IT'S HAMMER TIME!!!(Sorry couldn't resist!!!~^) Also guest starring Mr.T:"I PITY THE FOO!!!" and anyone else?
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survey thingy, I got from phenoixClawith!!

What time are you starting this?:	11:22
Name?:	Lynnsey
Nicknames?:	Purgatory, Lynns, Shini-chan, sweetie,
Date of birth?:	Apirl 10, 1989
Sex?:	chickie
Height?:	Shorter than Chara....i dunno?
Eye color?:	Brown
Where were you born?:	Knoxville, TN i think
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?:	I haven't had a birthday cake in a while, I think13
Pets?:	Cooca, Tiger, Whitie, Orageny, Silvery,Crissy, Pinkie,(kitties)
Hair color?:	..brownish-blond and frizzy
Piercings?:	none
Town you live in?:	knoxville
Favorite foods?:	...cheese
Ever been to Africa?:	nope, don't wanna go ethier
Been toilet papering?:	yup, once and will be again this year
Love someone so much it made you cry?:	YES
Been in a car accident?:	yes
Croutons or bacon bits?:	mmmmm...bacon
Favorite day of the week?:	Saturday(I get to see Chris and Shawn and Jenny!)
Favorite resturant?:	....Great American Steak House&Buffet
Favorite flower?:	SnapDragons, oddly colored Roses, and lilies
Favorite sport to watch?:	don't like to watch Hockey, but LOVE to play
Favorite drink?:	...Sobe's Courage
Favorite ice cream flavor?:	Resses
Warner Bros. or Disney?:	Disney
Favorite fast food restuarant?:	...Arbys
Carpet color in your bedroom?:	Blue
How many times did you fail your driver's test?:	haven't took it yet.
Whom did you get your last email from?:	....Dreaya or Yaoi's writter association or Kira
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?:	Hottopic/Waldens
What do you do most often when you are bored?:	watch Family Guy or listen to Cd's
Most annoying thing to say to me?:	Shizznizz
Bedtime?:	4 or 5 in the morning
Favorite TV show?:	South Park, Family Guy, Mad TV,Lupin the 3rd or anyother anime
Last person you went out to dinner with?::	...Brandy
Been out of country?:	...nope
Believe in magick?:	yup
Ford or Chevy?:	...wtf? Ford I guess.
What are you listening to right now?:	Guns n' Roses "Paradise City'
Have you ever failed a grade?:	nope
If you have, what grade did you fail?:	nope
Do you have a crush on someone?:	nope
Do you have a bf/gf?:	YES
If so, what is their name?:	Chris /Grave
How long have you been together?:	3 months
What are you wearing right now?:	Black shirt and jeans by tripp(hottopic stuff)
Would you have sex before marriage?:	already have.
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?:	...I think....
Are you a virgin?:	nope.
Do you smoke?:	nope.
Do you drink?:	on occasion
Are you ghetto?:	DEFINETLY NOT!
Are you a player?:	NEVER
What are your favorite colors?:	Black, Silver, Blue, Crimson, Gold,
What is your favorite animal?:	Wolf, kitty
Do you have any birthmarks?:	...I dun think so.
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?:	once or twice by my dad
Who do you talk to most on the phone?:	Chris or Chara
Have you ever been slapped?:	...I think
Do you get online a lot?:	yup
Are you shy or outgoing?:	shy
Do you shower?:	YES
Do you hate school?:	Of course, I want to watch it burn.
Do you have a social life?:	yes
How easily do you trust people?:	....all depends on who they are
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?:	Yes.
Would you ever sky dive?:	Nope, I'm afraid of heights
Do you like to dance?:	nope
Have you ever been out of state?:	yes
Do you like to travel?:	yes
Have you ever been expelled from school?:	nope
Have you ever been suspended from school?:	yes
Do you want to get out of your hometown?:	YES
Are you spoiled?:	by Chris
Are you a brat?:	nope
Have you ever been dumped?:	once
Have you ever gotten high?:	used to.
Do you like snapple?:	yes
Do you drink a lot of water?:	no
What toothpaste do you use?:	aquaFresh or whatever Brandy buys
Do you have a cell phone?:	nope
Do you have a curfew?:	nope
Who do you look up to?:	Marylin Manson, kurt Cobain, Hajime Yadate, Shun.
Are you a role model?:	probaly not
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?:	nope
What name brand do you wear the most?:	....Express Jeans
What kind of jewelry do you wear?:	necklaces and wristbands
What do you want pierced?:	nose/eyebrow
Do you like takin pictures?:	nope
Do you like gettin your picture taken?:	NO
Do you have a tan?:	notta
Do you get annoyed easily?:	yes
Have you ever started a rumor?:	probably
Do you have your own phone or phone line?:	no
Do you have your own pool?:	no, but theres one down from the trailer
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?:	boxers
Do you have any siblings?:	yes
Have you ever been played?:	no
Have you ever played anyone?:	no
Do you get along with your parents?:	Definetly not.
How do you vent your anger?:	Sometimes
Have you ever ran away?:	tried to
Have you ever been fired from a job?:	no
Do you even have a job?:	no, wish I did.
Do you daydream a lot?:	YES
Do you have a lot of ex's?:	....yes.....ashamed of it too.
Do you run your mouth?:	probably
What do you want a tattoo of?:	Vicious and the Grim Reaper
What do you have a tattoo of?:	nothing...yet..
What does your ex bf/gf look like?:	ugly.
What does your most recent crush look like?:	i don't have one, I gotta boyfreind!!
Whats her/his name?:	......no crush
Have you ever been bitched out?:	YES, tons of times
Are you rude?:	not intentionally
What was the last compliment you recieved?:	I love you
Do you like getting dirty?:	...hehehe, of course!
Are you flexiable?:	maybe.
What is your heritage?:	Scottish Irish German Indian, crossed with a hobo
What is your lucky number?:	6
What does your hair look like right now?:	Curly and frizzy
Could you ever be a vegetarian?:	nope I abhor vegeies
Describe your looks?:	UGLY
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?:	Black
Would you ever date someone younger than you?:	NEVER
Would you ever date someone older than you?:	I always do.
When was the last time you were drunk?:	a year ago.
How many rings until you answer the phone?:	one or 3
Have you ever been skinny dipping?:	in the bathtub
If yes, when was the last time?:	a couple of days ago
When was the last time you went on a date?:	....I dunno
Do you look more like your mother or father?:	father, so says everyone
Do you cry a lot?:	sometimes
Do you ever cry to get your way?:	no
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?:	Rubber Piggy!! Why!!??? I loveid you piggy!! I loveid YOooooU!
Are you the romantic type?:	yes.
Have you ever been chased by cops?:	...I don't remember...
What do you like most about your body?:	Nothing
What do you like least about your body?:	Everything
When did you have your first crush?:	......3rd grade
When was the last time you threw up?:	a few days ago
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?:	dark hair, so brunnetes
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?:	yes
What about cleavage?:	of course!
Is your best friend a virgin?:	yes.
Have you ever fucked someone up?:	yes
Have you ever been fucked up?:	yes
What theme does your room have?:	stars at brandys, anime at my parents house
What size show do you wear?:	7
What is your screen name on AIM?:	M18Brn
How are you feeling right now?:	depressed...
When was the last time you were at a party?:	a while back, but Rayea and me are having one tomorrow!
Have you ever given a lapdance?:	...that's a secret
Have you ever recieved one?:	hehehehehehe
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?:	tons
What is one of your bad qualilties?:	being depressed often and screwing up alot.
What is one of your good qualilties?:	I'm freindly!
Would you marry for money?:	Nope!
What do you drive?:	a box
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?:	nethier
So?:	......whatever
Well?:	MEOW!
When was the last time you cried in school?:	when my ex-boyfreind broke up with me....
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?:	Absolutey.
What kind of music do you like?:	Rock, Classical, Metal, Death Metal, ambience
Would you ever bungee jump?:	no way!!
What is your worst fear?:	what lingers in the back of my mind and my dreams.
Would you ever join the army?:	no
Do you like cows?:	no
If you were to die today, what would you do?:	go get laid and tell Chris that I love him a thousand times and try to chat with everyone to say good-bye.
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?:	Thus falls Ceaser...kidding, Come and Take me because I've been waitingfor you since I was born...
Do you like to party?:	YES!!
Hearts or broken hearts?:	hearts.
Moons or stars?:	moon
Coke or pepsi?:	coke
Favorite scent?:	smell of Chris
Favorite band?:	Duel Jewel, Nirvana, Meatallica, Korn
Would you ever dye your hair red?:	maybe
How many languages can you speak?:	......i dunno....english some of other random ones
What time are you finishing this?:	....I dunno

Long Survey About Yourself brought to you by BZOINK!

So how has everones night been? I still feel depressed.....but bleh, i'll be over it soon.... So if you wanna talk about anything, IM at M18Brn. Or comment. Well, bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Keep the Faith~
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Thursday, July 29, 2004

.................
*sits on floor crying, huging stuffed Seifer sockdoll*
Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can't be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filing me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now He's gone
No one but me can save myself, but it to late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death Greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye
~Fade to Black, Metallica
*cries more*
~Purgatory-_-`Keep the Faith~
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Just thoughts on my mind....
*sigh* I was listening to Nirvana last night and reading this small little biography thing on Kurt Cobain. it made me so sad. I wish he could have been happier. It would be nice if he was alive today. But someone said this to me once"What if he were alive today? What would their succes be like?" I think it would stil be going strong. Kurt was unlike most of todays singers that sing prewritten songs. He wrote his own songs(well except for Man who Sold the World(David Bowie remake)and Smells like Teen Spirt(wrote by the entire band)) He sung those songs with emotion, because they were mostly about the events in his life and what he believed in. I turned on Linkin Park today, which don't get me wrong is a great band and all, but I don't think they are as good as they used to seem to be to myself. After I started listening to Nirvana for these last few weeks over and over again, I feel diffrent about some of these singers/bands. Sure they sing well and all that, but that's all they are. Just a voice. When Kurt sings you can feel the sadness and pain behind his words. My freind told me that once and well now I know what she meant. Another great singer is Manson. I would have loved to hear a Manson/Cobain duet. but enough of my ....stuff and on to you guys!!! How was everyones day? Hopefully it was pretty good! I just woke up and well....I'm eating Honeycomb. I haven't felt like eating, but I won't let myself stop and get sick again, so dn't worry Grave. I'll eat. I feel like a ton of bricks hit me, that or I'm very stoned....
But I'm not stoned. Well, everyone farewell, enough of my rambling and now I'm off to your sites!! bai!
~Purgatory-_-~Keep the Faith~
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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Good Morning/part of afternoon!
So, how does everyone like the changes to the site...if you've noticed them yet. I changed the background music to testament's theme(Blood stained Lineage) from Guilty Gear X. I also changed the background for my intro to my hero Maryiln Manson!! I'll change it to Johnny Depp in a while for Kira 127 and all others that don't like mariyln I know a lot of you probably don't... How has everyones morning been? Good hopefully. I'm tired than ....well profainity on a stick, but after this I'll probably vist your sites and then go to bed or call Grave!! Well, better hop on over to your sites before the mob of Morman's down the steeet kill me for not being part of their religon and not believeing in God and such!
I LOVE YOU GRAVE!!
~Purgatory-_-
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Hello!!
Wow it's late!! If anyone is up AIM me at M18Brn or something if you wanna talk!! I'm bored and if you wanna read the second chapter of Teacher Complex it's below this post!!! Hugs to Rayea Kagome Chan! And hello and hugs to DemonMessiah! And everyone else who is up this late!! Well, bai and I will post more later!!!
~Purgatory-_-~Eternal Snow falling on a boy with Black Wings~
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004

   Teacher Complex chapter 2!!
Teacher Complex: Chapter 2: Li Hudson

Well, I think today will be a good day! Always start out positive and good things shall come to you, I suppose. I finally get to interact with my new students! And the bus is here! Finally! The buses in American were always pretty on time. The buses in Japan must have to pick up more travelers though. The doors flung open, as I stepped on to the conjoining steps. I looked around at a dozen-uniformed students, they all looked almost the same, except for a few black students. I was suprised by this. I didn't know that they would all look alike so much. I was considered Asian, but nothing as much as them! I looked around once more scanning the bus for any sort of an empty seat, but I found none. Then I looked beside of me. The only seat without three people in it. It was the foremost front seat too. I looked down at the owner who was starring contently out the window with a plastered frown on her face. She was very beautiful in my opinion, so why did she have a reason to frown like that? She looked like none of the others on this bus. The top of her uniform was torn and tattered. It looked like she did it intentionally too for the strips was going in a length like pattern. On here arms were black pieces of lengthy cloth, which looked they tied down somewhere near the end. Her uniform was died black and red and it was covered in anime and band buttons and pins near the bottom and on those long cloth things. I could see them on the back, but I could tell they were on the front as well. Her skirt was also torn, but that didn't look as intentional as her top. I wonder how that happened? I stared at her some more trying to get a better look at her face in the bus window. She had the most beautiful deep brown eyes. I felt like I could drown in them just by looking at them. Her hair was tied back in a ponytail and was brown as well, but wild and curly. It looked like she took care of it though. I couldn't help, but stare at her until she turned around and looked at me. I had to sit by her. I had to know more about her. Even if she was a student.

"Excuse me Miss? May I sit with you?" I said trying to sound confident. I get really awkward around girls I like. I'm just awkward period though.

She stared at me and began to blush. Aw that's so cute! If there's anyway to make a girl cuter make her shyer. I like shy girls. They remind me of myself. I began to stare back at her. God I could just stare at her all day. I thought we stared at each other for about 5 minutes (probably more than that) and then my big mouth had to opened say the first dumbass thing that came to mind.

"Um, is there something on my face? Is something wrong, do you not want me to sit with you?" I said stupidly. Please say that you want me to sit with you!! Please!!! I don't know how I lived up until this moment! Not to see your angelic face would be cruelty to my beating heart!

"No, no, it's not that.... Sorry I was just zoning out there it happens to me sometimes. Of course you can sit with me." She said with a beautiful smile on her face.

I took my seat beside her as she moved her backpack into her lap. I had to know her name. I wouldn't be able to breathe another second without knowing her name!

"Oh, miss what's your name? I never did ask." I questioned almost holding my breath that she would answer.

"Oh, it's Sakano Miyazaki. Pleased to meet you.," she said extending a hand to me.

I took her hand in my own. It was so small and it was perfect. It was very pale like the rest of her skin. I could imagine holding that hand during a kiss and suddenly, I felt "my little friend" begin to come out to say hello.

"It's a pleasure to meet you Miss Sakano Miyazaki. My name is Li Hudson." I said almost stuttering trying to sound confident. I'm glad I didn't.

I wanted so badly just to give her a kiss as I stared at her black lipstick lips. They would fit perfectly against mine. I didn't want anything else, but maybe a hug from her. And maybe for her to feel the same way as I did. But she couldn't. I'm just a smelly old teacher.
*note*(Li actually age is 24. Sakno is seventeen about to turn eighteen.)

I stopped for a minute. Wait....I have just fallen for a student...? I though about it for a second. Until a paper wad hit my back. And I heard the yelling.

"Hey, Sakano!! Why don't you just take your American trash music and hall it down to the alternate high school!!"

"Yeah, Sakano you ugly whore!!! Stupid girl! You know what you did!"

I could feel the paper wads and other objects hitting me on the back. I looked over at Sakano who was curled up in her seat. She looked as if she was about to cry. She was whispering something. I couldn't make it out though over the drivers and children's laughter and jeering. I had the urge and so I did it. I covered her body with my own, trying to protect her from some of the heavier objects. Why are they being so cruel? What did she do to them? I don't get it. I guess I'll have to find out this story on my own or ask the other students. Suddenly, I felt a great pain hit my back. It was someone's science book. If that would have hit her in the back of the neck it could have given Sakano a horrible injury….more than just a bruise though more like….I don't want to think about it. This has to stop. Nobody else is going to stop it. I don't think teachers have, but very little authority on a school bus, but I'll have to give it a try. Putting on my most bad assed teacher face I stood up and screamed.

"Stop this right now!!! Or I'll suspend you all! This direct violation of the bus conduct rules!! And how could you be so cruel to a fellow student?" I said my face turning red with anger.

"But the bus driver lets us…." A girl in the back began to speak up.

"I don't care if you the bus driver gives you permission or not!! This is not just inappropriate, but incredibly cruel! She wasn't doing anything to you! She was just sitting here!"

I could feel Sakano's eyes look up in amazement. And maybe I could see a bit of disappointment, but I think she was relieved to see that that had stopped.

"Thank-you," She said looking down at the floor of the bus.

I felt the bus come to a sudden halt. The kids began to stand up and so did Sakano. We had arrived at the school.

Chapter 2 end.

I will be posting more later!
~Purgatory-_-~Eternal Snow falling on a boy with Black Wings~
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A poem my cousin wrote!
Mourning My Love

It's been three weeks since you passed away and though I know it's not it feels like the pain is here to stay.

Soon it will be pur anniversary, how I wish you were here to celebrate it with me. On that special day we said till death do us part, I wonder now if you knew that vow would break my heart.

I think of our dreams that will never be and that now all I'm left with are meories.

Although right now we are apart, forever you will be in my heart. I know that life must go on until we met again and for you I will carry on and love you till my end.

By: Brandy Miller
July 25, 2004

Is tht not a great poem? I really loved it, so I thought I might share it and some good news with everyone! I'm happy to stay that I'm going to stay with Brandy!! Yay!! I will be working things out with my dad though. He will probably get concuiling. I will be going to Karns High School this year with my cousin Jessica as well. I don't really like her all that much, but I have feeling that we might become closer or something. I don't want to be going to school with the jerks that live down the road from me,but it can't be helped. The second chapter of Teacher Complex will soon be on the way! Yay, right? Well, bai everyone!
~purgatory-_-~Eternal Snow falling on a boy with Black Wings~
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