Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Rejection
I feel like I've been totally rejecting my life lately.
Things have gotten better yet worse. I could never figure out how to do a good enough layout and whats worse is that my internet is very slow and now that I want to re-do the site, I have to wait again.
But I'm going to be around a lot more I swear.
My life right now exists only to serve people and only to simply exist and help others. I'm trying to read the Bible again, lo and behold, because I feel religously empty without some sort of defined religion.
Is this right?
Love,
me
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Saturday, August 25, 2007

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<3
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Saturday, July 21, 2007

Data Drain.
I'm reconstructing this place from the neck up.
I'm going to start out with a pre-made layout and then work my way up learning what things do and how to make my own.
In others, I'm going to start posting again.
But there's going to be a drastic change in the number of people on my friend's list.
Love,
Kitten
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Tuesday, July 3, 2007

The end of the line?
I think I'm going to quit the otaku.
Yep.
I haven't made a final decision yet, but it's tenative. I won't delete my profile. I'll just leave and not come back.
The people here have been good to me, but I don't think that anyone here really conciously thinks of one another. I mean, all of you may comment, but none of you usually comment unless I comment you first. I think that's really stupid.
I frankly think none of you think of each other as real friends. I think you just want people to comment you, so that you feel important. I find this useless. I want some "real" friends. Not people that occasionally care or read my posts.
I'm tired of the superfical-ness of VF.
I'm tired of this place being filled with people who pretend to care.
I'm tired of the spam of myspace.
Livejournal is a good place for ranting, but no one comments, so it's basically the same as here at times.
I think I'm leaving for good this time. Maybe if I can find somewhere where the people are a bit better to each other, and think of them as real people and not just comments on a post or entries as a guestbook, I'll come back and post it.
None of you will probably really read this, nor will any of you really ever care. I might still go to your sites, and comment, but I probably won't post here anymore. I don't know.
I'm still thinking about it.
Prove to me otherwise, and I'll be amazed.
-Lynnsey
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Sunday, July 1, 2007

Finally a real post.


Current Music: "Dressed For Friend Requests"-Drop Dead, Gorgeous; "Obscure"-Dir En Grey; "I Really Hate You"-Insane Clown Posse
Current Mood: Agh, period cramps. :/

Well the last couple of days have been interesting to say the least.
Got to go over to Andy's and spend the night possibly for the last time. It was really great. We always have fun :D
My mom's been yelling at me a lot. I guess I see her point as to why she would be. I've not been feeling good and she's constantly getting into it with me over little things. Not letting me do the whole "18" is freedom thing. I don't want to be bound to them anymore.
I told my mom about me and Andy having sex, because I thought it was the right thing to do. I guess I was wrong, I should have kept lieing to her about it. She got all riled up and said that she wouldn't tolerate me doing that. It's my body, I'll do whatever I want with it. You have no legal binding to me anymore, I said. She said her house, her rules. But you know what? We're not living at her house. We're living at Debbies. I'm not a child, by legal standards anymore, so I'm tired of being treated like one.
My 18th birthday was horrible. I didn't get anything, well 20.00 I guess I should be thankful for that. No one else got me anything truthfully, but Andy. He gave me his huge Slipknot hoodie and something better than that *wink,wink*.
So, in all being 18 sucks. Unless you have money. Which then for you, I guess it will kick ass, stfu.
And another thing I hate about my mom is that it's never enough. I clean, and clean some more, and she acts like I did nothing. She cleans and she glorifies it to the max. I guess I'm not a model daughter eh?
And my dad told me last night, I was the worst mistake he ever made. How, I fucking love them all. ^^
Well, I know my dad didn't mean it at least I think he didn't. He's acting strangely nice now....
Who knows with them anyways? One minute they love me, the next they think of me as some sort of a MEGA SATAN.
Lawl last week Andy's mom asked if we had anymore condoms left. And then she made a joke about them not fitting. And the truth is, is that they don't fit on him...but it was embaressing to tell his mom that. So, then she asked if we needed to take it to the next size (Magnum, I think, I know that's what the box said because I sat and laughed at it for a while.) and Andy got so embaressed by what she said next!
"Masturbate with them on to see if they don't leak"
LAWLOMGITWASGREAT. Andy hid under the covers and his face was like red. 8D XD
And well now my Andy has a slight boost in self-esteem thanks to the size of his erm...condoms to put it a bit nicely.
How come it is that all guys are so low on their penis size? Are they all really that small? And what is it with that small penis=asian guys. Is that true? I don't know....but I want to know.
I shouldn't post about things like this, but eh this is like my mind making a log of itself at the moment. So, don't read if you can't handle it I guess.
:p
But well Westley has been through an incredible betrayl. I talked to him a lot last night, and he said something about wanting to cut himself, just to hurt something, to change it. I don't want him to do that... I care about him a lot. He's a good friend. It made me feel all mushy inside when he said I was a good friend, because when he needed me I was always there. :D
I think I want to be a psychatrist. I want to help people with their problems and make them happier. Or maybe a social worker.
But I'm not smart enough to do that kyah.
And Stephanie made me a sign!:




I feel loved. I need to find some paper and a few pens to do hers. :D
We got to talk a lot this week. It made me really happy for some reason. It aroused some old feelings of lovey-ness that's for sure. But truthfully these feelings never went away.
But I get to go to the mall with Andy tomorrow to see a movie! :D That should be fun. :)
New pictures of me btw....

And here's Charlie:

Edit:
Got back from watching America's Got Talent. I like the Glamazons. I have a thing for the more volutptuos ladies if you catch my drift. :D
DON'TJUDGEME!!!!
It's something that not many people know about me. Skinny girls just aren't my thing, although by skinny I mean like say 98-120 lbs. I also have a big thing for those smart indies girls. I like someone with a sense of romance and a good taste in clothes, music, and hair. I like girls with pretty blue eyes, and I prefer brunettes in a way. :3 Oh and they have to like anime and video games.
Why am I writting this again? @___@

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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Pictures!!!

Current music: "Aura", "A Stray Child"-See Saw(.//hack: SIGN OST); "Please Don't Remember"-The Flashbulb
Current Mood: Blank.

I decided today I would be going with pictures for a post.
Beware for there are a lot of them.

Starting with:
My little brother. He has low self-esteem...but he's pretty! What do you guys think?



From the first time he dyed his hair. I hate the fact that the VF watermark is there. But these pics aren't on this computer, they were uploaded from John's.



Before the blue.


What he looks like now.

Now for kitties!~


one of the first pics ever.


Another picture from where they were probably a few weeks.


Something funny Andy made. The pose was too perfect.



Lawl, Vader has a white spot on his tummy. He's my kittie. <3~


Taquito is being very cute with his little hands in the air.


Sleepy kitties and Doughnuts tail.


Recent picture of Socks and Vader.


A sleepy Fattie.


And a sleepy Doughnut. <3!~

All these pictures were taken by my little brother Lucas.
Isn't he neat?
Love,
Lynnsey
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Monday, June 25, 2007

Current Music: "A Little Pain"-Olivia Lufkin; "Nymphetamine-Deva Fix"-Cradle Of Filth; "Mourning Palace"-Dimmu Borgir
I have to say that Ai Yazwa is my favorite mangaka ever.
I need to find a site that hosts her first big manga "Neighborhood Story" and read it. After I'm doing reading all the above.
They have all 68 chapters of Nana on this site, translated into english, for free. Plus, you don't have to download it.
The site is:
http://www.onemanga.com
It has just about any manga you could imagine there. All for free. Because I'm cheap like that.
Anyways, I'm living with my mom's friend, with the rest of my family for right now. It's not that miserable, but I'm not enjoying. Debbie is a nice person and for the most part we get along. I'm just opinionated and have my own way of thinking which usually clashes with that of others.
Plus she has air conditioning.
Thank you God.
So, now I'm not as sick as I used to be, in dealing with the heat. Because well quite frankly I'm not outside that much. :D
Yesterday was ok. I spent most of the day chatting it up with Westley. First online then on the phone for a couple of hours. We had some pretty intresting things to say. Like the encounter with the Huge Brown Bug Of Doom. It visited both of us. That is one big bug. It's the biggest bug I've ever seen. If I can find a picture of one similar I'll post it here. And it makes this horrible buzzing noise when it flies. Ughhhhh, thinking about makes me feel all spine tingly. And we also conversed about other things, like once again, things that happened in the past. Things he remembered about our relationship. Like the day we first met...the weird conversation that day we had about dead bodies and eating crap. Talk about love at first sight.
But there is someone else on my mind.
She's always been there. And it's always been aparent. I talked to her yesterday as well.
I told Andy about how I felt. That there will always be a place for her in my heart as well as in my life. He wasn't happy, but I think he understood.
But God, if you could just look into her eyes, hear her voice, and listen to her soul. You would fall in love too.
But there's never going to be a chance. Never. So, it's not as if I'm chasing after her. I just want to be there for her. If not as a lover then as a friend. Which is all I am right now.
I didn't really talk to Andy a lot yesterday. He stayed up Saturday, talking to me for the most part so he slept and we talked for a short while when he got up. Nothing too much was said. All he said was a lot of "I love you" and talking about Zelda. And then we got on to that subject and he told me what was worrying him. I think he sees Westley as a big threat. As well as Her. And also Tyrell. I think he's most worried about me leaving him for anyone of the above mentioned.
But truthfully....
I'm leaving him for Shun-sama, we're going to run away to Japan and have lots of rock star babies!
Kidding.
I have a new AIM SN: KittenThe Crab
Add me!!!!!! Please? <3~
Oh and I got a couple of new games to play. FF12 and .//hack G.U. VOL.2.
Oh and SOCOM Combined Asault and Splinter Cell Double Agent.
I borrowed them from Andy and John, I loves them both.
Andy let me borrow his PS2! He's such a dear.
I'm going to post a picture of him here soon.
-Lynnsey

Edit:

Dancing Andy. Here's a picture.
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Sunday, June 24, 2007

Demolished

A picture of my dead cat. He was my favorite pet. His name was Boogers.
My house is gone. I'm living with my mother's friend right now. I have AOL 6.0 on this computer, which although is slow and shity, I really am thankful for it.
I'll post more later.
Lynnsey
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Saturday, June 9, 2007

At Andy's house again.
My legs hurt and I need to pee.
T^T
I also need to redo this site.
So much to do.
Andy's bed is comfy.
I've been pretty sick this week. Worried and such.
My mind broke Monday morning, 4 AM.
Here's why.
The most unbelievable thing happened.
If you all remember my Ex boyfriend, Westely. I used to be madly in love with him, and I've been in a state of horrible depression since we broke up. We've been talking as of late and became friends again.
Monday morning we got to talking. and he said he never really got over me.
......................................
I've been in a state of shock ever since.
Why...now of all times? Why not two years ago, when I needed him there with me? And still he says his feelings are confusing him.
But I love Andy.
He is my soulmate.
I still don't know if I'm pregnant or not. If there is no period this month, I'm telling my mom.
Love,
Kitten
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Sunday, June 3, 2007

Current Mood: Amused; Current Songs: "Mourning Palace"-Dimmu Borgir; Currently Watching: Andy Hitting The Bong XD
Sorry for never ever commenting or posting.
I still have no internet. But I am once again at Andy's. And they're smoking weed and stuff, so I have the time to post. Yay!
I hope everyone is doing good. I'm not that bad right now.
Since, Andy told Chris (his best friend, not my xboyfriend), I have some news for everyone.
Well, I guess to blunt I might be pregnant. It's a good posibility since I haven't had me period in a couple of months. I'm not ready for this, but everything happens for a reason.
I need names :D.
But well, it's hilarious...Chris is tripping out. It's really really funny. Just because he's going in and out of reality.
But don't worry this isn't a habit. It's just because it's Andy's birthday. I'm not high of course. But they kinda are. Before that we all made an Rubiks cube cake, that looked like Modern Art.
But I have to run...
Love,
Lynnsey
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