Friday, November 3, 2006

Do me a favor....
I know not all of you have time, but could you please go check out Stephanie's myotaku site? It's Somniphobia. It would be appriciated...
Anyways, I can get on to myotaku from my cellphone and comment and blog and stuff, but the problem is,is that the phone capatilizes every word. I can't get it to quit doing that, so I might now use the phone that often to post, etc.
I'm still reading Deathnote vol.3, but I finished all of Love Hina and Wolf's Rain (it's only 2 books.).
I've also finally got a good working page of mine and Chara's doujin going. sorta. It's better than other attempts.
My cat drooled on my legs. It was really cute, because when someone else would pick him up and sat him down with them, he'd jump back up and coming back to me.
Nothing eventful really happened except that I got sick Wedsnday. I got to watch ondemand and metal goodness. And also they played one of my favorite techno bands on the electronica thingy so I was happy. They're called ElectricCowboy. Then there's DJ Alligator Project...they're on DDR...
Well, other than that I'm working on a picture for Stephanie, still....-______________-'
And I hope that this weekend will be good. I'm hoping. I'll be on myspace, so if anyone's on message me if you feel like it!
Love,
Lynnsey
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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Happy All Hallows Eve
I might do a little something...
Maybe.
I haven't even heard the Monster Mash yet...
I might go to Tori's but I really wanna go trick or treating with Chara...
But I don't know if she'd want me to tag along...
I want candy.
I know it's childish but I only really feel comfortable around Chara and Stephanie, doing things outside of school....
I just feel awkward around everyone else most of the time...
Beh.
So, whats everyone's Halloween plans?
Love,
Lynnsey
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Monday, October 30, 2006

Just stopping by...
I'm fine...so don't worry I'm not dead yet.
I just have been very busy with somethings...
And tired as hell.
My makeup hurts my eyes...
owie.
Love,
Lynnsey

ps Everyone should wish Bekki a happy late birthday!

pss. Halloween is tomorrow so everyone have a happy day and for all you pagans feast it up! Because I won't be. T____T
I don't have enough people to have one..or money
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

It's sleepy time...
I ish sleepy.
My eyes are having a hard time staying open….
And all the make up is bothering my eyes.
Blue eyeshadow and black under eyes.
Cradle of Filth shirt is comfy…(huggles shirt)
Last night I wanted to sleep, but spent the night writing a three page note to Her. She’s adorable in every way imaginable.
Seriously.
I watched Lost and almost cried because Sawyer was getting slaughtered by those people. He was abused and bloody which made me sad…
I’m reading Love Hina vol 11 and 12. I’m trying to read Deathnote, but it’s hard too.
Was feeling crappy, but came to school anyways.
I hate it. This feeling. I feel better when I’m thinking of the on-coming rain and
“ HOT STUFF COMING YOUR WAY! “
Lol!
Love,
Lynnsey
ps. I saw Josh at the Walmart. It's so cold how we can walk past each other without saying anything. He stared at me a lot. I used to be so in love, but when I think about it...
I don't see how I could be so stupid. He was just trying to get me to sleep with him. I'm I that bad looking that all I'm good for is a pity girlfriend?
Agh. I won't think about it.
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

I took a quiz for the first time in ages.




What Persocom Are You?


Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.


I got her a little present...pocky the strawberry kind.
^^
I love that kind..
Anyways...
Working on the fan doujinshi is harder than first expected...I sat down and drew a couple of hot neko boys on a note for Tori, because she was depressed over Nate and her spliting...and well because I wanted to write her a note.
And Logan was extermely depressed today. John Austin broke up with him for some reason...I want to know why. I hate seeing Logan like this.
It makes me sad.
Because I want only happiness for him.
But. Hanson is making Salt Mafia shirts! :)
That makes me happy.
Going to check sites now.
Love,
Lynnsey
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Sunday, October 22, 2006

Hmmmm,
I'm sleepy.
My leg is killing me. And my back and side.
I've been reading Futari Ecchi and it's amuseing to the max. I've also been trying to read Deathnote, etc...
And that feeling of sickness is washing over me again.
I also watched Kiki's Delivery Service for the first time in a while.
Chara was here as usual and we had fun as always. She concoted some sort of odd biscuit, sugar, cinamon, butter, mix. It wasn't bad at all.
Her and I are also working on a doujinshi megamix of all anime, parodying everything under the sun. It will be fun! XD
I need to go through myspace and delete the people that don't speak to me...
I feel bad for delteing people...
I don't want to go to school. Except for one reason...or should I say person X3.
I've been listening to Cradle of Filth and "Broken Wings"(Trinity Blood theme)
And thank you for all the comments. They boosted my morale by a million points!
Love,
Lynnsey
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

To Remind Me That I'm Alone....
I feel sorta depressed right now...
Like just deep in it.
I admit it. I'm depressed.
The irony kills me.

I miss her, because she's all the way out there beyond my reach of communication..But she is having fun. I mean it's Disneyland. Who wouldn't have fun?

I've been depressed for a long, long while. I've started cutting again...not everyday. Just every once in a while...when I feel the need to.
I never do it deep, nothing to leave any evidence behind anymore. Nothing to kill me, so there's no need for concern. I'll be gone in a few fucking years anyways. I feel like I needed to admit it somewhere, somehow, and no one here knows me in person, so there's no one here to look at me in the face and tell me how ashamed or how much they hate me or how wrong the think I am.
Or how sick I am.
I just need a release, a little something besides my chest tightening up, and me freaking in my mind.
I'm so tired of being afraid. I just want someone to love me, and there not be any lies. I want someone who will truly love me. And not throw things and scream and always complain about my best friend. She never did anything wrong. It was all my fault.
I can't take this. I can't take sides, because I know whose side I'll end up on. And he won't be happy, because it'll be her side. And I hate it when he says her art isn't good. Because I look up to it. She's the best artist ever, well her and her (I look through her notes and they make me smile, the drawings, espicially the Warrior Woman)(and the almighty Chelsea, and Hinaru...and also Philly-poo).
He says that I shouldn't cut myself. Yet, while we're doing it, and I ask him to cut me...he wants to and will. Whats the diffrence? Because you're maiming the one thing you wish to own? Because you don't want anyone hurting me unless it's you?

I don't understand.
I really don't.

I'm sorry all I put up here is how horrible I feel. I'm sorry I can't be funnier.

Well one happy thing...I have in my hands, 1-5 of Deathnote. Chris gave it to me early (it was supposed to be my xmas present) because I said I was going to read it on the net. He threw them at me and said "Go ahead and take them."

I read all of "Ai Girl" A short, but good manga.

You can find it and many others, including fan favorites, like Fruits Basket, in their entirety, translated from the orginal jappense by fans.

www.mangarun.com

No downloading necessary.

Some titles are still under their jappaense names so look through them.

There's a lot of good ones that haven't made it state side yet.

Thanks to Chara for the url.

And I've also been reading the much more graphic Gravitation Reminx and Megamix. It's english translated, and all that jazz.
The site that I read it on you have to have an account for, because of the graphic material. So, if you would like to read it and are too busy or don't feel like being dishonest to the mods, PM or mail me and I'll give you the site and my account info so you can. Be forewarned. Megamix is VERY hardcore yaoi and does include shota Yuki and Eiri material. Remix is bad, but eh not nearly as bad as Megamix.

Later days..

Love,
Lynnsey

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Friday, October 13, 2006

   Emoticon????
Haro to all! It's almost Fall break for me! And she got a myo site! Yay!
I had a good time on the phone last night. It wasn't nearly as awkward as I thought it would be. I had a lot to blab about.
I am so happy right now. Happier than I've ever really been. All because of one person. And they know who they are!
Love,
Lynnsey
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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

This hasn’t been the best day ever.
I found out that Google bought Youtube out…what if they start charging a fee? ;__;
Also guys playing basketball were throwing them at me and my friends. We were sitting there before they started playing and there was a whole entire other goal open. My friend got hit a few dozen times and I almost got up to beat the shit out of one them. Yeah I was mad. I was telling my friends I was about to throw my econ book at them.
I’ve been studying like mad. I have an econ final and a keyboarding final. I also have to take finals again for the other courses at the end of the semester. Instead of having four for the year, I have six.
I feel like crying right now. Every thing seems to be getting more complicated. Relationship wise and school and family. I don’t know how much longer I can take it.
I borrowed Howl’s Moving Castle, but have been too busy to type it. The beautiful Stephanie has let me borrow it.
I have totally fallen head over heels for her. And she’s the same for me. But there are complications. Parents, Chris, the school…
Everyone is having it out for me in someway or another.
Chris and mines relationship is going through the mud. It’s just all my fault too. If I would make a better attempt at being his perfect girlfriend that’s sweet and lovely then maybe I could work through this.
I don’t want two years down the drain. Two years of broken friendship, broken trust and the ever awkward tinge of love.
I gave up a lot for Chris. I’m giving up my social life. I gave up my best friend for a horribly long while. He disliked her and still does. It always seems he only likes her when he thinks she’s on “his side”. When she says one thing to contradict him he hates her again.
I got food stamps again. Yay! Foood! Don’t worry Chara…I’ll get food for Chris’s probably..And Diet Pepsi. It’s not so bad since I drink it too.
I was so tired this morning and I just didn’t wanna go to school. I cried my eyes out. I just wanted to sleep!
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These girls are talking about their stupid emo lives. And they think they like metal? Slipknot. Mudvayne. They are not metal.
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RASAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!
I think I’ll go to the bathroom and let out some of my anger.
Love,
Lynnsey

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Monday, October 9, 2006

Chinese astrology thanks to the sexxxy Chiru! ~^
The Snake is me…

Diplomatic and popular, the Snake has the sensual art of seduction down. This Sign is an interesting mix of gregariousness paired with introversion, intuitive reasoning paired with savvy business skills. Snakes are considered to be lucky with money and will generally have more than enough to live life to the fullest, regardless of how important it considers money to be; this may be due to the fact that Snakes tend to be rather tight with cash. They're not stingy, they're simply more mentally than physically active. Snakes tend to hang back a bit in order to analyze a situation before jumping into it. Their charming, seductive quality actually belies a rather retiring nature; this Sign is perfectly happy to spend the whole day curled up with a good book and, thus, can be mislabeled as being lazy.
The Snake is somewhat insecure deep down and tend to be a rather jealous, possessive lover, behavior that can end up alienating loved ones. Despite these less-than-stellar tendencies, however, the Snake often proves irresistible and is a generous, loving partner.. Slightly dangerous and disarmingly smart, the Snake's philosophical and intuitive mind generally supersedes logic in favor of feelings and instinct. Snakes will rely on their own gut reactions and intuitions before turning to others for suggestions. This makes this Sign a great hand in any business venture, possessing the caution and smarts needed to get ahead.
Snakes are hard workers (when they see good reason to be!) and are possessed of a keen intelligence. Snakes have incredible follow-through, once they get going, and they expect the same from others. Thus, their coworkers and employees had best stay on their toes, lest they anger the Snake and suffer its poisonous bite!
In general, of course, Snakes are generous and genteel, charming and appealing. Snakes must try to learn humility and to develop a stronger sense of self. Once Snakes realize that confidence comes from within, they will finally be comfortable in their own skin.
The most compatible match for a Snake is the Rooster or the Ox.
I have horrible business skills though. >< I think at least.
I know I get jealous easy…lol. Art of seduction…hmm.
Still reading Love Hina 5-7! ^^
I’m in Keyboarding and got done with my work super early. I love this class. It’s so easy.
These stupid girls said Silent Hill was bad! Probably because they haven’t played the games…or they are just too stupid, they don’t get the movie. Curse them! Pyramid Head will get them. Right Chara? Btw, if you’re reading this…if you are spending the night this weekend tell me, so I’ll bring the games!
I had a lovely romp through the park with Chara. We had a good talk. And she went down the side, and static did not treat her well, lol.
I also got a Captain Harlock gashpon! It was 2 dollars, a very good price. I had a couple of more Leji Matsumoto ones I wanted including an Emereldas one. The Chinese guy at the other table is going to have Hello Kitty crystal things next time! Bwweeee I can’t wait!
If you read this Frosty…call me sometime much later tonight! I’m in school right now so don’t call…if there’s anyway you can find the time in Knoxville TN…call after 7 my time…!
Love,
Lynnsey

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