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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
I think I feel a bit better after ranting for a while.
But all together I realize what a social reject I am. I am horrible at making friends. I don't know what to say to "new" people. I try to be nice and comment and such...but it feels futile. I did make a new buddy on myspace named Hiro. He's really cool. He's a cosplayer and boy is he is easy on the eyes. 0___0
I feel that my best option sometimes is to put myself away in an institution. If only I could pay for it.
How much can you miss someone? Although you know this person and you will never be together, because of religous issues and family issues, and the fact that it's forbidden love because of the gender similarity, you just want to cry and never stop. But it's all so useless. You should be happy because you have the best thing that's ever walked into your life. And yet you yearn for the unattainable. I just wish I could find it in my heart to turn and look away. To just not speak to her, to let her speak to me. To just stop thinking about it.
I love Andrew so much. I shouldn't think these thoughts about someone else. Although every relationship usually have a different feel to them, I liked sitting down and writting songs about her, that no one will ever hear. Playing them on my ampless, broken guitar which had her name attatched to it as well, singing them softly to myself and hearing how ridiculous I sounded. How it was so cheesy and how I dreamed of having a life with her, somewhere far away where I could take her away from everything that hurt her.
And even though my life has changed, and I've found someone I honestly love with every part of me, my mind still likes to remind me of it all.
Enough of my prattling.
My day wasn't anything spectacular. Just looking at some of the art on here, and myspace. Talking to my mom a couple of times and taking care of the animals. Reading to page 200 and something of Twillight. Listening to this song that reminds me of someone, even though the guy's voice is horrible, he's screaming it all at the top of his lungs. But I really think it fits this song. It shows the desperation he has.
These the lyrics:
Smiles and her laughter
It's the only thing that I've been waiting for a time
Regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
Trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that I've been waiting for.
I hope it's something worth the waiting
'Cause it's the only time that I ever feel real
Thunder storms could never stop me
'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily
She's simple yet confusing
Her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble
Days seem like years in this month of December
The winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep
And never will I give up trying 'cause you're everything to me
I hope it's something worth the waiting
It's the only time that I ever feel real
'Cause thunder storms could never stop me
'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily,
There's no one in the world like Emily.
"Emily"-From First To Last
I don't really like this band, but this song is really ok...
I would love to talk Bekki,but my phone got cut off. When I'm back at my parents, I'll give you my number for that house. :D
<3
I really love this page from Nana.
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