|
myOtaku.com
• Join Today!
My Pages
• Home
• Portfolio
• Guestbook
Contact Me
AIM
• abluesparrowe
E-mail
• Click Here
OtakuBoards
• [zero]
Website
• Click Here
Yahoo! Messenger
• grivershini6
Vitals
Birthday
• 1989-04-10
Gender
•
Female
Location
• Space Colossus
Member Since
• 2004-05-02
Occupation
• Zach's Bitch ahahaha
Real Name
• Lynnsey
Personal
Achievements
• College and things.
Anime Fan Since
• Four years old which is when I first saw Akira
Favorite Anime
• Higurashi (When They Cry), Nana, School Days, Devilman, Hoshi No Koe (Voices Of A Distant Star), Loveless, Gravitation, Boogiepop Phantom, Yami To Boushi No Hon Tabibito
Goals
• To ensure the happiness and stability of our future. To possibly have a family one day.
Hobbies
• Reading, Website design, music, anime, fashion, artsy shit?
Talents
• Uncertain.
|
|
|
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
Group Therapy
So, today was interesting in the least.
I had my first domestic violence victims meeting. I was the youngest person there. It felt like everyone was staring at me, but no one was mean or anything. They were all very supportive, plus Andrew's grandmother was there with me, although she didn't get to sit beside me. I got to sit next to another new comer and another girl that was a frequent. She was really nice, and was bald, because she had a disorder that caused her to self mutilate herself by pulling out her hair. I didn't really say much, but they sorta forced it out of me. I didn't divulge too much information, because of course she pre-warned us that if we talked about entertaining notions of suicide, she had to report it by law. I just told them my basic situation, and how I'd been in and out of abusive relationships and how my parents treated me. I didn't crack the sexual abuse barrier, because I figured that they would put me in Lakeshore or something like that if I did talk too much about what's happened in the past and how I felt right now. In all I left feeling somewhat better than before, although it was an awkward experience, and somewhat of a scary one. I have bad social anxieties and paranoia. Apparently my situation over the years is worse than what I thought. Although, I kept bringing up that others had it worse than me, they kept telling me to focus more on myself than others. I think I finally have come to realize that my problems are bad, and that I need help for them. I never really had someone to support me as my shoulder to lean on or whatever, except for Casey and some internet buddies and Tyrell. Chara may have been my best friend, but she was never really that sympathetic, it always seemed to be about her and what she would gain from this situation. Casey was the person who helped me figure that out, but Chara is a great person really. She's just defensive and very prone to challenging me on every little thought I entertain. I think sometimes she just used me until she found someone who would entertain her more. In a way, in my relationships, I've always looked for someone to replace her and the giant role she had in my life. I'm not mad. People change and grow up. She just grew up and found her boyfriend so there was no need for me anymore to fill whatever void she had in her life. I'm happy that she's happy though and will always wish her the best no matter if life slices that thin line of fatty tissue that holds our friendship in the here and now.
She also makes awesome stuff. If you don't have her DA you should go to her myotaku: Kuronekosama and check out the link to it. Especially if you're interested in buying custom made stuffs.
I finally got a new cellphone Saturday. If you want the number ask.
I got to go to the Waterfront with Andrew Sunday. We walked around and splashed in the big pool fountain area. I got some great pictures of him and one of him and I, I just can't upload them yet. I had a lot of fun and I think we really worked on one of our biggest issues which I hope has been worked out. We don't have many problems, but it always seems like something will come up in every relationship every once in a while. His grandmother bought me a Ramones biography and I picked him out the Ghost In The Shell movie, when we were at McKays.
Today, all I basically did was work. I did some laundry, swept the floors, took care of the animals, and other minimal things. Otherwise I was doing work for his grandmothers company. We then went and got the voter's registration form and then a couple of small things, then went to group.
I also talked with Vocational Rehab, which will help me get into college. The lady for the Domestic Violence shelter was at the meeting as well, and she's gave me a lot of helpful info.
Anyways for now I need to check some sites if anyones updated and get some rest.
<3
Comments
(3)
« Home |
|
