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Thursday, October 11, 2007
I blow at this.
Trying to edit the site to do an actual theme this year for Halloween has been a tough ride for me. I just can't find the background I want, although, I've found a few I really like at animepaper. Although, for some reason they never upload right onto my photobucket...maybe there's something in the policy I overlooked that prevents me from doing that.
Well anyways. I got a blood pregnancy test (which cost me 390 dollars at a fucking walk in clinic) and it turns out I'm not pregnant. Which leads me to the question of what the hell happened to my period 4 months ago.
I don't even care anymore.
I have one dream left in this world I can achieve. And that's having a family and a couple of kids, and just being "normal". If I can't have kids, I don't feel as if my life is honestly worth living. I can't achieve any other dream anymore. This is the only dream I have left that maybe attainable for me. As many times as Andrew and I have had stupidly unprotected sex this month I should be pregnant, but wtf. I don't want to be at this time, honestly, but I would be happy all the same.
Andrew said he'd love me all the same if I can't have kids. But I wouldn't care. We can adopt right? No we can't. I would like adopted kids. But nothing is the same as having your own. They wouldn't be my genetic material and his. I don't want to have to tell a child that I'm not their biological parent. It would be too confusing for them. I used to think that I would only adopt kids. I think that's because I always thought that my option would be to have my own whenever I felt like it was the right time. Then my mom told me about our family history, and it was if my mind changed.
I Hate Being A Woman. I wish I were a man. If I were a man, life would be much easier, and the things I want would be easier to grasp.
I want a sex change. Sometimes I feel that is an honest thought and not a joke.
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