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Thursday, December 9, 2004
Goodbai...
I'll be leaveing soon. Not to worry though I'll still be here. I'm tired of living this jack-shit life. I don't wanna live anymore. I'm tired. I'm tired of being stuck. Nothing is going well. I keep on missing school. I'm tired of school. I miss my friends. All of my friends. I miss Twittchy, Chara, Angela, Alicia, Mr.Matrix-man, Celia, Kaleb, Dennis, Dawn, Randy, BRITT, Katie, my little brother Luke, Kevin and everyone else... I want my life the way it used to be!!!!!!!! I WANT MY CUZ BACK!!!!!!! I WANT CHARA BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to do what I used to do...nothing will ever be good again. I'm always lousy and miserable. I want to go back to Central. I wanna bitch and complain about the bitches on the bus. I want to sit with all my friends and hang out in the cafeteria. I want to spend the night with Chara and RPG and play Fatal Frame 2 and make up bowling moves and make up scary ghost stories... god, I've tried to improve. I've tried to deal with things. But in the end the only solution i see in my sight is a knife and a lot of blood. Maybe if god is nice he'll let me relive my old life on a constant loop. Maybe I'll get to see my grandma and cuz and all the other people i lost. Maybe this is the suicide note, but well heres the real one:
All Apologies
Nirvana/Kurt Cobain
What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezer burn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
All in all is all we are
If I don't chicken out of this..but if I do it. I want Chara to have my compy. And I ask you bury my seifer sock doll with me and my notes be buried with me.
At least this way I won't bring my family anymore shame. I won't be the daughter they thought was insane. I won't be a burden after they bury me. Please also give my bro the PS2. I hope you all understand one thing. You were all good people. I love all of you. Please have Pennyroyal tea played at my funeral or whatever. Make sure a lot of Nirvana is played. If not I'll haunt you. Bai-bai. At least I won't have to go to jail. At least I won't have to live with the fact that I'm a failure.
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