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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Something that makes me cry. It was a PM from Tyrell from last year. I always look at it when I'm feeling down or scared.
Look, you know, life is hard, obviously. Look at things in general. You arent the only person who has or whom will ever go through these things. True just because your going through it it doesnt make it right but you have to fight. Try harder, until your dead. You must if you really want to survive in the world. You are dead, but not 6ft into the ground, then and only then are you truly dead. Giving up really does let the world win..you dont want that do you? I dont. Hell if you came here, id look forward to it.lol. Im sorry I havent been getting your calls latley. Ive been getting work out the ass. A ten page paper, a three page paper, a poster done, summaries, colledge shit. So stressful. Then I have my family getting on my fucking nerves, They cuss they fuss, they do drugs they do this and that...its very agrivating. I havent given up yet though. Most of my friends say if they went through half the shit Id go through they would have killed themselves already....You know, you really shouldnt give a fuck what people say or do or think. It doesnt really matter because in the end you will be there with yourself and God. Thats it... Your friends can only be with you but so long. Your lover wont ALWAYS be there. They can try but they wont fully succeed. You need to find someone that can understand you. Im not going to say im going exactly what your going through but im going through something simular. If you do care about me, promise me that you wont give up on life, that you will finish school, and keep going on with your life. Dont stop for people unless there worth it. Im sorry to hear about Chris....-_- If you get this I do want you to try and call me. Im so sorry I havent been answering the phone, I truly have goten so much work that I want to go to sleep as soon as I go home. I feel bad for you, but in the end it will make you stronger. Honestly, who do you think I have other than God? Eric? He is my friend, a good one, but when they day ends he can only be there but so much. People are out for self gain whether you realize it or not. People are your friends because they need people to talk to and shoulders to lean on...everything is for a reason, even friendships. Dont kill yourself, these people arent worth that. Do you think they are? I hope not..lol. Seriously, just dont give up, thats the most I can say. My whole mind set has changed.. I was worried about college, worried about school..people, after awhile it builds to a point where it doesnt matter anymore.. Happiness is the true goal of life. Eternal happiness and were all trying to get there. I understand what you mean when you say " Im alone" " I have no one" Do you realize when your alone...it is truly thee worst thing, but it is truly the best thing that can happen to you to make you a stronger person. Its just like a blind person. When you think about it no one else can feel there pain. THEY CANT SEE. That my friend, is true lonlyness, and they dont give up..do they? They keep going. You can see, but you cant feel....
Youve felt so much pain that your insides are becoming dead. You dont want to become like me, Im already dead.... Im beging you to just dont give up, think about people who have aids, cancers and stuff..they arent giving up...So dont you. If you give up...honestly....dont talk to me anymore. I dont want to be around weak people. And I dont think your weak. Dont dissapoint me,......I believe in you. Call me....peace out. ( Im in school... )
I'm crying right now....
God I miss him.
I want to talk to him...
Even if I like another guy, even if I am in love with someone else. It was always Tyrell. He's one of my best freinds. And I've never met him before. I alwyas think of that PM whenever I feel like I do now.
Other wise I feel like crap. I went to a few sites yesterday and signed some GBs. Well, so far I've been called "natzi, stupid child...etc." but the bad things I expect it anymore. I'm a bitch, thats opinonated, but I believe i'm right. I didn't know that the guy "amerill" poem was about his dead freind who comitted suicide. It's just that...geeeez people are lame.
I really don't know if I can handle this site's immaturity...
And the fact he said I was full of shitt....
childish imp.
But is everyone good?
Kitten
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