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myOtaku.com: Purgatory


Wednesday, April 12, 2006

I try to be nice...I tried. I smiled and it fell through. What do you think you've earned after all you put me through?
Here it is guys...things are comeing out from years ago, angers being released and all I'm going to say is you might not want to come to my site for a couple of days after break (I'm not going to be at school, tomorrow till Tuesday)because the venting will be pretty...fueled by anger.
Last night Kevin(JP) called Chris and left him two messages. Most all i heard was "Lynnsey cussed me out and I didn't like it. break up with her. You should dump her. Call me back. I'm still your freind and I hate to see you hurt." Chris and I had a good laugh over this one. But what I'm about to present to you is a post that Chara made. Here goes:
NOTE: this was a PM to one of purgatory's friends. as I write this i can't remeber why. I'll post tomarrow.

I am trying to not get angry, but its hard not too. I am writing this the most careful, and nicest, way possiable. Kevin, Jewish Payphone, was only stating the facts. Yes Myotaku is a venting heaven. But you don't understand. Lynnsey/Purgatory is telling the story through her eyes not whats really going on. I know whats going on becuase I live here, I know her, I have known her for five years. She is treating Chris the wrong way. She makes Chris the bad guy. Purgatory has everyone wrapped up in her soap opera. How would you like to get cheated on and cussed at daily? Chris may not be an angel either but he has never done anything bad. He's never beat or anything. He just took her back and they both ache. Lynnsey is so foolish in her life, its all about her and no one else. She has changed so much... I don't know what to do.

Your best friend just doesn't up and cuss you out in the middle of the night for no reason. she is an idiot poisining the idiot masses....

I have no idea what I'm doing.
Why am I writting you? I forgot.

I am to wrapped up in this message.

Damn everything in its self

My response to this (beware it's long):
You never knew me.
Only Bones, Casey, Chris, and Westley know me.
You're the fool my dear.
Don't mess with my freinds.
The only reason I "up and called you" was because you were makeing fun of Chris. Saying he couldn't handle Pelissipi when I know for the fact that he can.
I am so tired of your henious bullshit. All the years you've used me. All the years I loved you. You were part of my family.
Luke hates you. I hate you. John Austin doesn't even like you, I believe. You know why? because you're a bitch. Chris doesn't even call you Chara. he calls you "the Bitch". And you don't know what Chris and mine's relationship is like. He screams at me all the time. He doesn't beat me. Thats great and he is a good guy. But you don't know Chris like I know him. I've seen sides of him noone's seen and I hope to Gods will never see.
I don't have a soap opera. I have a life. I live it. A few complications won't stop me. You were nothing more than a block in the road to where I am today. And you were a shitty freind to me. Now that people have pointed it out to me I realize it. I was too caught up in the happiness that haveing at least one good freind gave me. It took away the pain of what I was haveing to go through at the time. it's something I'll never tell you. I never told you then what it was and I won't tell you now. Because you'd throw it back up in my face, like everything else I told you. Thats why I never fully trusted you.
Because you just want to hurt people to make sure that your way goes. Believe me. Everyone always told me that I should get rid of you, because you were a food mongereing, selfish, brat. Espically Brandy and my mother. They always told me that you were that way. I just never believed them.
And you're FAKE as hell. It's annoying. You don't even really like Nirvana. You just say you do and want to look cool, so you get a shirt and a few posters. It angers me.
And oh yeah...before I forget.
I have cheated on Chris. Woopie. Then again, technically you've cheated on Kevin. And then basically said that I treid to force myself on you. Thanks. Evenmore so, if something does happen I apologize, and he stays with me anyways. I don't force him to. I feel bad for what I did. I'm never going to do it again though.
My best freinds are; Casey Zerkile, Tyrell Jefferson, Amanda Smith, and Chris Hudson. Your name isn't in there. it hasn't been since you started dateing Kevin and blew me off.
Why do you think I'd still even be your best freind? You were never there for me. You were always there for Kevin. And I always there for YOU.
Chris isn't the bad guy. It's my fault that I bring out the qualities in him. And it's not like Chris didn't kiss a girl and me now about it. It was something that couldn't be helped...but in a way it hurts more. Thats festered me everyday since it's happened.
And my eyes is whats going on. You don't live my life, you definetly aren't inside my body, so you don't know. And it's not like you call me everyday like you used to, to see whats up. You have no say so in what goes on between me and Chris. You don't even know. Ask Luke and see what really goes on. He's a neutral party in this. Ask him if Chris yells at me. Ask if he Chris said that if I weren't with him, he was going to kill himself.
Luke was right there when all this was said the other weekend.
And John Austin was there part of the time to, so you can ask him as well.
I never lived my life for myself. I'm liveing it for Luke. I have to make sure that when he gets out of school he has a place to go and someone to talk to about his problems.
I live it for Bones. I can't say the reasons why, because once again, you'd throw it up in my face. I live it for John Austin. Because he needs someone to talk to, and an older sister. I live it Casey because she's still alive after the bullshit, she's been through. I'm glad to be one of her freinds. I live it for Amanda, because without her I wouldn't be alive right now. And she lives it for me as well. I most of all live it for Chris because he needs me, more than anyone. He needs someone to hold him and let him vent his anger out on. Chris has it rough. Noone knows it, but he really does. The smile is just a facade.
I do live part of it for myself, because there's some purpose that I'm here for and when i fufill it and finally go to whereever I need to go when i die...and will not be reincarnated again..I will be happy.

Stay out of my life. Just get out of it. Leave me alone. Let me be. Leave my freinds alone. I know you'e probably writting this to Momo. If you send it...all i can say is...the shit will hit the fan...oh how it will fly. She has enough problems of her own without you adding mine to them.
Fuck off.
Lynnsey

That ends it. For all of you who know me well, I do love Chris, but I'm not exactly in love with him anymore. I have to stay with him though, because he needs me. If someone said they were going to die without you, would you leave them? Chris isn't a bad guy. He's sweet, may not be sexxy, but he's trustable and I've been with him for almost two years, and I'm trying to work things out with myself and him...
I'm just tired of this bullshit. I might actually change my site name and move sites! *shock*
But fret not, I will come back around and sign all the GBs of everyone who signed before...except those who annoy me.
Like Chara and Kevin and Hinata.
How's everyone's day?
Mine was actually awesome till I saw that thing Chara wrote. But can't let that get me down! ^^'
Kitten Loves All Of You!
ps. I'm trying to teach my freind Ali, to defend herself. Have you ever had those freinds that ran and told the guy you liked that he should look past the surface and you'd actually look good? Well Ali's freinds did that to her. It made me mad, so now I'm trying to get Ali to fight back!
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