Saturday, June 4, 2005

   well now
it's been a really long time o.o but, y'know, i haven't really had time for this site ^^' anyways, school is over. prom is done with. summer is here and it's hot. so, i've been ddr-ing for a while now...it's tough! let's see...well, i dun really know what else to say that's not redundant..so, ja'ne!
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Sunday, March 6, 2005

   well, it's been a while
Okay, let's see..Umm, I've been kinda busy lately. MTAC (middle tennessee anime convention) is only 25 days away and I'm working on my chloe costume.

i'm also helping my brother babysit his friend's 10 month old baby, Landen. He's really cute...It's weird..I'm not a fan of kids, but when I hold Landen and when I play with him, I feel happy. Could this be me slowly becoming motherly and wanting kids?! *gasp*

well, not much else to say b/c i'm too lazy. ja'ne!

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Sunday, February 6, 2005

   ....
everything is just going down hill lately, and fast. i don't think it's been this bad before. everyone is pissed at each other, i had a big break down last night, people are accusing others for things they didn't do.....god...when is it going to end? i want everything to be back to normal so badly. it's so rough right now. i really want to leave. i just want to disappear. if i could, i'd leave this place and start a new life somewhere else. but running away isn't going to solve anything. i wish it did, though.

valentine's day is coming up. this is one of the holidays that i don't like. do you know how many people are left out? including me? it's a day where i can feel even more lonely as i watch others being happy together. i've been alone for so long. do you know what it's like to be alone and long for someone to have? or being denied by those that you really liked? how long has it been for me since i was last with someone..geez..about 4 or 5 years. that's 4-5 years of being and feeling lonely. i feel so worthless. i'll never be with anyone. i have lost all hope for myself in finding someone to be with. no one will come. no one will want to be with me. do i blame them? no. i don't. i'm so pitiful...i am worthless. i may as well die as a virgin. nothing will ever happen to change that. i can just forget about my dream wedding that i've always wanted..and that perfect someone that i thought was out there for me. i have no one...oh well.

life sucks so much ass...ja'ne

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