Sunday, April 24, 2005

...Go to heaven and learn to fly, then you can come back and jump off the building.
Crappy stuff is, I can't do nothing next year for schooling, course selections on Friday and everything in my school sucks worth nothing to me. I have to take an eleven computer course to get to my twelve one I really want to take in eleven. the only language they are offering next year if French, and like hell I'm taking that again! Not again! Oh the horror! Makes no sense and I have the memory of a gold fish. *sighs* I only get two electives because I have to do a stupid planing ten course that I heard is really not all that great from Yohji (Nick names again) and on top of all of that, my art teacher is an ass, so I'm not taking it next year I'd rather take home ec! Which will be fun with my pyro friend JJ.

Sooo no fun to work on Saturday! And! I had to go out to dinner with my family today! Not cool, I hate going out to dinner, my brother screams and I had already had a headache from hitting my head as I was working my new baby horse that I am just starting under saddle. I hate working, I hate teaching horses and I hate going out for dinner in public with my family. sure I love my family, I can't wait until my younger brother comes to high school with me next year, but not in public. Not when they are screaming and I am up chucking my Greek (Yuuk!) food all over. So all in all, it was a bad day. And a bad Friday. In which Yohji kept forgetting it was Friday and in the middle of an intelligent conversation between us she would say 'Oh right, it's Friday to day'
I'm going through video game withdrawals! I have not touched the PS2 for three weeks now! It's in repair and I am just in the middle of my FFX game, so close to the end! So close! And my brothers had to break the stupid thing! it'll be another three weeks till it's fixed. I would tell you about something more bright, but nothing there is to tell about that is bright. *sighs* Oh well, thanks for listening to my problems whoever reds this might think I need some help, your most likely right.

-Yasha
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Monday, April 11, 2005

   Weekends Madness
So, Mondays suck, alot. got my homework done over weekend! Yeah for Yasha-Chan! I had my good friends over (I'll use nick names because that's what I call them by) Yohji-Kun and Misty-Kun. We went horses back riding, Yohji stepped on a piece of glass in my room and almost bled to death while we were all laughing at her misfortune. She's always hurting herself! She fell of my Pony and so did I, she had a bucking fit on both of us and I just got off. Yohji was thrown. Misty-Kun Got the nice quiet horse and stayed on. Afterwards (On Monday) I got a thorn stuck on my foot and started to bleed. Yohji laughed at me, I deserved it.
I got to talk to Ichigo, sad because she won't be online for awhile, her computers screwed. I'll miss you Ichigo! *Sniffs*
my foot still hurts. And there was alot of blood. Not more then Yohji though, she bled so much it stained my carpet. *Shrugs* Oh well my carpet is like a rug that was just put there because the floor has paint splattered on it.
Attempting to find song called Truth by Yuuki Hiro or Omi. Yuuki is my fav guy out of the band. So cute. His voice is cute too.
Got a new DVD player. Brothers broke PS2 so I can't play any games and finished rather large Fan fic! Starting new one! It's ok so far. Vampire Fan fic. But I couldn't make Farf a vampire. So he's a werewolf. Creepy as hell he is. Fun to write about, I might just draw him and post. Might. So Have to go, mainly because I have nothing important to say. Luvs to you all! *Waves good bye* Oh an Con, love your new image. Awesome!

-Yasha
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Sunday, April 10, 2005

Mortality

Mortality

Time and time again I can call your name.
Some times Answers come in the strangest forms.
Lies twist and Form new truths for the future and Past, try to reach beyond that,
Struggling for hope. Searching for light.
In a darkness impenetrable you hear my voice call out to you.
In a isolation formed with thousands of presences I can distinguish your voice from millions.
Can I help you without helping myself?
Tell me sweet deceptions if it keeps me from the truth.
Don’t let your lips fail to lie.
Don’t let your eyes fail to see.
Don’t let your words fail to come.
Don’t let your heart fail to beat.
Don’t fail me.
Time and Time Again I can call,
You name means so much, and now so little.
Strange forms of Emotions so strong.
I hate you for leaving me....
For Failing me.
For secluding me,
Don’t leave. Don’t die.
I’m still stuck here,
To live out my life without you means no light.
No light would mean,
darkness....
Did I ever tell you I was afraid of the dark?
Let unbidden tears fall in a shadow that you have bidden forth upon me.
I hate you for leaving me...
....Here to live.

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Thursday, April 7, 2005

   Oh yeah! I'm a regular problem solver.
So, I fixed it. Myself. It just wasn't getting done, and i think the problem was, they couldn't do anything about it. See, being a macintosh owner really sucks. Beyond formatting it gets messed up really quickly, so it wasn't the site, it was my computers reading of the HTML that screwed it up. So I simply when online at school and Thank god I could fix it there by deleting all the Links in my intro. Good job to Yasha! I fixed it, *all happy with self*
On other hand, I pulled up all grades in School, Passing every single one! including Art and English! Yes! I think I worked extremely hard this week and got through alot of personal problems that were holding me back in life. Now it's all good and I can move forward! Mostly over my Boy, I couldn't figure out for the longest time how to tell him Bye bye, he was the worlds greatest guy. But I couldn't stand his Best friend. Some of you might think this was mean, you haven't met his best friend. Meanest Little kid I have ever met, I hated him so much. And as soon as I let him Have my boy back, he stopped bothering me. It's that Yeah! I'm single again! Feeling And yet I feel guilty. I should be sad. I'm not.
*smiles* so I got a good deal with art teacher, she says. i can do Half Anime, Half Reality work. Mostly because I can't stay focused on anything but Anime Work. And my English Teacher says he'll accept my fan fictions as
short story work! So happy. I love them both! Fav teachers in the entire world!
Well this is extremely long, hope I'm not boring you. But hey, I have to tell someone! *smiles* Loves To Ichigo, and to the rest of you, hugs. Your great.

-Yasha


Citadels And safe guards
Life lines and strong holds
An Unbreakable soul has shattered
The courage of fools had failed it’s wielders.

-Yasha
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Sunday, March 27, 2005

   All in a days work
Today, after staying up last night to talk with a special someone, *winks at that person* I woke up promptly at one and dragged my sorry ass downstairs to find my family paining Easter eggs, I painted a few and then ate some lunch. (wasn't up in time for breakfast) After doing so I sat my ass down at the computer and Blasted my ear drums out listening to the worst voice sing the worst song I have ever heard over and over again and gain. I don't know what had posses me to listen to Schulditch sing to his Spiritualized song for over ten hours. I think the song is as addicting as Schulditch is. Only today for some reason. And I can't listen to it without blasting my headphones, chanting with the choirs and stumbling with the heavy German ascent on the words. So here I am, 9:30 at night still blasting the same song. I wounded if there is something wrong with me. I think I'm driving my mother insane.

I started two new pics today. Almost finishing my second one of Farfarello. I struggled with his Ass for the longest time. It's just one of those things you just notice if you get it wrong. But I got it down, and a new Aya pic. The Aya pic I had no troubles with. Funny, I hate Aya with a passion, but love to draw his eyes. I think it's a treat to draw his eyes. I just think they should of left them red, not violet. I know too many prissy girls named Violet.
But I am rambling about nothing, big surprise.
I should be able to Finnish Farf pic by end of night and Aya may never be finished, I just got the lines and dark shading. I may never Finnish him. Still blasting music I shall leave you with those thoughts.

Thanks to con for helping me out with a slight problem.

-Yasha
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Thursday, March 24, 2005

White Roses & Crimson Blood
White Roses, whispers of purity and the unsinful events of romance.

Of moral, unconditional love and loyalty.

White Roses are sweet kisses and Idly Nothings whispered on Lazy Sundays held tight in your lovers grasp.

White Roses, devotion, security, sacrifice and responsibility.



Crimson Blood shouts of broken hearts and bruised bodies.

Screaming of cut flesh and The Sticky hot atmosphere of sinful acts.

Crimson Blood is memories of clashing bodies and twisted howls of mournful lost lovers, past lives all but forgotten by ever lasting shouts. Nameless faces and Faceless names.

Crimson Blood is like relief of responsibility and rescue from sacrifice.
A betrayal of loyalties.




White Roses are a truthful promise of a secure place. A tranquil belonging at the price of heavy responsibility.

Crimson Blood is a sweet chaos in a alternate reality.
But also a confusingly haunting sensation of being forever lost.


White Roses & Crimson Blood: Somewhere between the two live Schulditch, King of bloodied Roses.

-Yasha
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   Scanner no BAKA!
Gosh darn it! I've had it! My scanner is officially Baseball bat victim! I have had enough! You know my newest Nagi pic? You see that slight white line down the middle of him? You can't see it at first glance, but it is there. Well my scanner has been doing that for quite some time. But it was a very faint line, so it was ok. Now! I went to scan my newest Duo and Did so successfully. But there is a big white line down the middle of his forehead! Cutting just the top of his eyes! Now that piss me off. So now, I have a crappy scanned pic of Duo that isn't half badly drawn but gay in it's own way. Dose anyone have any solutions? Should I just put the pic up? I'm so angry! URG! *Shivers with anger* So no more art at this moment.

-Yasha
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Thursday, March 17, 2005

   Duo, FF and A scanner that should be in Hell!
ok, new FF. *sighs* and new Art, brad. Oh bradley Crawford. and i hate my stupid Scanner! It's so low quality! I need a new one, it wouldn't even pikc up the shadows of brads glasses and left side of nose! URG! I hate it. *Pouts* Good thing, I'll have my very first Duo pic up within this week. *smiles* Gotta luvs Duo! Ok, that's al people. Byes

-Yasha
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Saturday, March 5, 2005

   Let's sanitize our little Brains....
I swear the teachers brain wash us! Today I watched a French video in French class. With no talking in it! After the video ended I quietly reached my hand into the air asking very politely; 'What was the point of that?' I think it was a brain washing video. Something about being against racism. I'm all for that. But in French? I mean I'm not to great in French and now your trying to brain wash me too? *Sighs* I wish I had P.E. Then I could play soccer! Something I'm actually good at! And spaghetti bridge building? I mean I didn't get to build a bridge out of pasta for Gr.9 science and then miss and entire day of school to see who's was the strongest! (My good friend T.G. won! Go Trent!) But I still think that's unfair. I had to learn about hemoglobin and they get to build bridges! *Pouts* On the pulse side my other friend lent me his Anime DvDs, (slayers) and now I get to watch it! And my boy bought me Anime! I was so proud of him. He went out looking for Anime and got me some. It was nothing worth watching but it was the thought that counts. So me and him watched it Friday. One more week till spring break! I get to go see my very best friend Halo! she's my evil twin incarnate. Actually we're both evil. I don't know how that works but...
Ok, GTG
Bye Bye my good friends

-Yasha

“Squeeze harder Schulditch, I can still breath!" -Farfarello
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Wednesday, March 2, 2005

   Yohji & Michael Jackson....
Dose any one besides me realize that Yohji with dark hair looks like Michael Jackson? Look at him! He has the same greasy look'n hair and creepy sunglasses thing going on, not so much with his blond hair but Yohji with Black hair looks Like Michael Jackson. Not that I have anything against the Playboy. Just a fact I thought to share with Y'all.
I got to paint Easter eggs today! Yainess! It was all good and fun. really boring so I wrote Swiss Cheese all over mine and gave it to my pyro friend J.J. She tried to burn the thing and when that didn't work she was gonna break it. But Irish man. (Another on of my friends He didn't want me to use his name so his nick name is good enough Ja?) Grabbed it and said he was gonna keep it. because it says Swiss Cheese. Big insider there but it;s still funny because my two Irish friends were arguing over my stupid Easter egg. J.J. wanted to burn it and Irish man wanted to keep it. I said that I wanted it and roofed it on the school roof. That settled it straight then and there!
*smiles* Good day today, hope everyone had a good day! Oh Ya and The new Aya Pic, I love it! But I hate my scanner! It won't scan color very well! so it's kinda crappy imagery there, looks better in reality but this is the best I could do!
Bye Bye
-Yasha
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