Monday, April 9, 2007

-time- 7:18 pm ct -date- april 9 Bush and Blair Head to the GAY BAR!!! **don't forget to pause the music!! Browse through only the BEST videos at pYzam.com! omg this is a video of a girl whos afraid of pickles. its on Maury. I reccomend you watch!! Browse through only the BEST videos at pYzam.com! i LOVE pickles Yay DarkDestinedAngel came over today. Wheeeeeee. Lol. Dude watch the movies they're AWESOME!! If your compy is slow then just watch the first one :D:D:D:D SCUTTLE BUTT!!! -pictures- mmm SEXY ~rabid

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Sunday, April 8, 2007

  

-time- 1:54 pm ct I accually feel kinda bad I bitched out that dude now cuz hes not as bad as my other ex. I gotta stop comparing them!!! He ain't that bad. Fuck face on the other hand... *sigh* nothing can cure that boy. BUT DEATH!!! Ba ha ha ha! *ahem* anyways.. yea like I said sometimes I'm a bitch. It can be fun. Maybe I'm more twisted, cause I switch from bitch to nice all the time. So yeah he's an OK guy. I am a sexist, I admit, my mom is very sexist. I shouldn't be so cuz theres some good guys out there... Accually I went to bed at 5am, and woke up at 8am. I'm not really that tired though. I was texting him all night and we were just talking and goofing off.. I was random and i had fun even though he doesnt remember anything from it cuz he was pretty sugar-high lmao. I can't believe I was up eating those cake thingys i like at 5:00 am!! Holy Shit!! The last time I stayed up all night was at the lock...in.....last........year......... Brings up old memories. About Fuck face.... sooo.... uh...... I'm bored im stuck home and everyones out eating with their 'families'. I already ate with mine, but all I had was some broccoli and cheese casserole and 2 pickles cuz everything else had meat in it. I'm not complaining though; I wasn't planning on eating lunch anyways. So since I'm bored I'm goona change my layout. Have a Great Day I love You All Even Though I Hardly Ever Get Comments!!!! Lol -pictures- Lacuna Coil ~Rabid

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Saturday, April 7, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #6 Code: Veronica TIME: 1:16 pm ct Grrr I've been bad at updating here. Lotta stuff happened over this week. For example I had a boyfriend from Monday to Friday. Yea that sounds pretty heartless.. Well, it took 2 failed relationships to realize, I just don't like guys, period. I mean, I thought I had feelings for him, but I guess I didn't love him the same way he loved me. I loved him like brother. But now he's an ass :D. When I told him I was gay he freaked out and said it was his fault, like being gay is a disease he passed onto me or something. And he's really dramatic, like he'll be like "I am undeserving of this world. Goodbye Nikky, I'm leaving everyone behind.". I was willing to forgive him, and I guess be his friend since he said sorry so many goddamn times, but when I found out he was bothering my friends, that was it. When you mess with my friends, you just blow every chance you ever got. Plus, now that my friends are involved, who's side do you think I'm gonna take? And they don't like him very much... I told him all of this, because it's how it's gonna be. He blew it. But, now I've got 2 guys on my tail asking for another chance, and to at least be my friend. Because my other ex did the same thing. I was his friend and we still hung out but out of nowhere he started fucking with my friends and a year later today he's still begging for another chance. I know this is sexist but jeez do guys ever know when to stop?? Okay well happy news becuz i just made all of you pissd inside. Either at one of those guys or at me. Cause I'm bitchin an awful lot. So anywhos, I got Lacuna Coil's new CD Karmacode. But I think it's been out a couple months, so it's new to me. It came with a mini poster too. Yay! Which by the way I might see them play!! I hope so the only problem is its on a school night and they're playing like and hour 45 min away. Cross your fingers and hope I can go!!! O and this week is my spring break so I'll be on more. K everyone have a good day!!! PICTURES Lacuna Coil ~Rabid

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Monday, April 2, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #6 Code: Veronica TIME: 4:59 pm ct Last night was pretty much fucked up. I cried over my school because now im attatched to it, and now i cant go. we cant afford it. it sux!!! i dont want to leave my friends!! but i was being really dramatic though. its alot when you first find out aboutit, b4 you get to think about anything. but now im kinda settling down. im trying to find out about sholarships, and im savoring my *sniff* last 2 months there. well whatever. Im much happier today. and that is wierd because i purposely didnt take my meds. hmm i wonder if theyre making me more depressed... well short post, hope everyone is doing good, and sry i cant go 2 any sites today. PICTURES Zim, Tak, and Gir ~Rabid

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Sunday, April 1, 2007

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #6 Code: Veronica TIME: 9:39 am ct Since I am now reading the book, I am obsessively playing the video game it was written after. I love the song I put up. It's friggin awesome. I should not say that anymore because I love all the songs I put up... Friday morning I had a lunch 1st thing in the morning, so I was pretty out of if, like sleeping and I had my headphones on.. and out of nowhere Colton (meh friend) tickle-attacked me and I screamed so loud and fell on the table. Even that didn't wake me up, but I wasn't only tired..... but that always makes me smile. Friday night was awesome too, cause I got to eat out at my favorite restaurant, which we go to once a year. Then after that I got to hang out with DDA wich was the coolest thing ever cause I miss her so much, cause she's absolutely AWESOME to be around!! Anyway.... I loved it, and it was over too quick -_-. Stuff always works out that way, unfortunately. Saturday I played Reident Evil: Code Veronica X from like 11am to 6pm. It was awesome. I'm not finished though... not yet.... Today.. I uh haven't done anything yet today, but I'm saving today for writing stories and drawing pictures, which I haven't done in a while... PICTURES Zim, Tak, and Gir ~Rabid

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Friday, March 30, 2007

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #5 Nemesis (1 more chapter) TIME: 3:50 pm ct THIS IS THE SAME POST AS YESTERDAY AND IM PUTTIN IT BACK UP CUZ I POSTED KINDA LATE. SORRY xXUrBrokenDollXx IF YOU CAME HERE FOR SOMETHING AND GOT NOTHING. Well today was fun. Seriously. I love E-days (ignore the e-day thingy, our school schedule is complicated).. Plus E-day is the only day I don't have mathh YEA!!! woot woot ..AND I get to eat lunch twice and the people I eat with each time are awesome. I was hyper in the morning. I had a scratch-off bingo lottery ticket and I didn't want to read the directions, so I made my own up. I think it's fine though.. heh. In French all we did was play BINGO. I was like "Hey I'm gettin out my scratch-off!!" Of course no one knew what the hell I was talking about, but it's nothing new.. I didn't win but my teacher was really competitive, and she had out trolls and lucky things lmao. Lunch (#2) was only ok, cuz my good friend was feelin down. Crappy shit just gets passed around our circle of friends. I walked with her and I was late for class. I didn't care though cause bein there for the ones you love is more important ya know? So I gave my last demerit to my teacher for being late, and at the end of class, she gave it back because she said I'm an honest person and a good student (aside from not turning in a few labs). YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ FURTHER; THE REST IS JUST ME VENTING ======================================== So that made my day because even though I hadn't thought about it, I try really hard to be honest and nice and caring etc.. I sometimes want to and talk about hurting someone I don't like, but when I try, I can't do it. I've never beaten anyone up (even though I would've liked to), and when I hurt someone, it hurts me very much too because I have problems with guilt. And when someone hurts me, I hold grudges and dwell on things too long. I am a strong person on the outside and in my mind, but inside is my core where everything gets bottled up. I hate showing my sensitive side, and it shows way too much at times. Like now, but I need to get things out.. For theology we went down to the chapel to walk the labyrinth, and it's like allowing me time to think about the deep things. I somehow ended up thinking about love and relationships. I figured out that I should stay away from them (girl or boy) because I am not a stable person. And I can't commit to long term things now because I'm sorting out who I am, and dealing with depression. That is why I cannot love someone like that. This may sound slutty, but the most I can make out with (haha) attractions that happen now is hooking up, because it's no strings attatched, and it's nothing serious enough to be regretted. I'm pretty shy so the chances of that happening are slim to none. ========================================== OKAY YOU CAN START READING AGAIN IF YOU WANT So after school I've just been watching Evangelion, and I want to play Resdient Evil Code:Veronica (yesh) but I don't think I'll have time; its already 7:13p. PICTURES ~Rabid

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Thursday, March 29, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #5 Nemesis (I'm almost Done!!!) TIME: 6:51 pm ct Well today was fun. Seriously. I love E-days (ignore the e-day thingy, our school schedule is complicated).. Plus E-day is the only day I don't have mathh YEA!!! woot woot ..AND I get to eat lunch twice and the people I eat with each time are awesome. I was hyper in the morning. I had a scratch-off bingo lottery ticket and I didn't want to read the directions, so I made my own up. I think it's fine though.. heh. In French all we did was play BINGO. I was like "Hey I'm gettin out my scratch-off!!" Of course no one knew what the hell I was talking about, but it's nothing new.. I didn't win but my teacher was really competitive, and she had out trolls and lucky things lmao. Lunch (#2) was only ok, cuz my good friend was feelin down. Crappy shit just gets passed around our circle of friends. I walked with her and I was late for class. I didn't care though cause bein there for the ones you love is more important ya know? So I gave my last demerit to my teacher for being late, and at the end of class, she gave it back because she said I'm an honest person and a good student (aside from not turning in a few labs). YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ FURTHER; THE REST IS JUST ME VENTING ======================================== So that made my day because even though I hadn't thought about it, I try really hard to be honest and nice and caring etc.. I sometimes want to and talk about hurting someone I don't like, but when I try, I can't do it. I've never beaten anyone up (even though I would've liked to), and when I hurt someone, it hurts me very much too because I have problems with guilt. And when someone hurts me, I hold grudges and dwell on things too long. I am a strong person on the outside and in my mind, but inside is my core where everything gets bottled up. I hate showing my sensitive side, and it shows way too much at times. Like now, but I need to get things out.. For theology we went down to the chapel to walk the labyrinth, and it's like allowing me time to think about the deep things. I somehow ended up thinking about love and relationships. I figured out that I should stay away from them (girl or boy) because I am not a stable person. And I can't commit to long term things now because I'm sorting out who I am, and dealing with depression. That is why I cannot love someone like that. This may sound slutty, but the most I can make out with (haha) attractions that happen now is hooking up, because it's no strings attatched, and it's nothing serious enough to be regretted. I'm pretty shy so the chances of that happening are slim to none. ========================================== OKAY YOU CAN START READING AGAIN IF YOU WANT So after school I've just been watching Evangelion, and I want to play Resdient Evil Code:Veronica (yesh) but I don't think I'll have time; its already 7:13p. PICTURES ~Rabid

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #5 Nemesis (yea, still, but I only read at school when I have extra time; when I'm at home, I'm too hyper to read) TIME: 4:49 pm ct Whad'id I tell ya wisconsin people its freezing out now. I dont' have much to say today, but I forgot that yesterday was my anniversary for being on myO for 1 whole year!!! Yaayy *blows wierd noisemaker thingy* Well, sry for the crappy post... I have a project to do that was due today, but I played hookey so I could get an extra day to do it. j/k I had a doctors appt. *shivers* i hate them. but the project thingy is true, its gonna be so crappy. i dont really care at this point. PICTURES Stare at this picture ~Rabid

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Monday, March 26, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #5 Nemesis (yea, still, but I only read at school when I have extra time; when I'm at home, I'm too hyper to read) TIME: 5:08 pm ct EVANESCENCE lyrics Isn't my music sexy?? I didn't eat anything all day, so when I got home i made chocolate chip cookies, even though its 80 degrees!! Well our bathtub is broken, it won't drain. It's a good thing we have a duplex, so I can just use the tub upstairs.. Something is always broken in our house.. about a week or 2 ago, our toilet was broken. our sink is leaking, and my mom is just pissed about everything. jeez. I think I'm going to change my intro... I sound veryy bitchy. which I can be, but its usually just hostility (heh). I don't get pissed often, it usually takes alot to get me pissed. i just get annoyed or confused. When I don't know how to react to a situation, thats when i get bitchy. That and PMS LMAO. Yay I got 2 Evangelion mangas yesterday! haaaah. vol. 3&4 (random, yes, but thats all they had). Everyone: Have a great day!! People in Wisconsin: Enjoy the weather while its here, for all we know it could be sleeting tomorrow... PICTURES Stare at this picture ~Rabid

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Saturday, March 24, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #5 Nemesis (yea, still, but I only read at school when I have extra time; when I'm at home, I'm too hyper to read) TIME: 2:35 pm ct ALREADY?!?!?! TAMASHII NO RUFURAN (Evangelion) NEON GENISIS EVANGELION lyrics Well yesterday I managed to get the CSS HTML for this entire page, and made a few changes, but I don't know where to PUT IT. Lol. I have French homework where I have to make a family album, and write 2 sent. about each person (all in French) So I'm copying pictures. I plan on watching all episodes of Evangelion all weekend. I wonder if I'll get through them all... ARE THERE NEON GENESIS EVA. MANGAS? OMG I NEED TO GET THEM!! Lol, I'm officially obsessed...... PICTURES ~Rabid

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