Wednesday, March 14, 2007

  

++HULLO ALL++ How is Everyone? Hope all is well. +CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #4 Underworld +LISTENING TO: Whisper/Bring me to Life -Evanescence (accually I'm singing it, and I keep switching from one song to the other)) +EATING: Green Peppers -nice TIME: 6:23 pm ++OLD MEMORIES++ I visted my gradeschool today. I miss it really bad. Really really bad. I want to visit more often. I think I might go everytime I get let out early from school. March 30th the school is having a Lock-in, and I want to go. Problem is, it's the same night we have our yearly family dinner at SEIGO'S RESTAURANT!!! (look above under the things I love) aww it rhymed. Well, I could just come late. That would be okay. I hate being late but I'd rather not miss dinner. So when I visited today I just hung out fron 2:30 to 4:00. They had a teacher meeting and I just listened to their plans and wisecracks. Being an alumni is awesome because the teachers don't hold back then, like if they wanna swear, they'll swear, and etc.. ++BROTHER++ Colton (shit!spelling? hope it's right i think it is) is a guy I thought I had a crush on. Now this is a happy story, but not a chick-flick story so chill out. Anyways, I thought it was a crush, but it's more than that. I want to be around him, in his presence. I want to be a part of his life, and I miss him when I don't see him for a while. He's more like a brother to me, and I don't like him in a relationship-y way. I thought I did at first, but I really don't. The weird thing is, I feel so strongly about him like this bond, but I've only know him since the beginning of the school year, and I see him maybe, once a week for 20 minutes. It's just weird. I'm attracted to him, but in a deeper way, not sexual. Even if he was single, for the millionth time, I wouldn't want to "be together". It's just hard to explain. He's like a close brother.. ++FATHER++ Fuckface *ahem* I mean father. Hehehe. Yeah I'm nice. So my dad lost his job, and one of his friends is on the verge of dying. Pretty depressing huh? Well did you guy know that I've been diagnosed with depression and am on anti-depressants and I'm seeing a shrink person? Didn't know if you did but yeah I'm kind of recovering. Anyways, isn't it kind of shitty of my dad to dump all that shit on me about getting fired and calling me crying that his friend is dying (aww it rhymed) whether or not I'm depressed??? (this was before he knew) But he's 54 he should KNOW better than to dump that shit on a 14 year-old wtf was he thinking (probably on drugs or something thats practically why he got fired). Well I didn't think it was bad at first until my mom told me it was bullshit. So my mom called him to tell him about my depression and all my dad kept trying to say to her was "Let me tell you how I got fired" and "This is whats been going on in my life" and he did not even listen to what my mom was trying to say about me, and isn't what she was saying important?? OMGah!~ ++PICTURES++ My House (I wish) ~Nikky

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