Thursday, March 29, 2007

  

CURRENTLY READING: Resident Evil #5 Nemesis (I'm almost Done!!!) TIME: 6:51 pm ct Well today was fun. Seriously. I love E-days (ignore the e-day thingy, our school schedule is complicated).. Plus E-day is the only day I don't have mathh YEA!!! woot woot ..AND I get to eat lunch twice and the people I eat with each time are awesome. I was hyper in the morning. I had a scratch-off bingo lottery ticket and I didn't want to read the directions, so I made my own up. I think it's fine though.. heh. In French all we did was play BINGO. I was like "Hey I'm gettin out my scratch-off!!" Of course no one knew what the hell I was talking about, but it's nothing new.. I didn't win but my teacher was really competitive, and she had out trolls and lucky things lmao. Lunch (#2) was only ok, cuz my good friend was feelin down. Crappy shit just gets passed around our circle of friends. I walked with her and I was late for class. I didn't care though cause bein there for the ones you love is more important ya know? So I gave my last demerit to my teacher for being late, and at the end of class, she gave it back because she said I'm an honest person and a good student (aside from not turning in a few labs). YOU DON'T HAVE TO READ FURTHER; THE REST IS JUST ME VENTING ======================================== So that made my day because even though I hadn't thought about it, I try really hard to be honest and nice and caring etc.. I sometimes want to and talk about hurting someone I don't like, but when I try, I can't do it. I've never beaten anyone up (even though I would've liked to), and when I hurt someone, it hurts me very much too because I have problems with guilt. And when someone hurts me, I hold grudges and dwell on things too long. I am a strong person on the outside and in my mind, but inside is my core where everything gets bottled up. I hate showing my sensitive side, and it shows way too much at times. Like now, but I need to get things out.. For theology we went down to the chapel to walk the labyrinth, and it's like allowing me time to think about the deep things. I somehow ended up thinking about love and relationships. I figured out that I should stay away from them (girl or boy) because I am not a stable person. And I can't commit to long term things now because I'm sorting out who I am, and dealing with depression. That is why I cannot love someone like that. This may sound slutty, but the most I can make out with (haha) attractions that happen now is hooking up, because it's no strings attatched, and it's nothing serious enough to be regretted. I'm pretty shy so the chances of that happening are slim to none. ========================================== OKAY YOU CAN START READING AGAIN IF YOU WANT So after school I've just been watching Evangelion, and I want to play Resdient Evil Code:Veronica (yesh) but I don't think I'll have time; its already 7:13p. PICTURES ~Rabid

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