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Friday, May 2, 2008
youre so full of desire
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i was a talkin to tara and stuff about james,
that i dont want to break up with him because i feel bad that hes a maanic depressive and i dont want him to hurt himself.
and tara was like "dude its YOUR fucking life, youre young and you have so much ahead of you. if hes making you feel guilty like that, thats MENTAL abuse"
and, well that kinda makes sense =\\
i feel trapped in the relationship because of his issues
but i dont think hes even stable enough to be in a relationship himself.
when i left to smoke (tell more laturr) while i was gone he banged his head into a locker and curled up in a corner and had a breakdown. the mobile shrink people were called or something and he was in the counselors office for a long ass time.
i didnt hear about this until the very end, so meanwhile i had no idea what was going on except that james had a breakdown and i couldnt see him.
so i was worrying my ass off. and that was just stress i did not need.
i dont really want to stay with him, i want to be FREE of him. i still care very much about him though. i dont want to cut him out of my life, i just dont want to be 'his'.
but idk. im not gonna do it right away.
i just... cant break his heart.
but thats impossible to avoid.
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so me tara and bethany left at lunchtime to go smoke weed. but it was raining out and cold and that sucked balls. the blunt got mushy and wet haha, and i only got like 3 hits, because the first 4 times i was doing it wronngg. haha.
but the blunt was pretty much shit, im blaming the rain. none of us got high.
we had some other shit but were gonna save it for when its NICE out, so it doesnt get ruined.
so it wasn't epic.
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me and donovan were actually talking last night, through IM, and it was...
i dont know where to start.
but basically were probably gunna hang out this weekend.
i have no idea whats gonna happen.
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